Moreover, looking at what happened back then from today's perspective, the emotional ups and downs were a bit overwhelming.
But it will definitely not be out of control.
However, not losing control does not mean letting go.
Old people don’t know what other people are like?
For him, Pipa was sentenced to death as early as that year.
Therefore, to this day, what the old man said is still true.
There is no room for hesitation or change.
…
After being stunned for a moment, Xiao Xiao raised the corners of his mouth.
"OK."
"I see."
"Sorry to bother you."
The old man's attitude couldn't be clearer.
Moreover, from the old man's narration, including the old man himself, he knew that his dislike of Pipa was deeply rooted in his bones.
It's an instinctive reaction of an old man.
Even after all these years...
The old man's dislike of Pipa has not diminished at all.
…
The young man's straightforward attitude stunned the old man.
The old man grinned.
"I thought you were going to enlighten me or something..."
After all, I was so reluctant to get an answer from him.
Is it enough to just listen to him talk about some old stories?
…
"Do you need my guidance?"
Xiao Xiao smiled.
…
The old man blinked.
Then the wrinkles at the corners of his eyes relaxed.
"unnecessary."
What kind of guidance does he need?
He understands the truth.
But he just hates Pipa.
It's okay to express your anger.
This is his private emotion.
Didn't affect anyone -
Well.
It seems to have been affected.
His dislike of the pipa was beyond the pale of a person who loved the pipa.
That's why he sat down here with a strange child and talked so much.
But so what?
He hasn't said that the guy's love for Pipa has stimulated him.
They don't care about anyone.
…
So, why did he want to change against his own will?
To put it more harshly, half of his feet are already in the coffin, why can't he still have something he hates?
He still wants to force himself to change?
What does he want?
…
The young man's reaction made the old man feel better.
He didn't want to finish telling his story, only for the other party to come up and "educate" him.
The other party may have good intentions.
But he really doesn't want to accept it.
…
The old man couldn't help but say a few more words to the young man.
"As soon as my dad told me that I didn't need to learn pipa anymore, I immediately threw away everything related to pipa that I could throw away, and I also put away everything that couldn't be thrown away."
"It's at the bottom of the box."
"I also intend not to think about anything about Pipa."
"It seems like those two months of study were a nightmare."
"When you wake up from a dream, the content of the dream is forgotten."
"But now to tell you about me..."
The old man smiled bitterly, "I found that I was very ignorant at that time."
"I should have disappointed my dad."
Dad just wants to fulfill grandma's wish.
But he always had a resistant attitude.
Don't even want to try.
But who said Dad didn't say anything to him?
Later, his mother told him about it.
It was the time when his mother talked to him after he came back from a fight at school...
…
Mom hopes that he won't have such strong resistance to learning pipa.
Dad also wanted him to learn pipa because of grandma.
I didn’t say what kind of person I wanted him to be, I just wanted him to be a hobby...
…
But at that time, it was... too late to let him know about it.
He has developed a dislike for Pipa.
He can't force himself to do something he hates.
Faced with his mother's earnest words, he could only remain silent.
…
The pain from his father's slap still remained on his face.
The corners of his mouth were twitching faintly.
The turbulent emotions in his heart made it impossible for him to deal with his mother's words rationally.
Compared with emotions such as regret, the emotion in his heart at that time was more of blame.
Complaining about why dad didn’t learn pipa by himself, but instead imposed his filial piety towards his grandma on him?
Isn't it too cunning for dad to do this?
…
"But I don't know if you are completely disappointed in me..."
The old man pursed his lips.
"After I stopped learning pipa, my father never mentioned anything about pipa to me."
"If he doesn't mention it, I won't mention it either."
"That's how it went."
He didn't have a chance either...
What if there is no chance?
The old man was stunned.
He suddenly realized that with his temper at that time, even if he was given a chance, he would probably only make the situation worse.
Today, his father has been gone for several years.
Maybe dad has forgotten about it a long time ago.
Maybe you still remember...
he does not know……
There is no way to know.
…
The old man clasped his hands.
His thumb unconsciously rubbed the back of his hand.
It's been so many years...
Now that things have happened, it's really too late for him to regret it again.
It's not necessary either.
…
The old man exhaled slowly.
If I hadn’t said it before, I wouldn’t have thought...
Now that he is aware of this problem...
The old man pinched his knuckles.
"young people."
He looked at this courageous child.
After all, this kid is a bit bold if he dares to come directly to a stranger to ask about his privacy.
In other words, he is a bit cheeky.
"Do you think I did something wrong?"
"I should have learned pipa then..."
"In this way, grandma's soul in heaven will feel happy...Dad...will also feel happy."
"I won't fight with anyone either..."
The old man looked a little stunned.
Thinking about it now, his resistance at that time was childish rebellion.
In fact, it's not necessary at all.
…
"Old man."
Xiao Xiao waited for the old man to finish speaking before speaking.
"No ifs."
He looked at the old man.
"So none of what you said makes sense."
…
The old man's pupils tightened for a moment.
a long time……
The corners of the old man's mouth curled up tremblingly.
"You are so rude."
He thought...
The young man will comfort him.
It will put him at ease.
He can say that his grandma and father won't blame him
result……
He seemed to have received a blow.
…
The old man touched his forehead.
"You are really..."
heartless.
…
"I just hope you don't feel bad about your choice at that time."
Xiao Xiao smiled slightly.
As he just said, there are no ifs.
The past is set, time cannot be chased back.
Useless remembrances and assumptions have no effect.
"You don't need to embarrass yourself."
…
The old man was startled again.
But soon, the focus of the old man's eyes fell on the young man again.