Ruan Yunan had a long, long nightmare. In fact, during this period, he had been in a state of confusion for a long time, unable to distinguish between reality and dreams. Sometimes in his dreams, he would do some very violent and cruel things.
Sometimes he felt very tired, tired and groggy. This time, it was another very long nightmare. When he woke up, a ray of sunlight stung his eyelids.
Vaguely feeling a strong light, he opened his eyes and saw a very small window with very weak light. He felt like he was in a cold cage, dark and dark. And his whole body felt like it was covered by
The huge boulder weighing thousands of kilograms crushed it once, and every bone was sore and soft.
My throat felt as dry as sand, and my whole body ached.
He didn't know that he had been in a coma for two days and was relying on intravenous drips to stay alive.
"You're awake..." A female voice came next to his ear. It was very soft and soft, and it didn't sound real. However, he could feel that the voice was very familiar, like a sharp arrow passing through the long tunnel of time.
It reached his ears and awakened his tired soul. He tried to raise his eyelids, and the figure gradually became clearer in his sight. He moved his dry lips. "It's you!"
"Well! How do you feel?"
"My head, it hurts!" Ruan Yunan tried to raise his hands, but found that his hands were tied. When he moved his feet, his feet were also tied. He was not angry, but just smiled bitterly.
"Sorry!" Lin Jia didn't know what to say. This was what Yu Sen insisted on doing to prevent her from getting hurt again.
"How can I be sorry... I'm... now addicted to drugs... I can't control what I did. It's better to tie me up for safety!" He looked at her, and her figure gradually became clear in his eyes. Her figure
His hair was a little messy, and there was a layer of gauze wrapped around his forehead. His face was pale and he looked very haggard. It was obvious that he had not rested for several days, and his eyes were red and bloodshot.
He frowned, "The injury on your forehead...is it me?"
She shook her head, "No! I hit it myself!"
"Don't lie to me... Although I can't tell reality or dream, I still remember what I did..." Ruan Yunan moved his lips and softly said three words. "I'm sorry!"
At that moment, Lin Jia's nose felt sore and she suddenly wanted to cry. She shook her head, "It doesn't matter, I know you didn't mean it!"
"The wound on your neck was also stabbed by me...and now...why do you want to save me? People like me should die! All this is my own fault, and I don't want to implicate you!" The body is in pain,
But it was nothing compared to the heartache. When he was awake, he would blame himself and feel heartbreaking pain. He hated himself for why he didn't die, why he lingered and hurt other people! Scum like him would have died long ago.
It’s time to live, isn’t it?
"Don't say that!" Lin Jia held his hand. The originally delicate and smooth fingers became scarred and a little rough, which made her feel distressed. "You are also a victim. I know you didn't mean to hurt me. It was all caused by drugs.
!So you can’t give up even more. As long as you successfully detoxify, everything will be back on track!”
Ruan Yunan smiled bitterly, feeling that he was in a dark abyss with no hope. "Successfully quit drug addiction, haha..." He smiled bitterly, "Is it possible? It has taken over everything about me, and I can't quit it!"
"No, it won't happen. You have to have confidence in yourself!" Lin Jia said hurriedly, fearing that he would give up hope. She also held his other hand tightly to make him feel her presence.
Feeling her strength, he is not alone in his struggle against drugs. "There are so many examples of successful drug rehabilitation. As long as you persist, you will definitely succeed!"
"You don't understand... the drugs Yanduluo gave me... I can't quit... I don't want to torture myself anymore, I'd rather die!"
"Are you going to give in to him like this? No way! You have persisted until now. As long as you persist for a while, you will definitely quit. This is a critical period, and you cannot give up at this time! In the past two days, you have been better than
It was much better before, believe me, we are about to succeed! You still have me, I will always accompany you to fight this fierce battle!"
Ruan Yunan's eyes were wet, and he suddenly didn't know how to face Lin Jia like this. "Why save me, why are you so nice to me? I treated you so badly, I don't deserve it... A scum like me doesn't deserve it.
!”
"No...you helped me when I was most lonely and helpless. Now, I can't leave you alone!"
"It was once. In the past two years, I have made you suffer so much and said so many unpleasant things. You should hate me instead of saving me... I know you are doing it for dad, but I was the one who killed him.
Damn... I deserve to die! Leave me alone!"
"It's not because of dad, but because you are Ruan Yunan. I care about you, worry about you, and will never give up on you!" Lin Jia said, and the corners of her eyes moistened in discomfort. "Hold on, okay? The doctor said it.
, now your dependence on drugs has been reduced by half. In just two weeks, you can basically recover. By then, you can be Ruan Yunan again! For yourself, for your parents, and for the Ruan family,
Just hold on and don’t give up, okay?”
Under her eager pleading eyes, Ruan Yunan nodded. "Okay! I promise you! Today, the weather is nice, can I go out for a walk? I haven't seen the sun for a long time..."
Lin Jia was a little hesitant. "But..."
"I don't have the strength to do anything to you now, believe me. After such a long time of living like a ghost, I just want to feel what it's like to be a human again!"
He held her hand instead. "Lin Jia, please..."
Lin Jia only agreed and asked Yu Sen to come in to help, but Yu Sen refused. He looked at Ruan Yunan indifferently, "He is in danger now, we can't let go!"
"No...you see he is so weak, he can't do anything to me! Keeping him locked up like this is not an option, just let him go out for a walk, it will help his recovery..." Lin Jia asked again and again,
Guaranteed, Yu Sen reluctantly agreed, untied Ruan Yunan's hands and feet, and warned: "If you dare to hurt her again, I will kill you!"
The backyard of the villa is a large piece of grass. The weather is very good, the sun is shining brightly, and the green grass is shiny. The air is filled with the fragrance of flowers and grass, and butterflies and dragonflies are flying happily among the flowers. Corners
Here, the dazzling sunlight formed apertures, which were golden.
Lin Jia carefully supported Ruan Yunan as he walked. The sun was shining on him, and he felt warm after a long absence. It was as if the lingering demon in him had been wiped out all of a sudden, and he had returned to this beautiful world, feeling that his blood had regenerated.
It flowed. This feeling of "like a human being" was too long gone for him. He had lived in darkness for a long time and missed this bright sunshine.
After going through so many things, I realized that being able to live as a normal person, breathing fresh air and bathing in warm sunshine is already a great happiness.
He raised his head to face the sun, squinted his eyes slightly, and a slight smile appeared at the corner of his mouth.
He stared at the sun in trance, while Lin Jia stared at him and smiled: "Soon you will be able to successfully quit drugs and return to your old life!"
"Well..." Ruan Yunan lowered his head, "I'm a little hungry and want to eat!"
In the past few days, he only longed for drugs. This was the first time Lin Jia heard him say he was hungry and nodded happily. "Okay, I'll let Yu Sen get it now!"
Before she could speak to Yu Sen, she was already rejected by him. "No, I can't leave!" He stared at Ruan Yunan as if staring at an extremely dangerous person, not letting go of any detail. "I'm leaving, he
Will take the opportunity to escape!"
"No! He really just wants to eat!"
"Have you forgotten what he did before?"
"That was before. He is much better now. You can tell by looking at his appearance..." Lin Jia wanted to say something else, and Ruan Yunan patted her on the shoulder. "Forget it, I'll go by myself!"
"You are so tired, how can you walk!" Lin Jia couldn't bear it and could only continue to beg Yu Sen. He couldn't resist her and had to agree.
"I'll be back in two minutes!" He walked a few steps, looking back at Ruan Yunan from time to time.
His figure disappeared around the corner.
Lin Jia comforted: "Don't mind, Yu Sen is also worried about your safety, that's why he is so cautious!"
"I know! I am indeed a dangerous person now. It's normal for him to be on guard against me!" Ruan Yunan walked to the swimming pool, suddenly looked at Lin Jia seriously and said: "I know you are good to me, and I am very grateful to you. But like this
I really don’t deserve it... I’m sorry!”
Before she understood what he meant, he pushed her into the swimming pool.
"Bang——" Water splashed everywhere, and Lin Jia choked several times. "Cough cough cough..."
Ruan Yunan rushed to the wall and pulled the vines up. He wanted to escape... It was precisely because she was good to him that he wanted to escape. He must not be implicated... not even if he died!
"Anan, Anan... don't go... Anan, come back..." Lin Jia swam towards the shore in a hurry, shouting anxiously. But at this moment, her right leg suddenly cramped, and she was so violent that she was shocked.
Her body lost balance. She fluttered hard, but it was like a hand was pulling her in the water, and she couldn't exert any strength at all. "Anan... help... I... I'm cramping... Help - help -
"
Ruan Yunan climbed to the top of the wall and suddenly heard her cry for help. He turned around and saw that half of her head had sunk into the pool, with only one hand exposed, waving desperately.
"Help...help..." The cry for help became weaker and weaker.
Ruan Yunan frowned in conflict. As long as he jumped down, he could escape, but Lin Jia... He didn't want to be sure whether she was really having cramps or lying to him, and sweat broke out on his forehead.
"Help...Help..." All the strength in his body had been exhausted, and he could no longer find any strength. His hands stopped struggling, and Lin Jia closed her eyes in despair, letting her body sink to the bottom of the water.
"Bang -" Someone jumped into the water, and she vaguely saw a figure swimming towards her, grabbing her hand and bringing her ashore.
"Lin Jia, Lin Jia!" Ruan Yunan called out one after another. Seeing that she had no response, he pressed her body on his knees, put his elbows together and pushed her back hard. To no avail, he laid her flat on the ground again.
, pressed her chest hard while giving her artificial respiration.
She remained motionless, so anxious that Ruan Yunan's heart almost stopped. "Lin Jia, Lin Jia, wake up - Lin Jia -" At this moment, he felt an unprecedented panic, a panic that was more painful than death. He was afraid,
Afraid that she would die like this, "Lin Jia - Lin Jia -" he yelled her name with red eyes, while pressing her chest. "Lin Jia, wake up -"
Yu Sen arrived, threw away the things in his hands, rushed to pull Ruan Yunan away, and punched him hard. "You beast!"
The fist hit him on the abdomen and head. He didn't care about the pain and didn't block it. He only thought about rushing towards Lin Jia and yelling, "Hurry-hurry her-save her-"
"Cough cough cough..." Lin Jia spat out some water after a few violent shocks, "Don't... don't hit..." A weak voice came from her mouth. "Don't hit..."
Yu Sen then shook off Ruan Yunan and anxiously helped Lin Jia up. "Are you okay?"
She shook her head, "You misunderstood... He saved me... I drowned myself..."
"You still speak for him?"
Ruan Yunan sat on the ground in embarrassment, "I'm sorry... I'm sorry... it's all my fault... it's my fault... I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." He punched his head with all his strength.
Lin Jia struggled to hold him, her face lost all color, and the panic still remained in her eyes, but she shook her head and smiled at him. "No need to say sorry, I know you don't want to hurt me... your pain and contradictions,
I know...stay and face all this bravely, okay? I believe you will be able to survive this!"
Ruan Yunan collapsed immediately. He pulled Lin Jia into his arms and hugged her tightly, as if he was using all his strength to embrace her with his whole world. "Okay! I promise you... I will receive treatment...
I will definitely get through it!" At this moment, he told himself that he could no longer escape. Even for her, he could not give up on himself, and he could never let down the people who cared about him.
Since that time, Ruan Yunan's attitude has completely changed, and he actively cooperates with treatment. Sometimes he will endure the drug addiction, and he does not do things like self-abuse or harming others as crazily as before. Lin Jia feels depressed.
Finally some of the big rocks were put down.
When taking the medicine, Lin Jia couldn't bear it and asked the doctor, "Can the dosage of his medicine be reduced? These medicines are not good for the liver. I'm afraid..."
"But it can remove the toxins remaining in his body and help him detoxify!"
"But……"
Ruan Yunan held her hand and smiled. "It doesn't matter, as long as I can get rid of drugs, I am willing to do anything!"
Over the past few days, tortured by drug addiction, the once graceful and handsome man had become so thin that he was reduced to just skin and bones, his eye sockets were deeply sunken, his face was darkened, haggard and thin, which made Lin Jia feel distressed. She nodded.
, couldn't bear to watch any more, and quickly walked out of the room.
She did not believe in religion, but at this moment she prayed to God, praying that he could get through this as soon as possible, and that the Lord could spare him the pain.
…
Ruan Yunan's condition improved day by day. After two weeks, everyone could clearly feel that he was more energetic than before. The pain of drug addiction became less severe each time, and his mind became much clearer. Under Lin Jia and the nurse
With their careful care, his complexion recovered little by little, and his mental condition was better than before. Before, his eyes were dull and zombie-like, but now his eyes have regained their brilliance, flashing with light and vitality.
Lin Jia saw this and was very pleased. She encouraged him every day. She took medicine with him and stewed supplements in different ways to keep him healthy.
She seemed to have seen that the dawn of hope was just ahead. The Ruan Yunan of the past was recovering bit by bit and becoming more mature and steady than before.
That night, Lin Jia found that Ruan Yunan was not in the room and hurriedly went out to look for him. When she ran to the garden, she found that he was sitting on the swing, looking at the moon in trance. She secretly breathed a sigh of relief and walked over. "You are here!"
"Are you worried that I ran away again?" Ruan Yunan smiled at her. He was in good spirits now, his eyes were bright and glowing with a light blue color, like the blue ocean. "I thought you were asleep, so I didn't call you.
!”
"Why do you suddenly want to come out and look at the moon?" She sat next to him.
"Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival!"
"Really? I've been so busy these days that I forgot about it!" Lin Jia looked at the night sky. The moonlight was bright and clear. The moon was like a silver plate, hanging in the night, and the entire night sky was illuminated. "What a beautiful moonlight.
!Time flies so fast, it’s the end of summer in a blink of an eye!”
"Yeah... things always go by so fast when I'm busy!" Ruan Yunan sighed quietly, with a slight smile on his lips, his eyes were a little complicated, but he had a calmness that he had never had before.
"I have some good news for you. In one week, you will basically be able to get rid of your drug addiction! Are you very happy?"
"Half happy, half disappointed!"
"Disappointed? Why?"
"Because you're quitting drugs, you won't be with me every day..." He suddenly looked at her, his head half lowered, his eyes shining like stars washed by water. His eyes were very deep, and he couldn't tell what was going on.
Is it just a joke, or... it comes from the heart.
Lin Jia couldn't figure it out, but the look in his eyes made her heart skip a beat. She felt an indescribable palpitation in her heart, her ears suddenly felt hot, and she couldn't help but look away.
Ruan Yunan smiled, looked away, and looked up at the night sky. "Thank you for this time... If it weren't for you, I would have died long ago! It turns out that there is really a kind of gratitude that cannot be expressed in any number of words."
Express. What you have done for me, I will never be able to repay in this life!"
In the past, hearing these words from his mouth, Lin Jia felt that her death was worth it. However, it was different now. She could feel his changes. He had lost his previous impetuousness, sharpness, and arrogance. He had gradually
Transform into a mature and stable man.
He was born with a silver spoon in his mouth. His innate wealth and distinguished status gave him a sense of superiority, making him arrogant and proud. Only disasters and blows can often make such a proud person mature and grow as quickly as possible.
He grew up into a calm man. His transformation made her happy and she was happy for him from the bottom of her heart.
"Actually, I haven't done much. Your determination and hard work are the key! You should be grateful for your perseverance to get to this day! The pain of drug addiction is not something that normal people can imagine. During this period, you have endured
You have gone through a lot of hardships. On the other hand, it will become your wealth in the future! I hope that you can go better in the future!"
Ruan Yunan let out a long sigh. "If this is the price of maturity, then the price is too high! When I think about it now, I feel that I was really an incredible scumbag. If it weren't for my stupidity and arrogance, I would
Dad won't be angry to death, and Jiamo won't die to save me! I'm the one who deserves to die the most, but it's so unfair to ask them to pay for it on my behalf!" These days, every time he thinks of this, he can't bear it.
Living in the darkness and crying. It would be great if everything could be done over again. But the cruelest thing in the world is that there is often no "if"!
Lin Jia knew that he was sad, so she put her hand gently on the back of his hand. His hand was cold, but she warmed it a little bit. "The past has passed, and there is no use regretting it. The greatest respect for the deceased is to live well in the future."
life. I believe they have spirits in heaven, and they don’t want to see you suffer. You should live better than before!”
"When you fully recover, I will transfer the company to you! I think dad also wants me to take care of it for you temporarily. I had planned it early on. When you really mature, the company will still be yours. I never thought about it.
I want Ruan!"
"I really don't know if I still have that ability now..."
"You do!" Lin Jia squeezed his hand and looked at him firmly. "You must have it now!"
"You transfer the Ruan family to me, and then we get a divorce, right?" Saying the word "divorce", Ruan Yunan's heart felt as if it had been cut by a sharp knife, and there was a lot of pain. Even just saying these two words
This word already made him suffocate.
Lin Jia's fingers froze and she nodded vaguely.
"The person you love now is Lu Qing?"
She originally wanted to choose silence, but in the end, she decided not to hide him or her true feelings. "Yes! I don't know when he started, but he took root in my heart! He paid a lot for me and tolerated a lot.
I don’t want to keep him waiting any longer!”
It turned out that hearing the affirmative answer from her was more heart-wrenching than he imagined. It felt like a knife was stabbed straight into the heart, causing bleeding and heartache, but the pain was so painful that there was no sound.
Ruan Yunan raised his lips bitterly and nodded. "Although I don't want to admit it, he is indeed a good man, ten million times better than me. You are right to choose him!" After pondering for a moment, he asked again: "
You...are not related by blood?"
"Well! I'm not a child of the Lu family! I hope you can keep it a secret for me!"
"Okay!" Ruan Yunan breathed out and shrugged, trying his best to pretend to be relaxed, but he found it difficult. He just kept smiling, but there was no smile on his face. "It sounds like... we only have the last few days together.
...I will miss this time very much when I think about it in the future..."
Sitting next to her quietly like this, admiring the moon together, watching her, blowing the summer night wind, it feels really good, just like after experiencing a storm and catastrophe, slowly sailing into a calm harbor, a long absence
of peace of mind.
Unfortunately, this peace of mind does not belong to him, but to another man!
