Every moment, we are making different decisions. And our lives are perfected and continued by choosing one from two or multiple choices. Of course, we have to admit that we cannot always make the same decision in our lives.
Make the right decision, so our life is spent in constant regret, pain and happy hope.
But no matter what, life is too short, and it does not give us more time to think about whether every decision we make is correct. So in fact, we don’t need to strictly examine whether every decision we make is correct like we do exam answers.
.All we have to do is make a decision every time we face a choice, and then implement it without hesitation. The right or wrong of the decision is not something we can grasp and measure. What we can grasp is to implement our decision.
In the end. Only in this way can you have no regrets in this life - Ronin Pier.
In fact, making a decision is not difficult, it only takes a few seconds. What is difficult is just the time of hesitation and hesitation before making a decision. We need to weigh, evaluate, and balance between rationality and sensibility.
Find a suitable balance point. After all, in the game of life, once we make a decision, it is irreversible. The only thing we can do is to go to the dark side.
And I am a person who will never regret once I make a decision, so thinking before making a decision is even more important. Especially regarding Ling, I want to appear cautious and solemn.
In fact, to this day, I am very grateful to Jing for the series of sharp questions she asked me before, because all the questions she asked were exactly the decisions I needed to make. She was like a catalyst and put all the questions together within that time.
They piled up in front of me, not even giving me more time to hesitate and avoid. It forced me to bravely face all these problems at that moment. Yes, it was brave, because the cowardly me might really choose
Escaped.
What is my decision: to make Ling happy, through my efforts and my efforts, I will turn her into the happy bell she was at first. As for my identity in this process, I will appear beside Ling.
I really haven't thought about it, because to me, no matter what my identity is, it's not very important. What's important is that I can be by Ling's side and watch her become happy day by day.
Will you say that I am too fake? Some people will say that if you really love someone, you cannot be so selfless, because love is inherently selfish. Maybe it is correct, but for me, at that moment
I am so great, so selfless, and this kind of wholeheartedly thinking about another person is very good and makes me feel very comfortable. I am willing to continue to do this until she doesn’t need it anymore. As for whether this is
Love seems to be unimportant anymore. I love her and I am willing to work hard for her happiness. This is my personal matter, isn't it?
I know that Jing may not believe what I say, after all, everything is easier said than done, and I don't expect that I can convince Jing or Ling to believe my promise - I don't even promise anything,
Because promises are inherently too fragile and unbearable in the face of the erosion of time. What can truly withstand the test of the Lord is the warmth accumulated through long-term perseverance. So I know that promises are not what Ling needs now.
, the practical care and action she needs.
My mood ranged from the excitement when Jing started telling me Ling’s story, to the surprise and guilt when “he” appeared, to the pain and helplessness of Ling’s happy life with him, and finally to the feeling after knowing the efforts Ling had put in for “him”.
Sad and distressed. In just two days, it was really a mixed experience.
But at this moment, I looked at Jing across from me, but I no longer had any complicated emotions. I just felt very calm, yes, calm. I anticipated what the decision I made would bring to me.
The consequences, but I think I am OK, I can accept these, as long as it can make Ling no longer suffer.
Is it stupid? I don’t think so.
It was already very late, after all, Ling’s story was very long. I saw Jing shaking a little, and smiled apologetically. “Sorry, thank you for telling me this, and thank you for your blessing. I know what to do in the future.
." I increased my tone, trying to give Jing some confidence, and at the same time give myself some confidence: "These things in the past were too heavy for Ling and you. I thank you for always being with Ling.
I was there to help her through the most painful period."
I paused and said to myself: "Unfortunately, I cannot enter Ling's past. I cannot share all this with her when she is most painful, take care of her, comfort her, and encourage her, because God has not
He arranged for me to appear at that moment. He just asked me to appear next to Ling as an insider. I believe in fate, and I also believe that it will give me a suitable position when arranged in this way, so I am happy to accept this
Everything, and work hard for it. Yes, she and I have no past, but I am willing to write a future with her!"
Jing laughed, very happily. I knew her laughter was for Ling and herself. They were both too tired.
I also laughed, but my laughter at that time was for myself. Because finally, I became a fool for once. I always thought that I would never meet someone who would make me lose myself so much, but I was very lucky.
Yes, I met. Then, I became a fool. But so what? Fools are fools. There will always be one or several times in a person's life when things need to be stupid and dazed. I am now ready to let
I was stupid and in a daze, because she was worthy of me.
Just like what Zixia said in "Westward Journey" when Zhizunbao told Zixia: "Do you know, in fact, I have been lying to you!" Zixia said: "Just lie, just like a moth.
Just the same, even if you know you will be hurt, you will still throw yourself on the fire, moths are so stupid!"
Are moths stupid? No, moths are just persistent. If you must say they are stupid, then they are persistent and too stupid.
Jing waved her hand, as if she was saying goodbye to me, or saying goodbye to the past. She just left, walking gracefully and neatly, like her usual style.
I also waved my hand, turned around and left. Tomorrow, tomorrow will be another brand new beginning.
On the way back, I looked up at the sky. Ling, you know, I am thinking of you.
Humans are social animals, and they will inevitably have relationships with other people in their lifetime. Since there are relationships, there will be communication; if there are communication, there will be differences in status. Identity plays a vital role in this society.
Zhonggen represents a role that is like a ticket. For example, if your identity is a migrant worker, you may not even be able to enter the mall (see a set of photos online); and if your identity is a friend
, then you are not even qualified to love. It’s very realistic, right? I don’t know when it started, but our society has become a vanity fair that judges a person’s worth based on his name and appearance. And we work hard to survive in this life.
His efforts are just to make the name on his tombstone more glorious - Ronin Pier.
When I returned to the dormitory, I lay on the bed quietly. This was a very strange feeling that is hard to describe in words: I had all kinds of thoughts running through my head, but I felt surprisingly calm inside. Really.
It's strange that at that moment my head and body seemed to have become two parts. The chaotic thinking in my head could not affect the calmness of my inner body. The confusion in my mind was because I needed time to digest the information Jing told me, and the chaos in my mind was because I needed time to digest the information Jing told me.
The calmness was because I had made up my mind. So I just let myself lie flat on the bed and let my mind paint a picture of happiness or pain.
I need to be calm. After all, I have just made the most important decision in my life. I need to think. There are still too many things that I don’t understand in the face of this decision.
I need to calm down. After hearing a tactful and tortuous story, I need to calm down my mood that just fluctuated in sync with that story. I need to think, because I have to arrange my own role between the old story and the new story.
own position.
Yes, I need an identity.
If Ling's past stories have made her an unbreakable castle, then breaking it by force is undoubtedly the stupidest way. Everyone has heard the story of the Trojan Horse, a fortress that has not been breached in 10 years because of a
The Trojan horse fell overnight. And my current mood is indescribably impetuous and eager. I am eager to express something and do something. This is not only for Ling, but also for myself, the person Ling passed by.
"He" is like a heavy presence weighing on my heart. I am a little confused, a little hesitant, and a little at a loss. Although Jing's story is just about the bad past of two people, it is precisely because of this that I believe in them both.
There are just as many beautiful things when we are together.
Love and hate are originally a pair of flames that breed each other. The deeper the love, the more painful the hatred. Plain love can only be matched with the same plain ending, and when the flame of love is so strong that it will burn everything, we will be buried.
during which time.
Of course, I am not saying that plain love is not good. In fact, I hope for a plain but warm love. Those who are playing in the water will probably drown, those who are in love will most likely fall to death. Only two ordinary people will drown.
Only an ordinary love that two people work together to perform will truly come to an end. However, the love between him and Ling was more like a vigorous fire. Although it ended quickly, the magnificence of the process left a lasting impression on people.
But it is far greater than the warm and gentle flow of water. It is very contradictory, but I have no choice but to do it.
So, I need an identity. I don’t want Ling’s memories to stay in the good times that the meteor passed by in the past. Although the meteor finally hit her head, those beautiful things before can’t be erased. If
Keeping her mind wandering in that beautiful moment, the castle Ling built for herself would always be unattainable. Although she occasionally looked forward to the bright spring outside like a princess in a fairy tale, she left
Not coming out.
Ok, if you can't get out, then I will take you out. If you are unwilling to leave your castle, then let me destroy her!
"Ling, are we friends now?" I asked her.
"Well, yes!" She answered carefully.
Yes, friend. This is the identity I have redefined for myself. I don’t know if other boys are telling girls they can’t catch up with to be friends first. But for me, this is just a relationship.
Identities and excuses for her continued contact.
She can no longer bear the burning of another fire. What she needs is a burst of cold spring water to soothe her scarred heart. And friends are a distance that makes her feel reassured and safe.
So, I started to get close to Ling again as a friend. I talked about movies and made jokes with her. I liked to pretend to be a clown to make her happy. At the same time, I would also give her some small gifts that fit her status as a friend.
"Girls born on March 2 belong to the zodiac sign of Pisces. Girls of this zodiac sign are gentle and easy to get along with. She has a strange charm that is irresistible. She is a romantic and fantasy person, full of enthusiasm for life.
But she lacks the ability to adapt, so she needs someone to protect her. She likes others to arrange everything for you. Most women of this zodiac sign are like innocent and lovely children, hoping to be the apple of their husband's eye." Sitting in an Internet cafe.
I looked at the information on Ling's zodiac sign that I found online, and read it carefully line by line, word by word. Unbelievably, a warm feeling filled my heart, as if the information I found on the zodiac sign website represented
There are some things behind the bell. And it just so happens that these things can arouse such a strong protective desire in me, and I want to take care of her, protect her, and pamper her.
"But, she and I are still friends now!" Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly, and then thought that my original purpose was to find out what kind of things she would like. It's funny, isn't it, that I would be like this?
Like a high school student, I check on the website what kind of gifts I like according to the zodiac sign of the girl I like. But there is really no way. What I am facing is an experience I have never had before, and a person I have never met before. I can only be like
Like a drowning person, he clings to everything he can see.
"The favorite flower of people born on this day is orchids, the favorite colors are cyan and aqua, the favorite day is Thursday (which is really weird, they should be Saturday and Sunday), and the favorite place is the sea where you can see
Everything I came across..." I checked various information one by one and wrote it down in my notebook. At this time, I was really a rigid person who didn't know how to adapt.
I tried to collect and organize the information I had found, and then listed some things within my ability to give to her when I had the opportunity, and looked forward to her response again and again.
But her response always disappoints me, makes me feel aggrieved, and makes me speechless. She really treats me as a friend, and she treats every time I show up courteously and gives me items of basically equal value.