The immediate crisis has been eliminated for the time being, but I am not sure whether the disappearance of the two tall and thin men will trigger another search. I dragged the two corpses far away, dug a deep hole and buried them.
I also carefully cleaned up the traces produced during the fight. While doing this, I secretly decided that no matter what happens next, at least I have to hide for now.
The whisper was still the same, she was like an ignorant child, unable to distinguish the priorities of things. I explained and persuaded her for a long time before she reluctantly agreed to leave temporarily. We packed up our things and headed towards the depths of the barren mountain.
I walked a long way and found a suitable place to settle down.
The days that followed were quiet, and I was not harassed by anyone. I felt that the disappearance of those two people might have been misjudged by the superiors, thinking that they suffered natural death in an unknown place. A situation like this could only be a symbol of
Search for it sexually, and then put an end to it.
In the past few days, the weather has been very gloomy, the temperature dropped sharply, and then it started to rain. This may be the last rain in 1985. The change of seasons has made food scarce. I checked the things in storage, and there was not enough.
The two of us had to replenish what we had spent over the winter. Qingyu couldn't bear the long-term tossing, so I spent a lot of effort to convince her that I was just going out to buy some things and would be back soon.
After getting along for a long time, even with a person who has lost the ability to think, we will have a spiritual connection. Qingyu was very reluctant, but finally agreed. When I left, she didn’t say anything, but her eyes were
It was as if he was saying softly to me: Come back quickly, I'm waiting for you.
I hit the road and tried my best to travel back and forth between the mountain roads as quickly as possible. There were many things to buy, and I couldn't carry them all by myself. In desperation, I bought a dilapidated flatbed truck.
The cart is driven entirely by manpower. You can put everything on the cart and pull it along. But it will go very slowly. Even if you try your best, your speed will be limited.
As we walked, I felt very uneasy. Even though I left plenty of food for a few days and told Qingyu a lot of things to pay attention to, she was not a normal person after all. I couldn’t guarantee whether she would be able to
If she ran around, she would get lost. I suddenly felt very regretful. I shouldn't have left her alone in the mountains.
The rope pulling the cart was put on my shoulders, causing the skin to bleed. The closer I got to the barren mountain, the more impatient I became, and the more I wanted to see her earlier. Finally, when I returned to my place of residence with a cart full of things,
Seeing that everything around me seemed to be the same as when I left, I felt relieved.
But then, I heard a cry, which was obviously coming from a whisper. I didn't know what happened to her, so I dropped the car and ran all the way.
Qingyu leaned against the entrance of the cave, crying helplessly, heartbreakingly. Suddenly, she seemed to hear my footsteps, and she stood up and stretched out her hands.
, groping forward, but she seemed to have lost sight of the road in front of her. She only took one step and suddenly fell down in front of the cave entrance.
"What's wrong? What's wrong?" I ran over and gently supported her. There were tears in the corners of her eyes. When she grabbed my clothes, she used the strength that seemed to tear them to pieces, and tightened them tightly without letting go.
He held me tightly and cried loudly.
She can't express her emotions, she can only tell me her happiness and pain with the simplest crying and laughter.
"Don't cry, don't cry, I'm back." I wiped her eyes with my sleeve, but as I did so, I suddenly found that her eyes were a little red and swollen. At first, I thought it was her eyes that were swollen from crying.
Yes, but no, because when I noticed the redness and swelling, I noticed that her originally bright eyes seemed to be shrouded in a gray fog at this moment.
"What's going on!" I was startled and noticed something strange in her eyes. Thinking back to the previous scene, I suddenly felt that she seemed to be unable to see.
Those gray eyes reminded me of Qingqing invisibly. Qingqing's eyes were also like this, as if they were covered by gray mist.
I was so anxious that I was sweating profusely, but I couldn't tell in a whisper. I calmed down and comforted her softly to stop her crying, and then helped her into the cave. I observed carefully for a moment, and there was a person outside the entrance of the cave.
It was a simple stove built with stones, and I usually boiled water for cooking. I saw half a pot of porridge boiled in the pot on the stove, and there were a few mushrooms that I couldn't identify beside the fire.
Those mushrooms were something I had never seen before, and they were very brightly colored. I paid great attention to these when collecting, and only looked for mushrooms that I recognized. I can be sure that these mushrooms were definitely not picked by me.
Looking at those colorful wild mushrooms, and then looking at the blind whisper, my heart suddenly went cold. She must have eaten such mushrooms. Mushrooms may have a powerful ability to damage the visual nerve of the human body.
, whisper, blind.
I was speechless for a moment, my legs felt weak, and the world was spinning. I staggered back to the cave, regretting it and wanting to die. Why did I leave her alone? Why did I know that she had lost the ability to survive?
Want to leave her? I want to cry loudly, full of regret.
I leaned against the cave wall in despair, not wanting to move. Qingyu couldn't see anything at all, but she seemed to be able to feel that my mood was extremely low. She stopped crying and groped slowly until she reached
Beside me, a hand stretched out towards me.
She stared at me as usual. Although she couldn't see anything, she still faced me stubbornly and kept touching my face with her hands. She didn't want me to cry or shed tears.
"I don't feel pain, I don't feel pain..." She opened her gray eyes and murmured to herself, as if to tell me that she was fine.
I couldn't bear it any longer, and tears fell down. I didn't want this to happen, and I felt that I owed her, but it had reached this point, how should I make up for it and redeem it?
"Don't cry, don't cry..." She touched my face and kept talking to me like I usually comforted her.
At that moment, I felt my heart was shattered into powder.
I tried some methods, but I couldn't cure her eyes. After a few days, the redness and swelling in her eyes disappeared, but the gray fog seemed to be much thicker. She lost her vision and it became more difficult to move. She learned
My mind wanders, I eat very little every day, and I sit there in a daze, not changing my posture for several hours.
She also knows pain. If a person is born blind and has never seen this world full of colors, then it may be better. But for a normal person, if he suddenly loses sight one day, what will happen?
What does it feel like? I can’t imagine it. Every time I think about it, my heart bleeds.
The first snowfall of 1986 fell quietly on the silent mountains. The turmoil between the two tall and thin men completely subsided, and they expressed in whispers several times that she wanted to return to the barren mountains. I persuaded
She, I hope she can listen once and come out with me. Let’s not talk about whether her eyes can be cured, but her belly is getting bigger day by day. In this environment, I can’t get accurate information like in the hospital.
The due date is, but based on the days, it shouldn’t be long.
However, she is as stubborn as before. Other matters can be discussed slowly, but as soon as she mentions leaving here, she will stubbornly refuse. Her health is getting worse and worse, and I am very anxious.
This is a place she never wants to leave.
Closing the mountain will mean it will be closed for the whole winter. I tried my best to make the cave more comfortable. There was a fire burning at the entrance and inside the cave to keep the temperature. I whispered lazily and didn't want to move. After she lost her sight, she said to me
I am even more dependent on her. I can’t explain how I feel about this woman now.
Even, I can't tell whether it is love or not.
This kind of life is extremely boring. I am kept in a cave every day and cannot go out. I chatted with her, but she would not reply and just listened quietly. I also thought about the beak inscription and wanted to ask her,
But looking at where I was, I felt that maybe that was no longer necessary.
On March 17, 1986, the snow on the mountains had not yet melted. For many, many people, this may be a very ordinary day, but this day, like an indelible symbol, is imprinted on me.
heart.
In fact, as soon as March entered, I started to get nervous, because it was estimated that I would be giving birth during this period. I couldn’t sleep all night long, and even if I fell asleep, I would wake up quickly. This state lasted for more than ten days.
, the whole person's spirit is about to collapse.
At around three o'clock in the morning on the 17th, I reluctantly closed my eyes, but in less than ten minutes, Qingyu, who was sleeping soundly, woke up and started moaning in pain. At that moment, I realized that the life in her belly...
is about to be born.
I quickly turned over and climbed up. Before going to bed every day, a large pot of hot water was warmed on the fire. I definitely had no experience in delivering babies. I had read a few books when I went out to the mountains before, and I was familiar with them. But the written theory is
One thing, clinical practice is another. When she was about to give birth, I was in a panic.
I won’t go into details about this process because I don’t want to recall it. I have been busy for a long time and my whole body is covered with sweat.
A clear baby's cry, like the first spring thunder, sounded in the cave. It was a baby girl, very small and thin. I spread my palms, and the two palms were like her bed. She was lying on my back
He cried loudly in the palm of his hand, and his two immature feet kicked unconsciously.
"Look, she is very beautiful..." I slowly raised the little life that had just come into this world in front of Qingyu's face. Although she was very thin, her cry was clear and powerful, like a tenacious
Life is flourishing.
She couldn't open her eyes yet and could only cry to express her most primitive emotions. Newborn life gives people hope. When I looked at her, my eyes were already moist.
I know who she is.
Qingyu was extremely weak and exhausted, and she didn't even have the strength to lift her fingers. This newborn little life made her suffer a lot. I know that she has no consciousness of her own, but the primitive and great feeling in the body of a living thing
Her maternal nature was most vividly demonstrated at this moment. She tried hard to raise her hand, just to gently touch her child's face.
I wrapped the child in swaddling clothes and put him in Qingyu's arms. Then I tidied up the messy cave. I prepared some things and raised a few live chickens. I killed one and stewed it in a pot.
Originally, I thought that the safe birth of the child meant that I could feel completely at ease, but when the aroma of the boiling chicken soup just started to emit, Qingyu's body suddenly twisted, and then moved around like a convulsion. I hurriedly dropped the chicken soup in my hand.
As he was working, he ran to the bed and immediately smelled a strong smell of blood.
I opened the quilt in panic, and what I saw was a dazzling blood red. Her lower body was almost stained with blood, which made my vision suddenly go dark.