I never thought that my first child would be so terrible and unacceptable. I really can’t imagine what I will look like after he sucks my blood. What if I’m just right?
If I escape and recuperate at home, the people around me will be my father and Liu Xiuqing. I don't want them to be killed by my child.
But no matter what, this is also my first child, and I have a share in his life. Although I am not ready to accept him, I feel a little sad when I think about this little life disappearing before it is born.
stand up.
"Bai Qiuyuan, do you think you should stay or get aborted?" I asked Bai Qiuyuan, stroking my belly, hoping that he could give me some advice, although I had already guessed what he was going to say to me.
"I am a Taoist priest. Of course, my suggestion is to get rid of this kind of thing. He is constantly absorbing spiritual energy every day. If he grows up, I am afraid he will become another thing that harms people. - But, this child is Tang Ange.
Yes, you have to ask Tang Ange about all this. He is the father of this kid, and he is a ghost who has only been practicing for thousands of years. I don’t dare to rashly ask you to do it according to my method."
I was immediately discouraged and complained to Bai Qiuyuan:
"Really, I made you a friend for nothing. I don't give you any advice. Tang Ange, Tang Ange, can you not mention him?"
Bai Qiuyuan looked at me as if he were a monkey scratching his red butt in the zoo. He gave me a rare smile and teased me by saying that it seemed that I had a deep prejudice against Tang Ange. Why, I haven't forgiven him yet? - I was the one before.
I love him so much that I don’t even want my family and relatives anymore.
This has always been the deepest scar in my heart. My tone suddenly softened and I begged Bai Qiuyuan to stop talking.
Bai Qiuyuan shook his head, lowered his head to drink tea, and complimented the tea on the way that it tasted good.
"I think I must have been crazy that day to do such a thing. If grandma hadn't plotted against me, if Tang Ange hadn't been harmed by them, I don't think I would have made any choice. Both sides are the most important to me.
Man, actually I would feel very sad no matter which side I chose, but they pressed too hard and gave me no chance to escape."
"Then you should choose Tang Ange."
It’s true that there is no pot that cannot be opened. I stared at Bai Qiuyuan bitterly:
"Have I read too many Lei drama novels? md, the male and female protagonists in them are so good. They have no worries about falling in love. When they are bored, they fight with mistresses and argue. No matter how crazy they are outside, they are not afraid of their family knowing. It is not suitable anymore.
, break up and say goodbye, and there are still a large group of women and men who love and admire him. I find that I am the most unlucky person in the world. I am taken advantage of when I fall in love. I must choose to have a dispute with my family and get pregnant before I am married.
, he is still a ghost. The most important thing is that he cannot break up even though he wants to break up. He is still trapped in this dark place every day..."
The more I talked, the more angry I became. Bai Qiuyuan looked at me with disgust on his face: "Then do you still love Tang Ange?"
"I don't love you!" I burst out these words immediately, but the other person was Bai Qiuyuan. I don't know why, but I trust him very much. I'm not afraid that he will tell Tang Ange what I said to him. I don't know why.
I want to tell him.
"Actually, sometimes I don't know whether I hate him or love him. I don't know why he lied to me. If everything had been settled with me, I probably wouldn't be so angry with him now."
"Hmph, that sounds nice. You women are like this, without any sense. If Tang Ange had explained everything clearly to you from the beginning and asked you to pretend to marry the Mouse Fairy, and then directly asked you to eat his paper heart, right?
You said that the purpose of his being with you is to use you, so you still love him? I'm afraid you have been avoiding him like the plague."
Bai Qiuyuan is indeed a bitch, and he is still trying to hit me at this time. I dragged him up from the chair and told him to get out quickly and don't add insult to injury! Bai Qiuyuan didn't mind what I said to him. He was in a good mood.
It was written on his face, as if he had finally found relief, he patted his legs with both hands, stood up from the chair, and said to me:
"You really need to tell Tang Ange about your pregnancy. If something happens then, I won't care. Also, next time, don't ask Tang Ange to call me up the mountain to chat with a woman like you.
It’s really a waste of time.”
I was so angry that my eyes were like light bulbs, and I told him to leave quickly and not to come back again.
Bai Qiuyuan really raised his feet forward and walked out with a meteoric stride. Before turning around, he turned back and said to me:
"There is white paper in the bag. I heard that you have learned Chinese painting, and I happen to be able to do it too. My friends recently asked me to give them a few pieces, but I don't have time to draw them now, so I brought them to you. Draw whatever you want, as long as you have time.
The earlier the better, remember to look at the paper carefully when drawing."
Bai Qiuyuan was a real person. Seeing how miserable I was, he gave me a job to do. I agreed to him indiscriminately, saying that I would definitely paint it when I had time. When he saw that I agreed, he left.
I turned around and looked at the things Bai Qiuyuan bought for me. In addition to the things I use every day, there was actually a stack of white paper and glue, an HB pencil and an eraser.
I was immediately speechless. Bai Qiuyuan wanted me to use a pencil and eraser to draw Chinese paintings? He even bought glue. It looked like he wanted me to paste paper figures for him. And his last words
What does it mean? When I was drawing, I looked at the paper carefully. Why did I feel that I couldn’t understand the meaning of this sentence? Could it be that there was some clue on the paper?
I picked up the paper, took a cursory look at it, and felt that there was nothing wrong with it. At this time, I heard footsteps of golden branches and jade leaves outside the house. I quickly collected the white papers, hid them under the bed, and then pretended
Putting on a calm look, he sat in front of the table and waited for Jinzhiyuye to open the door and come in.
"Sister Caiwei, sister Caiwei, do you see what Jin Zhi and I caught?"
Before I saw these two guys entering the door, the sound came over. I got up and went out to see, and saw Jin Zhi and Yu Ye carrying a half-grown puppy into the house. The puppy looked very fierce.
He couldn't help but grinning at the golden branches and jade leaves.
"Why did you bring the dog in?" I took Jinzhiyuye into the house.
"Sister Caiwei, this is not a puppy, this is a wolf, a little wild wolf. Jin Zhi and I just picked it up on the way home. His foot was pinched by a trap, so we took him back. I want to ask Caiwei
Sister, can you bandage its wound? It’s bleeding a lot!"
Yuye said, lifting one of the little wolf cub's hind legs. Sure enough, the little wolf's left hind foot was soft and the fur was turned outward, revealing a section of white bones. It must have been some time and the blood on the leg stopped flowing.
, but a pustule is growing, overflowing with some white pus.
I asked Jin Zhi to get some of the wine that Tang Ange drank, asking for the white wine. Then I went to get a basin of warm water and brought some cloth strips and other things.
I don’t know how to treat animal wounds, anyway, it’s probably similar to the wounds we humans treat.
The little wolf was making a fuss for a while, and it was very painful to deal with any wound. The little wolf howled in waves. If Yu Ye hadn't been brave enough to hold its mouth tightly, I'm afraid I would have been full of wounds.
There are teeth marks all over.
After I finally bandaged the little wolf's wound, Yuye found a strong rope and hung it around the little wolf's neck, and then hung the little wolf in my room, saying that the little wolf could play with me.
I don't mind having such a living thing to accompany me. When you are surrounded by dead things and you are particularly bored, you will be extremely eager to have a living thing to accompany you. If
After the little wolf's feet heal, maybe I can take him for a walk in the ancient tomb to see if he can smell and get out.
A little later, Tang Ange came back. He saw a little wolf hanging in my room, and he liked it very much. He just wanted to go over and touch it a few times, but the little wolf's angry screams immediately dampened his interest, and then asked me
How was your chat with Bai Qiuyuan? Do you feel better?
I wanted to tell Tang Ange that I was pregnant, but the words were stuck in my throat several times, and I still couldn't say it out. He deceived me so miserably, but I was still pregnant with his child, and I had to tell him in person.
I was pregnant and asked him if he wanted the child? He said he could keep it if he could, and abort it if he said it. All the initiative was in his hands. If we look at it from Tang Ange's point of view, he would definitely do it.
Advise me to abort the child.
I admit that I had a stronger self-esteem and did not tell Tang Ange about this matter. At night, I would just find a reason, saying that relatives were coming, and telling Tang Ange not to sleep with me these days. I couldn't bear the risk of hurting him.
Take this responsibility.
Tang Ange was surprised that I was hot and cold towards him, but seeing that I looked bad, he didn't ask any more questions. After arranging everything, he turned around and went out.
Maybe you will blame me if I do this, but at this time, I can't maintain an indifferent attitude and obey all Tang Ange's arrangements. Maybe I still love him, so I care about so many things. If I really
I no longer love him, so I really treat Tang Ange's every move as if it were just air in my eyes.
I slept alone at night, looking at the little wolf lying on the ground and stroking the baby in my belly. For some reason, I suddenly wanted to keep him and hear him call me mom after he was born. That feeling makes me sad just thinking about it.
I am very happy. By the way, is this a boy or a girl? If it is not born, what name should I give it? It cannot be named after Tang Ange, it must be named after me.
One night, I was just thinking about the problem of the child in my belly, until I finally fell asleep.
I had a very strange dream. I dreamed that I was tearing apart the little wolf's body, eating its meat, and drinking its blood. There was a strong fishy smell in my mouth.