I answered An Lan's call, and she asked me over the phone: "Today is your second day in Beijing, are you feeling okay?"
Her voice was so kind and gentle, it was like a shot of adrenaline, coaxing away my garbage emotions.
"It's okay, there's no big ups and downs. It's just that the medicine in this hospital smells bad."
"When you have nothing to do, go downstairs and do some activities. Don't stay in the ward all the time. That will also affect your mood.
I said "hmm" and said, "You're right, I've been impressed by it now, it's very bad."
"You personally just like to think wildly. Just relax and you'll be fine."
"An Lan, last night, I had a dream. I dreamed that the operation was successful, but the follow-up chemotherapy was not successful. The doctor sentenced me to death. The feeling was very real. I felt like I was going to die soon. But in the dream,
I married a woman with the same physical disability as my wife, and we lived a normal life like this. We didn’t even have children. You can tell me, if this dream happened in reality, would it be considered a good outcome or a
Bad results?”
When I finished speaking, An Lan suddenly fell silent.
After a long time, she replied: "Unfortunately, in my eyes, you are not a man who is willing to be mediocre."
"So, I'm very nervous now! But what's the use of being nervous? My fate has been left in the hands of the doctor a long time ago. If it turns out to be like what I had in my dream, just think of it as the retribution given to me by fate."
"Why do you say that? Why are you so negative?"
"There is no negativity. I have not done everything upright in my life. I have done bad things and had bad thoughts. I can only think this way. This way, I will be easier to accept."
These words may sound verbose, but they are exactly a sign of nervousness.
Of course, a woman as keen as An Lan could feel it, so she fell into silence.
And I remained silent in her silence and never said another word.
After a very long silence, An Lan finally spoke. She whispered to me: "Chen Feng, if reality is really like your dream, then I will still marry you. At that time, we will exit the mall and bring
Xiaoman, go back to your hometown and live an ordinary life."
I sat motionless on the hospital bed. Everything I heard at this moment was more like a dream than a dream!
No, this is a dream. The dream I thought was a dream is reality!
However, An Lan's voice on the phone was so real.
For me, it is really an honor to meet a woman like An Lan, and it is a blessing I gained in my previous life.
I can feel my Adam's apple moving rapidly
It seemed like a long time passed before I finally said to her: "But my life has entered a countdown, don't you regret it?"
"Then let me ask you, if I was like this, would you regret it?"
"Don't ask me this question every time. I might drag you down at that time."
"No regrets!"
When An Lan said these four words, my eyes immediately became moist, and two lines of hot tears fell from my eyes.
Even now, I haven't remembered the past with her, but she is really like her own life to me.
I don't even need to remember the past anymore, that's fine.
After another brief silence, I suddenly asked her: "An Lan, I miss you so much, especially now, I want to give you a hug."
"I can fly to Beijing now."
Although I really hope she can come, even if she just sits next to my hospital bed and lets me take a look.
But at this time, I have to be more rational, because the company also needs her for many things, and I cannot affect her and the normal operation of the entire group just because of my personal psychological comfort.
I finally said to her: "No, I still hope to see you and Xiaoman when I wake up after the operation."
"Okay, I promise you."
"An Lan." I called her again.
"Yeah." She responded softly.
"I have a question that I particularly want to ask you."
"you say."
"I have forgotten all the past things. I just want to ask you, how did we get together before?"
"It's a long story. It's definitely not because of a certain incident, but because of my love after getting along for a long time."
"What do you like me?"
An Lan suddenly smiled again and said: "Your character, as well as your attitude towards things, including your way of life, and your disregard for love. What's more fortunate is that I am the woman who makes you disregard your own safety."
"So, I fell into despair. I secretly told myself: I must be with you in this life. When you are in trouble, I will be as desperate as you are to me."
"Time flies really fast. In the blink of an eye, this is already the third year we have known each other. Many people and things around us have changed, but this idea has never changed in my heart, so I am rational."
"Chen Feng, if your life is really like your dream, then I will be willing to follow you wherever you go!"
An Lan almost didn't pause and finished speaking this long paragraph.
And I didn't respond to her words immediately, but turned my gaze to the window
It rained again in Beijing. The rainwater floated on the windows, forming small water droplets. Then they gathered together, and then slid down the windows, and so on.
So, at that moment, my heart was moved, and at the moment when my heart was moved, I was extremely clear-headed.
I smiled and finally said to An Lan: "When you say that, it seems that I have bought an insurance for myself. If my disease can be cured, I can do whatever I want to do as before. But if
It’s not a big deal if there’s no cure, because I can still get the life I dreamed of.”
"I say this just because I hope you will think so. Do you understand what I mean?"
"I understand." I paused and said with a wry smile, "But why does it sound so sad?"
"I understand what you mean. Your thoughts are more mature than I thought, but I still want to tell you, don't be afraid of becoming a burden to me."
I said "Yeah" first, and then said: "This actually has nothing to do with maturity. I just think that if a man loses his responsible side, he is not worthy of being a man."
"Then I'm waiting for your good news."
"Well, yes, I will definitely get better, because my life has just begun."
After the call with An Lan ended, I fell into a feeling that I had never felt before. This feeling was brought by An Lan just now.
Her words were like a dose of good medicine for me, which gradually healed my mood.
At this time, the door of the ward was pushed open. Zhou Mo didn't know where he had been, so he returned to the ward.
I looked at the door of the ward and saw that she was holding a physical examination form in her hand. She was probably going to get the examination report for me.
But she did not come towards my hospital bed. After putting the examination report aside, she went to open a window.
I shouted to her: "Zhou Mo, did you just go get the medical examination form?"
"Yeah." She responded softly, but I felt that her mood seemed not to be very good.
I asked her again: "What's going on? Show me the checklist."
She remained unmoved, as if she didn't hear what I said.
I didn't call her again and prepared to get it myself.
Seeing that I was about to get off the hospital bed, Zhou Mo picked up the examination report and walked towards me. Only then did I realize that her eyes were red.