At 9:30 in the morning, I arrived at the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau.
I wear sunglasses because I don't want others to see my emotions.
But this kind of self-concealment would only make me more painful. I stood alone at the door of the Civil Affairs Bureau, watching the people coming and going.
There are young lovers who are talking and laughing and holding hands all the way, there are also some who are strangers to each other, and there are also some who parted ways after coming out of the Civil Affairs Bureau...
When I looked at these real faces, I suddenly realized that I had really failed in my marriage.
This is my second marriage. I originally thought we could grow old together, and I have imagined countless times what our life will be like when we grow old.
But fantasy is just fantasy after all. This cruel reality comes so violently that it makes people defenseless and difficult to accept.
I lit a cigarette, puffed hard, and looked up at the gloomy sky.
Suddenly I remembered the day when An Lan and I received the certificate, the sun was shining brightly, we were both wearing our best clothes, she held my arm, and we walked into the Civil Affairs Bureau with sweet smiles all the way.
When the staff asked us if we wanted to become husband and wife, we smiled at each other and nodded at the same time saying yes.
But now, when I think about these past events, I just feel a pain in my heart.
I'm not good enough for her. She's just trying to block her anger by being with me. She never really loves me at all.
These cold words were like cold knives aimed at my chest and stabbed in hard.
At this moment, I felt like a clown abandoned by the world, suffering the ridiculing gazes of passers-by in pain.
I just regret that I don’t have a mask to hide my shame at this moment.
I was really tired, but I kept asking myself over and over again: What went wrong with me, and why do I have to experience the grief of love so repeatedly.
"How long has it been?" A familiar voice suddenly sounded next to me.
I turned around and saw that it was An Lan. She was also wearing sunglasses and a windbreaker, and she looked completely cold.
Only then did I come to my senses and replied: "It didn't take long."
"Okay, let's go in." After saying that, she turned around and walked towards the lobby of the Civil Affairs Bureau.
I stopped her and said, "An Lan, wait a minute."
She stopped and didn't look back at me.
I walked up to her, took off my sunglasses and said, "Can you take off your sunglasses and look into my eyes? I want to ask you one last time, is it really of your own free will that we have come to this point?"
She paused, immediately took off her sunglasses, looked into my eyes coldly, and said word by word: "Yes, I'm sorry!"
"I don't want to be sorry. Since I am like this, I respect your choice, but I have one last request..."
"explain."
I took a deep breath, calmed down my emotions, and said, "Take Xiaoman with you?"
An Lan frowned suddenly: "She is willing to follow you, and you love her very much. Why do you want me to take her away?"
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I smiled miserably and said: "It would be more appropriate for her to follow me instead of you. You are her mother, and you have the ability to make her live a good life... And you also know my current situation."
An Lan didn't say much to me. She just nodded and said calmly: "I understand."
We didn't communicate anymore. In fact, I still had a lot to say, but I knew she didn't want to hear it, so why should I be a licker?
After taking the number, we sat in the activation window lobby, two places apart, and didn't talk anymore.
There were many people in the entire hall, but it was extremely quiet, completely different from the wedding hall next door.
I don’t know how long we waited, but it was finally our turn.
It's not that complicated, it's even simpler than when you get married. The staff just asked if you want a divorce voluntarily.
This time, we didn't look at each other or speak in unison.
In less than ten minutes, the marriage certificate turned into a divorce certificate.
It's quite ironic to say that divorce is so simple.
I didn't expect that I would divorce An Lan, but the moment I got the divorce certificate, I finally understood that we are not from the same world after all.
This thought came to me most intensely when I saw the Alfa commercial vehicle parked on the side of the road after we walked out of the Civil Affairs Bureau.
Sean was standing in front of the door. She was wearing a sapphire blue suit. She looked extremely handsome, just like the leading actor in a movie or TV series.
An Lan is the heroine, and I may be the third party who intervenes.
An Lan stopped and said to me: "I will find someone to pick up Xiao Man, so you don't have to worry about it."
I nodded and watched her walk towards Sean.
Sean was still smiling at me, I could tell he was showing off to me.
He really had the capital to show off in front of me, and I wanted to rush over and beat him up until he was discouraged.
But I am no longer a vigorous young man, and the consequences of doing so will only make me fall into a more passive situation.
I could only watch helplessly as An Lan got into the car with him, and then watched them walk away from me together.
I stood there and kept looking in the direction they left. Even though Alpha's taillights were no longer visible, I still didn't come back to my senses.
My mood was terrible, as if I had eaten shit.
After I came to my senses, I laughed again, and it hurt my heart.
It doesn't matter, just treat it as a dream.
I shrugged and drove away from the Civil Affairs Bureau.
There are still many things waiting for me next. Gao Sheng is still under investigation. I can't let him go to jail for me in a daze.
I first bought a mobile phone, re-registered my previous mobile phone number, and then asked Chen Dajiang for Gao Sheng's phone number.
After dialing the number, Gao Sheng answered the call shortly after. He said excitedly: "Boss, are you back? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine, where are you now?"
"I'm at the company. The customs just came to check the account books. I'm about to go back."
"Don't go back yet, I'll come find you right away."
After Gao Sheng responded, I hung up the phone and went straight to the company.
I dare not think about the fact that I divorced An Lan. I can only keep myself busy in this way, and then I can forget these unhappy things.
After rushing all the way to the company, I suddenly felt helpless looking at the quiet factory area, as if everything had suddenly turned into nothingness.
When I came to Gao Sheng's office, he was writing something in front of the computer.
Seeing me coming, he immediately stood up and said to me: "Boss, what's wrong with your feet?"
"It's okay, what's going on here now?"
Gao Sheng sighed and said: "There is a problem with the contract you signed earlier. There is a large amount of contraband in those warehouses. Now the customs and relevant departments are investigating, and the company has also closed down for rectification due to environmental issues."
"I know all this. What I'm asking is, where is the progress now?"
"It's still under investigation. I have heard that we have been framed and have reported the case to the public security organ, but there is no result yet."
I was silent for a while, then took a long breath and said, "Okay, leave all these things to me. You can go back and rest."
"Boss, don't come in now. You may be imprisoned for this matter. You can still be alone now. We can keep the green hills and don't worry about running out of firewood!"
"Then will you go to jail for me?"
Gao Sheng said without hesitation: "This is not called substituting. You gave me what I have today, boss. I will sit in this prison while you run the company well outside."