Patients with depression are very sensitive and have low self-esteem. They always feel that the world has abandoned them, so no matter how their mood fluctuates, Mrs. Su, a psychiatrist, will understand.
"The light you are talking about refers to your..."
Gu Nianxi touched her eyes. She was testing carefully, hoping to hear him say something about her eyes. But when she asked this question, he immediately sat up straight and became defensive against her.
"I don't want to talk about it."
He decisively refused to discuss this topic, and Gu Nianxi quickly apologized, "I'm sorry, let's continue talking."
Su Yuheng sat quietly on the sofa and did not answer her. Gu Nianxi was a little worried that the question about the eyes just made him unhappy, and he would not stop talking immediately.
"Do you think she will be happy if you let her leave you?"
She waited for a while and saw him leaning on the back of the sofa again, adjusting his condition.
"I don't know. At the very least, she won't be unlucky enough to fall in love with a second man who has a mental illness like me."
He seemed to remember something and smiled, "She is indeed quite stupid. She knew I had depression and still fell in love with me. One day, she will definitely regret the stupid things she did for me. She is with someone like me.
Together, we will only become more and more unlucky."
"You can't talk about yourself like that." Gu Nianxi was a little angry when he heard him mocking himself like this. She realized that she was a little emotional and quickly explained, "I mean, your situation is beyond your control, and feelings are something like this.
, I can’t explain it clearly. I think your wife doesn’t give up on you because she is a psychiatrist herself, so she understands your situation.”
"Really?" He turned his eyes to her and asked quietly, "If it were you, would you accept being with a man like me?"
"I?"
Gu Nianxi has never put herself into a role, but she secretly thought about this question in her mind. If the charming man in front of her was her husband, would she accept it? Probably not, even if he looks so charming.
, and after all, he can’t let the people around him tolerate his unstable mood for a long time.
"I might..." Gu Nianxi smiled and replied tactfully, "I'm sorry, I'm not the person involved, so I can't give you a suitable answer."
Of course she wouldn't tell him the answer.
Su Yuheng hummed and said nothing more.
"If you gave up treatment because you were separated, I suggest you try to contact her again and ask her to continue being your psychiatrist. I know that this requires a lot of courage, or you can try to accept
The new psychiatrist.”
"My wife? She can no longer be my psychiatrist."
"Why?"
Could it be that his ex-wife has remarried?
"She has left this world."
"..." Gu Nianxi's hand trembled, and the pen in her hand almost fell to the ground. She was a little shocked and a little sad. She opened her mouth and hesitated, not knowing how to comfort him, "I'm sorry..."
"It doesn't matter, I have adapted to life without her." A wry smile appeared at the corner of his mouth, and his eyes turned away, hearing this sentence from his mouth.
Gu Nianxi saw the deep sadness on his face. Was it because of the death of his lover that he was so depressed that he chose to give up on himself?
"Mr. Su, I don't think your wife wants to see you like you are now. She must hope that you can receive treatment and spend the rest of your life with your child."
"Really? But I don't want to make it easy for myself. I just want to sink myself into hell. This is my punishment for myself."
Gu Nianxi looked at him in surprise, what he meant was...
Was he responsible for his wife's death?
"I heard you're getting married?" He asked her, tilting his head, and the light hit his straight nose, outlining the perfect outline.
"Um?"
This was his second personal question about her. How did he know that she was getting married soon? Did Lin Wei tell him?
Gu Nianxi didn't think too much and smiled faintly at him, "Next spring."
"Is he good to you?" he asked.
"Yes, you are very good to me." Gu Nianxi replied without thinking.
"What kind of person is he?"
Gu Nianxi looked at him quietly, surprised that he was so interested in her affairs.
"My boyfriend is also a doctor, a brain surgeon. He is very kind to me, has a very sunny personality, and has a high emotional intelligence." When mentioning He Jianchen, Gu Nianxi smiled with crooked eyes and a happy face.
"Sunny personality...high emotional intelligence, these two things I don't have." He said humorously, but his tone contained a hint of self-deprecation and inferiority.
Her answer touched his inferiority point, and Gu Nianxi quickly comforted him, "People are different. You will always meet a woman who likes you."
"Oh, maybe." He replied calmly, "I don't think I will ever meet a woman as stupid as her again."
With his appearance and condition, the woman who wanted to be with him would probably be able to circle the entire S city several times hand in hand. He probably didn't want to experience feelings anymore.
The two continued to chat, and after that, the atmosphere between them became much more relaxed. They were like two friends, discussing life and their views on marriage. In some aspects, they actually had the same ideas.
"What kind of married life do you yearn for?" he asked.
Gu Nianxi thought for a moment and then replied, "I think marriage is about freedom and comfort. Each other has their own career, supports and understands each other, gives each other some space, and no one is attached to the other."
"No one is attached to anyone..." He repeated this sentence and nodded, "Yes, maybe giving each other freedom is the real love."
His eyes fell on the raised corners of Gu Nianxi's mouth, and he also laughed.
"Do you love your boyfriend very much?"
When he asked this question, Gu Nianxi saw a complicated expression on his face, and she nodded slightly.
The consultation room suddenly became quiet. Su Yuheng looked at her for a long time, then stood up with a smile, "I hope you are happy."
"Thank you." Gu Nianxi smiled knowingly at him, "I'll get you another glass of water."
Before she could get up, he stood up first.
"No, that's it for today."
Su Yuheng picked up the sunglasses on the coffee table and put them on his face. His tall body shrouded Gu Nianxi in darkness. She looked up at him and felt a little disappointed when she heard that he was leaving. She wanted to listen to his story again.
"Okay, that's it for today." She calmed down her frustrated emotions and stood up from the chair, "Let's make an appointment next time."
"I'm usually busy with work, so I'll call you in advance."
"Okay, by the way." Gu Nianxi suddenly remembered something and walked to the business card holder in front of her desk and took out a business card. "This has my phone number on it. You can call me directly and I will arrange a time."
He stood in front of the clothes rack and put on a black trench coat with his back to Gu Nianxi. He turned back to look at her and took the business card from her hand.
"Dr. Gu, nice to meet you."
His deep voice echoed in Gu Nianxi's ears, and by the time she came to her senses, he had already left the consulting room.
After Su Yuheng left, Gu Nianxi returned to the office with his information. She turned on the computer and recorded all the conversations she had with him today on the computer. She edited a name for the folder he created.
--demon.
Three knocks on the door interrupted Gu Nianxi's thoughts. Lin Wei, who rushed in, shushed and continued typing on the keyboard. Lin Wei sat opposite Gu Nianxi and curiously stretched her head to look at the computer, but was stopped by Gu Nianxi.
Block.
"Don't peek, this is the guest's privacy." Gu Nianxi pressed the save button and breathed a sigh of relief, "Done!"
"What's done?"
"The contents of my diagnosis and treatment for Su Yuheng."
"Content of diagnosis and treatment? What you just remembered was the consultation process between you and him?"
"Yes, he refused to record today, so I memorized the entire conversation and was filing it away just now."
Lin Wei stared at Gu Nianxi dumbfounded, in disbelief, and asked uncertainly, "You said Su Yuheng opened his mouth to communicate with you?"
"Yes."
"Impossible! What did he say to you today? Let me see." Lin Wei stood up and walked to Gu Nianxi, holding the mouse.
"No! He is my patient now, and you have no right to know the patient's privacy." Gu Nianxi turned off the screen and stood in front of the computer, "Dr. Lin, please be sensible."
Lin Wei smiled and shook her head, "Gu Nianxi, you can do it. You, a doctor studying in the United States, are really not vain. You can actually make a mute talk! You are really awesome!"
Lin Wei's words were nothing more than praising her, and Gu Nianxi raised her chin proudly.
"Maybe it was my approachable temperament that impressed him. Anyway, we had a great chat."
"Awesome! I'm very optimistic about you." Lin Wei patted Gu Nianxi on the shoulder, "I hope you can treat this customer well. He is a very important boss of our clinic!" Lin Wei turned around and left after saying this.
Gu Nianxi looked confused.
"Wait a minute." Gu Nianxi stopped Lin Wei, "Did you keep him back for academic research or because he is a financial sponsor?"
Lin Wei stopped and turned around to look at Gu Nianxi. She opened her two big eyes and waited for her answer. Lin Wei sighed sadly.
"Hey, how can you understand the sadness of my boss? In order to support this small clinic and give you high wages, I have been doing things against my conscience. To be honest, because every time he gives me the highest consultation fee,
Yes, he talks less and doesn't waste any time, and..." Lin Wei hesitated, "Anyway, for the sake of the clinic and for everyone, I persuaded him to come back. From now on, you will shoulder the responsibility of the clinic's future with me.
, so keep working hard.”
Lin Wei held her hands on her chest and left proudly. Gu Nianxi opened her mouth in surprise and stood up in disbelief.
That's not what she said when she transferred the big benefactor to her!
Gu Nianxi felt like she had been cheated, and crossed her arms angrily. Lin Wei was such a scheming boss, no wonder He Jianchen called her the devil!
Gu Nianxi stood up to pour water, and suddenly caught a glimpse of the cigarettes and matches on the coffee table. She held the cigarettes in her hands, and the man smoking appeared in her mind. When he stood up, he was very upright, but when he sat at that time, he felt so self-conscious in his bones.
The decadence and gloominess quietly revealed.
This man is really a mystery, a man with different sides.
…………
When it was almost time to get off work, Gu Nianxi received a call from He Jianchen. He had canceled the appointment again for the same reason as last time.
Gu Nianxi held the phone, her heart suddenly hit the bottom. She was silent and couldn't say a word. He Jianchen on the other side thought she was angry and quickly apologized.
"Are you angry? I'm sorry, I really can't help it."
"Okay, get busy."
Gu Nianxi didn't have the heart to hang up the phone. She was afraid that her behavior would affect his emotions. As a doctor, he couldn't be emotional at work.
After the call ended, Gu Nianxi stared at the computer screen hesitantly. If she had received this call before, she would have strongly supported his work and would not have random thoughts. But now, she has suspicion, and there are always thoughts in her mind.
a voice.
Was he lying to her again?
"What's wrong?"
Fang Lingling saw Gu Nianxi's dull expression and walked up to her to ask questions. Recently, she found that Gu Nianxi was not in the right state. She seemed to be hiding something in her heart and felt out of focus all day long.
"Oh, it's nothing. It's time, I'll get off work first."
Gu Nianxi left the clinic in a hurry, called a car and went straight to a certain place.