But when I look at her, I still don't have the slightest desire in that regard.
Not just to her, I do this to any woman now.
She came to me, looked at me with charming eyes, and said: "How is it? How is my figure?"
As she spoke, she twisted her waist in front of me, pretending to be charming.
I ignored her at all and turned my head away, but she jumped in front of me again.
I finally couldn't bear it anymore, looked up at her and said, "Have you had enough trouble?"
"Oh! I just want you to praise me. Is it so difficult?"
"Are you annoyed? As far as I'm concerned, even if you stand in front of me with nothing on, I won't even look at you twice."
Sun Xiaojie looked at me in shock and said in disbelief: "So, you are frigid now?"
I fell silent again, lit a cigarette and continued to smoke.
"Okay, okay, I won't tease you anymore. Since you have no sexual desire, I can rest assured."
After saying that, she turned around and walked to the bedroom. As she walked, she said to me: "Go to bed early. I have three more bedrooms here. You can choose to sleep in them. They all have bedding."
"Wait a moment!"
When she was about to enter the bedroom, I called out to her: "There is something I want to discuss with you."
"Okay, tell me." Sun Xiaojie stopped and looked back at me.
"I came here to start a new life, so I don't plan to continue living in such a hazy state."
"Well, what then?"
"That's what I think. I'll go to your company and work as your assistant."
My words seemed to frighten Sun Xiaoxiao. She had an incredulous expression on her face. After being stunned for a long time, she said: "What do you think? It's very hard to be my assistant. I'll give you a casual position and give you a little bonus."
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I smiled, put out the cigarette butt in my hand, and asked her, "Tell me first, why do you have such an idea?"
"First, I treat you as a buddy. You saved my life on our way to Tibet. Second, you are brave and smart. The most important thing is that I can feel safe when you are around me."
"There is absolutely no reason for what you said. I have only known you for a few days?"
"These are not important. Even if you just meet some people, you can feel an inexplicable sense of security from them."
I smiled bitterly again and said to her: "Whatever you say! Anyway, you can let me go to your company if you want me to. I don't want to be an Internet celebrity anymore, I just want to be a behind-the-scenes person."
"Okay, whatever you want is fine, just be an assistant." Sun Xiaojie replied casually.
But I said very seriously: "Don't think I'm joking with you. I'm serious. I know you have an assistant now. When I come, you may not let me do anything. So, I hope you can put your current assistant into practice."
If your assistant changes positions, you can only have me as your assistant."
"you"
"Do you agree or not? If you don't agree, I will go out and look for other jobs."
Sun Xiaojie smiled helplessly and asked: "Tell me first, why do you have such an idea? Is it a temporary thought, or has it been thought of long ago."
"I thought about it before I came here. First of all, I will be your assistant. I need a certain right to speak. I can help you make the right career plan. I believe you don't want to stay on the road of being an Internet celebrity for the rest of your life. I
I hope you can become a phenomenal brand."
Sun Xiaojie walked over to me and said, "Now that you say that, I'm more interested. Please continue talking."
"I thought a lot on the way to Chengdu today. I want to make money now, at least 10 million."
After a short pause, I continued: "I know you will arrange a very easy job for me and even give me shares. I cannot accept this. I want to make this money based on my ability."
"I see."
Sun Xiaojie responded and fell into silence.
I looked at her expression specifically, and there was no sign of being unhappy or excited, which gave me an elusive feeling.
I didn't ask her if she had anything to hide, because if she really did, then I also hoped that she would take the initiative to tell me, and I hope that I can open up to her in the future.
But Sun Xiaojie didn't say anything. She just said "good night" to me and then went back to her bedroom.
I was left alone in the living room, standing in front of the huge floor-to-ceiling window, overlooking the night view of half of Chengdu.
At that moment, I suddenly realized: Be it Chengdu or Chongqing, the city is brightly lit, but the only thing left lonely is the human heart.
It's not the city that brings me depression, it's my own fault.
If I want to get rid of this depression as soon as possible, I can only allow myself to fully integrate into a new life circle and keep myself busy.
All in all, I am too idle.
I got up early the next morning and went for a run in the community. This was what I planned for myself.
From now on, I will run at least three kilometers every morning, which can be regarded as a change in a certain sense.
After my morning run, I went to a breakfast shop outside to buy some steamed buns, fried dough sticks and soy milk.
I live here with Sun Xiaoxiao now. I want to live there for free. In addition to paying her rent, I also want to do something for her that I can do.
Taking the breakfast I bought, I returned to Sun Xiaojie's residence. It happened to be 8:30 in the morning.
After I opened the door and walked into the living room, the scene in front of me was so frightening that I froze on the spot.
On the sofa in the living room, Sun Xiaoxiao was wearing a set of underwear and squinting in front of a small mirror.
I looked at her and she looked at me.
But she didn't mean to avoid it at all. She even smiled at me and said, "Why did you go so early in the morning?"
I immediately shifted my gaze and said, "Do you understand the difference between men and women?"
"Aren't you no longer interested in women? So what are you afraid of?"
"I can't be like you, right? How is this inappropriate?"
"Tell you, I did it on purpose."
"you"
As soon as I opened my mouth, Sun Xiaoxiao interrupted me: "If you have bad thoughts about me, it proves that your depression has been alleviated. Am I very smart?"
"Sun Xiaoxiao, please stop making fun of me." I said sternly.
Sun Xiaoxiao ignored my anger and continued to stare at her eyebrows, and then said to me: "I am helping you. When one day you have unreasonable thoughts about me, it will prove that your depression has been cured."
No, I don’t have to be like this anymore. How well-intentioned I am!”
I put down my breakfast and went back to the bedroom where I slept last night. I really didn't want to face her like this. Although I had no feelings for men and women before, this was too outrageous.
After a long time, Sun Xiaojie's knock came from outside: "Okay, I'm already dressed. Come out quickly and I'll take you to the company."
I had already put on clean clothes and opened the door. Sun Xiaoxiao was already dressed and standing at the door. She always had that mean smile on her face.
I walked around her and walked outside. She followed me and said to me: "I found you missing when I woke up in the morning. I thought you couldn't think about it last night. Later I found out that you were running in the community. You are quite diligent.
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I ignored her words and asked her: "Should I take your car there, or should you tell me the address and I can take the car myself?"
"Then why bother? Just take my car."
"Would it cause you unnecessary trouble?"
"It's okay, no one knows, and I'm the boss of the company, so they can't control me."
I said nothing, followed her downstairs, and got into her Porsche 911.
As soon as I got in the car, Sun Xiaoxiao suddenly asked me with a serious face: "Chen Feng, I have a question for you."