Under the dim light, his three-dimensional outline was a bit softer. Perhaps God was jealous of his outstanding appearance, which is why his face had some flaws. Gu Nianxi guessed that his eyes should have been very bright.
She looked at Su Yuheng in trance and entered a state of trance.
The two just looked at each other and fell into silence again.
Not long after, Su Yuheng spoke first.
"Does Dr. Gu treat people based on their faces?"
A careless smile appeared on his lips.
"Ah?" Gu Nianxi came back to her senses and bit her lower lip shyly.
"You've been staring at me for a long time," he said, looking relaxed and content.
Gu Nianxi blushed at what he said. She quickly lowered her head and opened the information, "I'm sorry."
She concealed her embarrassment and said quickly: "Well... I have read your information. You have a history of severe depression and bipolar disorder. You received rehabilitation treatment in France a few years ago. Then why have you been treated in the past few years?
Are you not cooperating with the treatment? What happened?" Gu Nianxi met his gaze and waited for his answer.
"because……"
His prolonged ending sounded like he was thinking, but also as if he was trying to whet people's appetite. Gu Nianxi waited impatiently for his answer, but she didn't see him speak for a long time.
Su Yuheng leaned his body on the soft sofa and rested his head on the back of the sofa in a relaxed manner.
Gu Nianxi looked at him dreamily, and suddenly remembered that Lin Wei had said that he was always very reserved in front of outsiders, and would never completely relax. His whole body would be very tight and he would sit upright.
Obviously, he was not like this in front of her.
Gu Nianxi was a little complacent, thinking that her affinity made him not reject her.
"Why?" Gu Nianxi asked again.
"Because a woman once said that she will only be my psychiatrist in this life." His eyes narrowed slightly, and his already dim pupils appeared even darker.
The dim light cast a layer of soft light on his clear and distinct jawline, and his Adam's apple slid up and down a few times, as if he wanted to say something, but did not speak. He sighed deeply, and his eyes fell on Gu Nianxi.
"Can I light a cigarette?"
Hearing this request, Gu Nianxi frowned. She hated other people smoking very much, but when he made this request, she couldn't bear to refuse.
Many patients with depression use cigarettes and drugs to relieve their discomfort, and it is reasonable for them to smoke.
"Can."
After she agreed, Su Yuheng's eyes trembled, and then he said with a smile: "Thank you, could you please Dr. Gu and help me get it? It's in the left pocket of my windbreaker."
"good."
Gu Nianxi walked towards the clothes rack and heard him ask a question from behind her.
"Can you see clearly now?"
She paused. Was he teasing her on purpose?
Really unpleasant.
Gu Nianxi didn't say anything, but took out cigarettes and matches from his windbreaker pocket. Accidentally, a piece of paper fell from the pocket to the ground. She knelt down to pick it up and found that it was a Polaroid photo. On the photo was a
A group photo of three people was taken together. Under the dim light, one could vaguely see a man, a woman and a little boy in the photo.
His family photo?
Gu Nianxi was afraid of being discovered by him, so she quickly put the photo back into her windbreaker pocket.
Su Yuheng took the cigarette and matches from Gu Nianxi's hand and whispered thank you to her.
He held the slender cigarette in his mouth, frowned and lit the match. After a while, shapeless white smoke floated from his mouth into the air. He held the cigarette between his cold, white and slender fingertips, and his eyes focused on the sparks of the cigarette.
superior.
"Cough cough - cough cough -" He covered his lips with the back of his hand and smacked them several times.
Gu Nianxi frowned and looked at him, and just had the impulse to take the cigarette away from his mouth.
After his cough subsided, he took a deep breath and said, "I haven't smoked for a long time."
Gu Nianxi nodded numbly, intoxicated by the scene in front of her.
It turns out that there are men who are so attractive when they smoke.
"The photo just now was sent to me by my mother from France. Isn't the little boy on it very cute?"
His sudden words broke the silence. Gu Nianxi was surprised that he would tell her this. She was surprised that he had such an old son in his early thirties.
"Yeah, very cute."
In fact, she didn't take a close look at the child's appearance just now.
Su Yuheng and Gu Nianxi chatted easily, and the topic started with the little boy in the photo.
He told her that he was a smart and outstanding child. He won the drone competition last summer and would represent the school in London to compete in the competition this year. The year before last, he went back to France to celebrate his birthday with him, and he also took him to Turkey for a ride.
Hot air balloons and more.
He talked a lot about his children, and Gu Nianxi listened very carefully. His image as a good father made her even more fond of him.
"His dream is to be a pilot when he grows up and want to fly freely like an eagle, so he loves everything related to flying."
"Your son's ideals are very beautiful. He is so lucky to have a father like you."
"Son?" He frowned, then raised the corner of his mouth, "He is not my son, he is a child adopted as my mother. He was lucky because he met my wife. It was my wife who proposed to adopt him, but at that time we still had
He was not married, so he asked my mother to adopt him on his behalf, and he has been living with my mother in France."
His words caused a ripple in Gu Nianxi's heart. The man in front of her was not only kind, but also a good husband who loved his wife deeply.
Gradually, Gu Nianxi felt that chatting with him was not that strenuous. As long as it was something he was willing to talk about, his attitude would be surprisingly gentle.
"I didn't expect you to get married so early." Gu Nianxi said with a smile.
"Is it early? I got married when I was twenty-eight, so it's neither too early nor too late, but my wife is quite young. She married me when she was twenty-three."
"Twenty-three years old?"
It's quite early.
The atmosphere between the two was much more relaxed. During the chat, Gu Nianxi couldn't help but feel curious.
"It sounds like your life is very happy, but... why did you give up treatment?"
Gu Nianxi returned the topic to the original question. He seemed to be full of love and hope for life, so how could he suffer from depression?
Gu Nianxi looked down at his information and her eyes fell on the marriage column. She was surprised by the word divorce.
Could the wife he mentioned be his ex-wife?
So is the ring on his hand from his previous marriage, or from his second marriage?
She flipped through the information, and it was recorded that he was indeed cured of depression in the three years between the ages of twenty-five and twenty-eight, but something unknown happened later that caused his depression to relapse, and he was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
.
A bunch of questions were lingering in Gu Nianxi's mind. He successfully aroused her interest. She wanted to know him and his story.
The cigarette burning in his hand had not been inhaled for a few puffs. When the cigarette was half-burned, he threw it into the paper cup. The burning cigarette butt made a squeaking sound the moment it touched the water.
He lowered his eyes and looked at the soaked cigarette butt in the cup and spoke slowly.
"My original psychiatrist was my wife, but she has left me." His voice was low and hoarse, and he seemed to have made a lot of effort to say this.
This sentence made people feel a little sad, and his mood suddenly dropped. Gu Nianxi clutched the pen tightly, and her heart also tightened.
He fell into deep thought and waited for a while before continuing to speak.
"My wife is actually the medicine that heals me. As long as I am with her, all my insecurities will go away. She has a very gentle personality and tolerates everything about me. With me, she has suffered a lot of grievances. So in the end when we separated, I even felt that she would be better off without me."
Looking at his confused eyes, the tip of Gu Nianxi's nose felt sore. Lin Wei said that he could easily infect others with his gloomy aura. At this time, she felt this deeply. He was sitting in the corner of the sofa, in the area shrouded in light and shadow. As if it was another world, his gloom and sadness filled the entire space.
"Why don't you try to communicate with her? Maybe you just don't know how to get along with her."
Su Yuheng shook his head helplessly and looked at the ceiling, "The devil doesn't know how to love each other at all. Even if he loves deeply, he still uses his own methods."
"demon?"
Gu Nianxi's face was full of doubts, and she heard him let out a deep laugh.
"My wife said that I am a devil, and a bride suitable for a devil should be a cold-blooded person than a devil. In the end, the bride will swallow the devil and become the next devil. She said she is not my bride, she is not suitable for me, haha , do you think she is cute?" His tone was humorous, as if he did not agree with what his wife said.
"But she still married me in the end, but she didn't become a devil, she was still her little angel."
Gu Nianxi listened to him quietly, feeling very calm.
"She is very simple and kind. She has always felt that she is my savior. She helped me again and again regardless of comfort, firmly believing that she could pull me out of hell. No matter how much I hurt her, she never left."
"Why did she call you a devil?"
Su Yuheng glanced at Gu Nianxi, his eyes filled with complicated light spots. Maybe her question touched the pain in his heart. He was silent for a while before slowly speaking.
"I have experienced some things and met some people, and they have molded me into a cold-blooded person. I don't know love and can't interact with others. I thought I would be lonely like this for the rest of my life. Unexpectedly, in my twenties When she was four years old, she broke into my world. Do you know what love at first sight is?"
"love at first sight?"
Gu Nianxi curiously repeated his question and noticed that he had completely avoided her previous question. He only focused on telling her what he wanted to say, but could not listen to what others said.
"My wife said that the first time she saw me, her heart was pounding. In fact, the first time I met her, I had the same feeling, but I kept it secretly in my heart and never told her." He said softly. The words spoken, the eyes full of tenderness.
"Why didn't you tell her?" Gu Nianxi asked.
"I'm used to hiding my emotions in my heart, and I don't like to explain too much to others. In fact, I liked her very early, even when she was still eating lollipops."
At what age did you eat lollipops? Was it when you were a child?
The man in front of Gu Nianxi is a reserved person who is not good at expressing emotions, but he can actually like someone for so many years!
She quickly wrote down the key words of her personality in her notebook.
"If you don't explain or talk about some things, I'm afraid it will make things more complicated, right?" Gu Nianxi said softly.
"Yes, you are right." He nodded in agreement, "Now I understand that some things must be explained in time. Failure to explain will indeed make things worse. Moreover, women tend to ignore men's actions.
I only care about what I say."
He used the word "terrible" to describe the outcome of the matter, and his expression was somewhat indescribably confused. It seemed that he had regrets and dissatisfaction with his character and the way he interacted with his ex-wife.
"What you mean by actions and words..."
"It doesn't matter how nice I am to her, but she always wants to hear the words "I love you" from my mouth."
What he said seems to be a dead proposition. Women are often emotional animals. They want to hear sweet words from the other party because they want to feel safe.
"It's not difficult to say I love you."
"What bad things have you done to her?" Gu Nianxi asked after what he said.
He was silent. Gu Nianxi realized that this question was difficult for him to answer. He lowered his head and put an asterisk on the question in his notebook, intending to leave it to ask again later.
"Did she ask you to leave you?"
"Well, she yelled for me to let her go every day, but she never left me. In the end, I found that I couldn't give her happiness, so I broke up with her." He sighed deeply, with a trace of self-blame on his face.
, "I am trapped in hell and cannot see the light. How can I give her sunshine? So... I don't want to harm her."
I am trapped in hell and cannot see the light. How can I give her sunshine?
This sentence was a bit sad. For a moment, Gu Nianxi's heart felt as if someone had pinched her heart, and it throbbed with pain.
She was infected by his emotions and felt a little depressed.