"My spiritual characteristics are inherited from my mother. And my father is a ragdoll cat. He gave me blue eyes."
Delphinium recalled the past softly: "So compared to a normal Samoyed, my size will appear smaller.
"However, my grandfather is not a ragdoll cat, but a white long-haired cat. Because my parents were busy at work, my grandfather raised me when I was very young...
"Grandpa's psychic disease became severe when he was about seven or eight years old. This caused long, long white fluff to grow all over his body, and the fluff became like a cat. It looked like a human being.
Looks like a long-haired cat.
"This kind of long hair gets dirty easily and sticks together. But grandpa loves to be clean and takes care of it carefully almost every day... so he always smells like shampoo. It's like being exposed to the sun after being washed.
It’s like wearing warm clothes. He looks so handsome when he’s walking against the wind, and the fluff all over his body is flying.”
"Before I went to school, I liked to lie in my grandpa's fur. He liked to hold me and explain some boring network security knowledge to me by the fireplace, but because grandpa's voice was so gentle, it sounded like sleeping.
I felt drowsy every time I listened to it, and often fell asleep without realizing it. But every time I woke up, I wouldn’t catch a cold. Because I was covered with my grandfather’s down, and my body was covered with heat.
Hot blanket."
She whispered, missed, and sipped the fruit tea that had become a little warm.
Russell was holding the hot milk, lying on the table and listening quietly.
Delphinium's words were filled with gentle warmth.
Just listening to these words made me feel as warm as leaning next to the fireplace or a big fluffy cat.
"Until I was thirteen years old, I lived with my grandfather. Later, after I entered high school, I moved to the school dormitory."
Having said this, she fell silent for a moment.
Russell also realized...she was finally going to talk about what happened when she was sixteen.
"Did something happen to your grandpa?"
Russell had some vague premonitions.
Delphinium nodded slightly: "There was an exam at school that day. Just after I finished the exam, I received news from my father... saying that grandpa was critically ill and asked me to go see him quickly."
"...critically ill?"
"Well, it's a complication of Psychiatry. Severe Psychiatry not only changes the appearance of the body to resemble that of a beast, it also changes the internal organs. This change in body structure occurs when a person is young.
There won't be many problems when you're old... But after you get old, your immunity will be greatly reduced or wear and tear will be accelerated. This situation is fundamentally caused by the conflict problem caused by the psychic disease itself, which can also be said to be the 'lifespan'
Already finished'.
"Grandpa fell ill in an instant. Just three days before he became critically ill, I visited him. At that time, his laughter was still full of energy... But it was only three days later. When I saw him again,
When it came to him, his whole body seemed to have shrunk, and his face had turned gray."
"Visceral failure shouldn't be considered a terminal illness."
Russell asked softly: "Whether it is replacing the prosthetic body or directly performing resuscitation treatment, it is all possible."
"Yes, but what we didn't consider...is the cost of treatment."
Delphinium said this and closed her eyes slightly.
Her voice became deeper: "Because the illness came so suddenly, no one thought that grandpa fainted for this reason. So my parents sent grandpa to 'Ampoule Biomedical Technology Company' in Xingfu
The island's branch is directly affiliated with the 'St. Ampoule Hospital'.
"This is the hospital with the best treatment technology in the entire Happy Island, and it is also the treatment institution with the most correct attitude. It can even be said that they will use any means to treat patients efficiently. This includes using some drugs that have not been approved for use, or boldly
Radical transformation of the prosthetic body, and even the use of psychic energy and the power of the Holy Order... As long as the patient can be cured, the methods can be completely ignored.
"...However, Ampoule Medical has a basic principle. That is, once a patient is signed and sent in, the patient is not allowed to give up treatment unless it is confirmed that it is incurable; accordingly, Ampoule Medical will do its best.
It can extend the patient's life. If the patient fails to receive treatment while in the hospital, half of the treatment cost will be paid.
"Grandpa's condition deteriorated very seriously and very quickly. In other words, he had actually been suffering from the disease for a long time. It's just that he liked to be patient and never showed his pain to others... so that when he was finally discovered
At that time, it was difficult even for people treated with ampoule medicine to save their lives.
"So, a lot of money was invested like running water, but it was like a black hole that never ends. The family's savings were quickly used up, and then everything that could be sold was sold, and my father went to some friends to borrow money.
.My mother worked extra hard, but she still couldn't fill this loophole.
"Finally... when it came time to use my college tuition, my parents finally had a big fight.
"They were very loving, and it was the first time in my life that I saw them quarreling. The two of them got angry for no reason, cried, and smashed things. They also tore at each other, but then they hugged each other and cried.
"It wouldn't be wrong to call it miserable. To call it despair would be a bit more demanding. But if I say...'dark', that's my memory of those days."
Delphinium's voice seemed to be cast in a haze, and its beautiful ice-blue pupils seemed to have lost their light.
Russell listened intently.
He was silent, gently moved closer to Delphinium, and held the other's cold left hand.
Delphinium whispered: "At this moment, grandpa finally woke up.
"His whole body has become skinny. His beautiful, light and long white hair has turned yellow, like weeds. A large amount of hair loss has made his hair become sparse, revealing his limbs like bamboo poles. I have never seen him again.
I never thought he would become so skinny.
"And when he woke up, the first thing he did was to reprimand his father for sending him here. Although his voice was so weak that it was as light as a balloon, as if it would float away at any time or burst at any time, but his anger
But it's so real and intense.
"He quickly asked to give up treatment. Naturally, this request was rejected by Ampoule Medical.
"Afterwards... when no one noticed, grandpa tried to commit suicide by pulling out the instrument... but he was rescued shortly after he fainted. Of course, the cost of rescue was also included in the medical bill. And when it came to
At this time, the medical assessment is still 'treatable' and it only takes about five more days of treatment.
"Up to now, only more than twenty days have actually passed. It sounds like the last five days can be reached easily."
Delphinium's voice was very soft: "But, the family really doesn't have any money.
"Even my college tuition was invested in it. This is the last money in the family. My parents can't borrow much more money... When people know that this is to pay for Ampoule Medical's medical treatment, no one dares to borrow it.
.
"Until the end, my father made a decision. He asked Ampoule Medical... how much he could get if he sold himself."
"...Sell yourself?"
"As a test product, the Ampoule Group has a large demand for human experiments, and it must 'voluntarily sign' an authorization letter before it is allowed to test drugs as a test product. This authorization period is five years, but generally speaking, it does not last five years...
…After death, all parts of the body must be tested and used as materials for organ transplantation.”
Delphinium looked at the fruit tea with a habitual smile on her face.
Obviously, from every angle, that smile is no different from usual.
But Russell could only taste pure sadness from that smile.
"That day was August 8th, my birthday. When I came back from work, I saw my father coming back with a cake to celebrate my birthday.
"I knew immediately... what was going to happen.
"I said...can I have a piece for grandpa? He likes cake the most.
"Dad was surprised, but he reluctantly agreed. After seeing the cake, grandpa was angry at first, but finally became enlightened. He ate the cake with a smile and told us that he couldn't feel any pain in an instant.
, and said that he would probably be discharged from the hospital tomorrow... In the end, he died of natural causes that night."
Russell suddenly felt Delphinium subconsciously clenching his hand.
She picked up the warm fruit tea and took a big sip.
Then, she tried her best to calm down her mood: "Grandpa thought there was poison in the cake, and he happily accepted his own death. But there was no poison in it.
"Dad is a gentle and weak person, just like a ragdoll cat. He would never think of such a cruel method...
"Moreover, Ampoule Medical has the most advanced biomedical technology, and they can detect all poisons. The idea of killing patients to escape the consultation fee has been practiced by some people for a long time - in the end, you will not pay a penny less, and
People can be imprisoned or banished for murder.
"However, Ampoule Medical finally confirmed that my grandfather did not die from any poison, but died of natural causes. His previous health condition was that of a rebounder. So my parents received a large amount of compensation, which was at least enough to pay off their foreign debts.
"...The irony is that although grandpa passed away, there was a ray of sunshine in the lifeless family. Rather than feeling sad, my parents felt more relieved, and the family gradually had normal chatting and laughing again, and
It's not a quarrel.
"It's not that they don't love grandpa, it's just that this love was diluted by despair. In the end, the savings were still used up and the family was destitute... But at least the debts were paid off. If you accumulate money again, there will be hope in life."
Delphinium said softly: "But they don't know that it was not the piece of cake that killed grandpa... but my 'love'.
"I was extremely eager to end it all. I hoped that my grandfather would no longer be in pain, that my father would not leave, that my parents would stop quarreling... I hoped that this would end as soon as possible. I hope that my past life could come back.
"The past life never came back in the end. But I awakened my spiritual power - the spiritual power called 'lethal love'."