She still looked at me with such indifference, as if the feelings she had over the past few years were all fake and she was pretending.
But now, she no longer has to pretend, so she is back to the person she was when they first met.
She just looked at me coldly and said without any hesitation: "It's true, I have never loved you! Also, don't talk about whether you will die or not in front of me. Whether you die or not has nothing to do with me."
When I heard this, I felt as if I had been struck by lightning, and my head instantly turned pale.
She turned around and was about to leave. I subconsciously reached out to hold her and said, "An Lan, is it so difficult for me to hear the truth? We have been together through thick and thin for so long, and you tell me that you are pretending all this? You
How can I believe it?"
"Okay, then I'll give you a reason, Chen Feng, you should think about your own future now... The company will soon face bankruptcy, and you will also face jail. You asked me to follow you, with two
A child, do you suffer?"
I held her hand and suddenly it stiffened, as if all the strength in my body had been drained away in an instant.
After she threw my hand away, she said coldly: "I have already asked a lawyer to print out the divorce agreement. Xiaoman belongs to you, Yangyang belongs to me, and I don't want anything else. This is fair."
I swallowed hard, and my throat felt dry and itchy, as if I had swallowed a razor blade.
I took a deep breath, exhaled it for a long time and said, "One last question, can you tell me that you have really been playing tricks on me all these years? Tell the truth."
"No, it was true at the beginning, but it wasn't true when I had Xiaoman. I also thought about living with a person like you for the rest of my life, but later I got tired of this kind of life."
After a pause, she continued: "You don't know me at all, and you may think that I am perfect, but in fact I am not. I have been a princess since I was a child, and the people around me are people you will never come into contact with in your life...I am here,
It’s just a blockage, otherwise I wouldn’t be able to meet a little person like you!”
The word "little person" is so harsh, and the tone and look in her eyes when she said this made me feel so strange.
She added: "Don't have any illusions. I can even tell you that I had a relationship with Sean during the time you disappeared..."
"What did you say?!" I looked at her with wide eyes.
"Do you need me to repeat that?"
"Snapped!"
I raised my hand and slapped her on the face. I hated such a woman and hated such humiliation!
After being slapped by me, An Lan looked at me with a smile instead of anger and said: "I won't argue with you about this slap, but that's it for us! Remember, I'll see you at the Civil Affairs Bureau at ten o'clock tomorrow morning. If
If you don’t come, I’ll see you in court!”
After saying that, she decisively turned around and walked out without leaving another word.
Her last words were like a knife stabbing into my chest, tearing a gap where the needle had just been, and letting my hope escape from that gap.
Listening to her footsteps coming downstairs, I sat on the floor and had no strength to keep her.
I raised my head to prevent the warm feeling from the corner of my eyes from turning into tears, but there was an overwhelming feeling of powerlessness in my heart. I was unable to restrain her.
I thought: I will never forget this evening in my life, the figure of her turning away indifferently.
My whole body was numb, I couldn't feel reality anymore, and everything became illusory.
It seems that the past few years since I met her have been a figment of my imagination.
I love her so much, I am even willing to risk everything for her, but why does it end like this?
Why?
I just sat there alone on the ground, my mind went blank.
I also gradually understand that the most unplanned thing in this world is love. No matter how beautiful we were, no matter how beautiful we dreamed of love, reality is always smearing it, leaving us lost in the mud of love. .
I was so sleepy and tired, lying on the cold ground and fell asleep...
I don’t know how long it took, but I was woken up by Xiaoman’s voice.
"Dad, why are you sleeping on the ground? Get up quickly, Dad, the ground is cold."
The little Xiaoman pulled me up hard, and when I looked at her, I couldn't help crying.
"Dad, why are you crying?"
"Xiao Man, dad... dad's eyes don't feel right."
"Then let me help daddy blow it..." Xiaoman said, and immediately blew the wind gently into my eyes.
I want to cry even more. If everything with An Lan is a dream, what about Xiaoman?
Thinking of Xiaoman, I regained my motivation, stood up from the ground, and picked her up.
I said to her: "Xiao Man, mom is leaving us."
"Why did mom leave us? Where is she going?"
"A place far, far away..."
"Then dad, are you going too?"
I shook my head: "I'm not going, Xiaoman, are you going?"
"I'm following dad. Where dad is, Xiaoman will be there."
I couldn't bear it any longer, so I hugged Xiaoman and cried bitterly.
"Daddy don't cry, daddy don't cry..."
"Xiao Man, you'd better go with your mother. You'll suffer hardship if you follow your father. You should go with your mother. My brother is also over there." I choked and said.
But she still replied without hesitation: "No, Xiaoman wants to follow daddy. Xiaoman is not afraid."
"Then don't you miss your mother?"
"I wonder, but why do mom and dad want to go so far away? Why don't you go?"
"Because...because...Xiaoman, we adults have many things that we cannot say. In short, dad can't go, and mom must go too."
"Oh, but, Dad, I don't want... I don't want you to be separated from your mother. I want my parents and my brother to be together."
"There is nothing I can do, Xiaoman. Dad doesn't know how to explain it to you... When you grow up, you will understand."
"I don't care, I will follow dad."
"Okay, Xiaoman, from now on, father and daughter will depend on each other."
I don't think about it so much anymore, even though my heart hurts, even though I feel like there is no point in living anymore.
But I still have Xiaoman, and I have such a lovely daughter, I can’t let it go!
I just feel that I have just been dreaming all these years, because I never imagined that the conflict would suddenly intensify to this point.
Think about it again, life is like a dream and life is impermanent.
No one has the ability to make this world develop along the trajectory planned by himself, so it is not worth worrying about gains and losses for this impermanent world.
It doesn't matter, we will eventually live a life we hate.
That night, I didn't sleep all night.
I have thought about it carefully every day since I got to know An Lan, fell in love, and gave birth to Xiaoman and Yangyang for me.
I suddenly realized that it didn't make any sense, because all this was just my own passion.
The next morning, I tidied myself up and put on a brand new suit and polished leather shoes.
I just want to say goodbye to her in the most honorable way.