But it seems like he is worried about something, afraid of something...
He doesn't walk fast.
One step at a time.
With great caution.
The whole body is tight.
...
The young man is getting closer and closer to the figure.
His heartbeat is getting faster and faster.
The heartbeat is getting louder and louder.
He couldn't help but reach out and cover his chest.
I want to reduce the sound of my heartbeat a little.
…
There was some doubt in the young man's eyes.
He was very close.
Why is the figure on the swing still unaware?
Why doesn't she look up?
The young man felt a little irritated and anxious.
...
The young man stopped.
He stood in front of the figure.
The familiar scent made him stunned for a few seconds, and he became more certain about the identity of the figure...
He had only smelled the same fragrance on his eldest sister.
I can't tell you exactly what kind of floral fragrance it is...
Of course, he doesn't know much about perfume either.
It was just by chance that when I passed the master bedroom, I caught a glimpse of the perfume on my mother's dressing table through the crack of the open door.
Exquisite bottle.
very beautiful.
It smells great too.
Mom always smells good.
I have also tried many different scents.
But he has really only smelled the scent of the eldest sister on her body.
very special.
Smells very good.
...
The young man took a deep breath.
His nervous fingertips turned white.
He opened his mouth.
But no sound came out.
He touched his neck.
Cheer yourself up.
...
He opened his mouth again -
The figure in front of him who had been lowering his head raised his head.
Familiar faces appeared in the boy's field of vision.
The boy's pupils contracted for a moment.
Then zoom in.
Really, really...big sister!
...
Overwhelmed with surprise, the young man opened his mouth stupidly.
Can't make any sound.
...
The eldest sister smiled.
Just like the only smile that a young man remembers.
gentle.
warmth.
Very magical......
He couldn't remember his eldest sister's face at first, but the moment he saw her, he suddenly remembered it.
Well......
Are you sure it's not because I'm right in front of you?
he does not know.
There is just a wonderful feeling...
A corner of a yellowed and fuzzy picture scroll in my memory suddenly became clear and bright...
...
"......big sister......"
After swallowing a few mouthfuls of saliva, the young man finally forced out his voice with difficulty.
...
"Xiaoguang."
The eldest sister called him with a smile.
This was the time in the past when he had been mentally building up for a long time, and then he proposed that he wanted his eldest sister to call him this-
No.
It's a request.
That's what his grandparents called him.
Did his parents ever call him that? He couldn't remember.
...
Ever since he could remember, his parents rarely called him.
It's rare to call him "you" instead of "you".
Occasionally I would call him by his full name.
once.....
He even thought they had forgotten his name.
...
They looked at him, words stuck in their throats.
He didn't react at that time.
After all, he is always very nervous when facing his parents, and he will appear dull and clumsy.
This may be the reason why he doesn't like his parents...
…
Later they left, and he realized it later...
Did they forget his name at that time?
Is that why I got stuck?
...
he does not know.
He couldn't verify it.
However, just thinking of such a possibility is not impossible...
His heart was uncomfortably mixed.
...
That's ridiculous.
They gave him his name -
Yeah?
He was suddenly unsure.
Was he named by his parents?
Or did your grandparents get it?
he does not know.
I was too embarrassed to ask my grandparents for confirmation.
I can only suffer in my heart alone.
...
Whether they gave him the name or not...
He is their child.
There is no doubt about this.
Forgot your own child’s name…
Do they feel like it?
...
He felt very sad.
At that time, no one could describe the pain.
That night, he hid under the quilt alone and his eyes were red.
He didn't want to.
Just thinking that his parents couldn't even remember his name made his nose sore and his eyes red.
Even tears were shed.
Completely out of his control.
...
Later he met his eldest sister...
He never told his eldest sister about it.
Just after getting to know my sister gradually...
He was very touched by his eldest sister's obvious tenderness and preference for him.
He likes his eldest sister very much.
He likes his eldest sister very much.
He particularly likes his eldest sister.
...
Finally one day, he summoned up the courage.
After the eldest sister called his name, he stared at her and quietly asked her to call him Xiaoguang...
He clasped his hands and hurriedly explained that his grandparents called him that.
He suddenly looked away.
His face turned red.
It's just a title...
He shouldn't care.
But he just cares about it.
He wants his eldest sister to call him by his nickname.
Let everyone who hears know...their relationship is really close.
...
He rarely makes requests of others.
He also had no one to make demands of.
This time I put forward my request to the big sister...
He really did a long time of mental construction.
Prior to this, there were countless retreats.
He almost thought that he would never be able to express this request in his lifetime.
...
but......
Big sister is really great.
It gave him a lot of courage.
Still have confidence.
He gradually felt that he was confident that his eldest sister would agree to his request.
After realizing this, he was stunned.
Is he... taking it a little too much for granted?
Where did he get his confidence?
...
Soon, he understood.
It was everything his eldest sister did when she got along with him that gave him confidence.
The big sister made a very unsure boy feel confident.
But the objects of confidence are limited to older sisters.
He relied on his eldest sister to treat him well...
...
"big sister......"
It's just the first sentence, just an ordinary title...
There was a cry in the young man's voice.
The young man was startled.
For being too emotional.
Are you really that excited?
He bit his back molars hard.
The little boy grew into a teenager.
He was already embarrassed to shed tears in front of his eldest sister.
Although he had cried in front of his eldest sister more than once.
…
"you……"
The young man took a deep breath.
The hands hanging down by his sides were clenched into fists.
The eldest sister looked at him quietly as before.
There was a gentle smile on his face.
just like……
She didn't leave without saying goodbye.
There was no time apart between them.
But……
no.
…
The eldest sister finally appeared.
He finally met his eldest sister again.
He wants to ask clearly.
otherwise…….
What if the eldest sister leaves without saying goodbye again?