501. Chapter 501 The love that others can't read 12
Thinking of this, Shengshi raised his hand and grabbed his hair fiercely. His head hung heavily, and no one could see his expression. How painful it was at this moment.
It's so painful that I don't want to live.
What is the most painful situation in history? Just like in today's prosperous times, you can only watch things reach an irreversible point, but you can't do anything about it.
"You can get whatever you want, but I, the one who loves, can't love, and I can't do what I want to do. I can only watch the desire in my heart and force myself to forget it."
"Things I thought belonged to me, in the end, never really belonged to me."
"I have never lived for myself once in my life."
"But you can easily make your life smooth and comfortable... My mother doesn't want me, she doesn't want me anymore, and everyone doesn't want me..."
Now, thinking about it calmly, it seems that it is really like what Gu Lanshan said. Everyone in their circle can fight for themselves, but she has never lived a good life for her.
once.
When she was young, she was sold to the Gu family as a chess piece. She finally found warmth, but was betrayed by him. Then she managed to get up and tried to escape, but her brother was hit by a car and became a vegetative state. She gave in helplessly once again.
Due to fate, I married him.
But now, when she encounters such a thing, she has no choice. The only thing she can do is to die.
Before she died, what did she think about, how much courage did she muster, and how desperate was she?
Has she ever thought that if she had an afterlife, would she never want to live such a life again?
Does she feel that even if she lives a miserable life, it would be better than being manipulated by others?
Shengshi grabbed his hair even harder.
He always thought that if you loved someone deeply, you would hold her firmly in your hands and never let her go.
But now, he realizes that if you really love someone deeply, you can't be selfish.
She is not happy, and neither are you.
She is in pain, and you are in more pain than she is.
If you tie the first button wrong, you won't find it until the last button.
Some things are wrong from the beginning, but only in the end will you have to admit it.
I still remember the first time I met her. She had just been bought into the Gu family as an adopted daughter. She was dressed shabby and panicked, while he was elegant and flashy in a black suit and red bow tie.
At that time, he was careless.
But now, he realizes that although he seems to be omnipotent in this life, he is powerless against three things: