However, even after another doctor was replaced, the condition of the concubine was gradually deteriorating. I never knew that a person's spirit could be exhausted to this state. Rujuan looked at the concubine's once beautiful hands, which were now so thin that only bones were left, and the veins were all gone.
He burst out and sighed with me: "It is a good story that Emperor Ji cried for her mother and punished the imperial doctor who did not do his best, but I can see that the illness of the imperial concubine cannot be cured by high-level medical skills."
Why don't I know this truth? Old people say that nine out of ten old concubines in the palace died of inner demons rather than illness.
It’s just that my mother still has me, and she is still so young and hasn’t seen me get married yet? How could she be willing to leave me behind?
Only now do I understand what it means to have no filial son before a long illness. The illness of the parents not only tortures the children's bodies, but the pain of watching the parents die without being able to do anything is the most crazy thing.
When I really couldn't bear it anymore, I asked Rujuan, Xiaoyun and the others to take care of my mother-in-law, and I went to a deserted place and cried my heart out.
But who knew that before I finished crying, I heard someone say, "What's wrong with you? Are you still a child?"
I didn't even need to raise my head to know who it was, and said in a hoarse voice: "What happens to me is none of your business. Why are you here in the palace again?"
I only ask this because Zhen Zhiping has been promoted to the fifth rank under the martial arts department because of his meritorious service. According to previous practice, he should go to the capital to serve. Although this level is not high, it is actually poor in actual duties. Generally
Disciples of distinguished nobles with long qualifications should not even think about it. The title of Weiyuan Marquis was originally given by the Queen Mother. Counting the three generations of hereditary inheritance from the Queen Mother and her father, it was only inherited by Zhen Zhiping. He was also the only son, and from now on the Zhen family
How it goes depends on him.
Zhen Zhiping's answer was beyond my expectation. He said: "I have to wait for the evaluations from various places in September before leaving. And according to the Queen Mother, I won't be able to work as a military attache for a long time?"
I was stunned for a moment, unable to care about my own sadness, and asked hurriedly: "Why is this? Who doesn't know that Brother Huang is re-employing you, and haven't you always hoped to get ahead in yourself and make the Zhen family proud of you?
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I don't know why, but I felt that Zhen Zhiping suddenly felt better. He patiently explained to me: "You should know that my father was also a military leader in his early years and made great achievements in quelling the Murong clan's rebellion, but later he almost lost his life.
Although it was because of the betrayal of the traitor, it was also because the Zhen family had military power outside and a beloved concubine inside. The excessive power aroused the emperor's suspicion. Therefore, from the beginning, the Queen Mother and my father planned for me to gain experience in the military instead of seizing power.
.In this situation, the Zhen family has been extremely gracious, and it is even more necessary to avoid suspicion. However, since His Majesty has given you such a favor, we cannot refuse and go to other places to experience it first. If we can benefit one party, it will be a great honor for a man."
There were still tears on my face and I said, "This is really not like you." How could Zhen Zhiping be willing to sacrifice his own future for the sake of his family?
Zhen Zhiping seemed to understand my thoughts this time, and said with a wry smile: "After this time, especially when I saw the young masters of the He family and the young lady, I realized that I was still too selfish before. My parents gave birth to me and raised me.
, are planning a future for me, and they don’t care about my life or death, so why can’t I listen to their opinions? Especially my father, who has experienced ups and downs in his life and is used to seeing gains and losses, must be better than a young boy like me.”
Hearing his emotion, I couldn't help but think of the last time I had an argument with him. I felt a little ashamed, but I couldn't express it clearly, so I had to say: "I've always been busy, so I never asked Miss Su Ling. Is she feeling better now?"
Zhen Zhiping sighed and said: "Although it was a little delayed, it's not a big deal. It's just that it's hot in the summer, and she can't move as she lies there. She really suffers, and her temper is a lot worse. My mother-in-law also suffers.
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When I heard what he said, I felt the same way, and couldn't help but think of my mother and concubine again. I felt depressed and didn't want to talk more. I just said: "You are so good to your family."
Who knew that my words, which were neither salty nor bland, would actually trigger his shocking words, "In that case, how about you also come to be my family?"
I didn't understand it for a moment, so I asked like a stupid goose: "What did you say?"
Zhen Zhiping blushed a little and spoke very quickly: "I said, I mean, I want to be a family with you, Huaishu, no, Zipei, we have been together since childhood. Although we often fight, I don't hate you."
Yes, you must be like this too. I think you are different from other girls, no, you are better than them all. When the mob surrounded the palace, besides my mother and sister, I was most worried about you. I was really worried.
I'm afraid I'll never see you again, really. That's why I begged the princes to send troops. At that time, I thought, if we are all fine, I must tell you that I, I like you."
Although what he said was a bit confusing, I still couldn't understand anything. My cheeks immediately turned red and I didn't know where to stand. He was only sixteen or seventeen years old. Although Concubine Zhenmu reminded me that this boy might
She does like me a little bit, but after all, it's not as shocking and enthusiastic as confessing her face to face like this. I'm just as panicked as if I'd hit a deer.
But I have not forgotten the troubles that have been lingering in my heart. I still said loudly: "You, you are not a good person. You know my mother's situation and you still say these things." What's more important is that I am so confused.
How to answer you!
Zhen Zhiping was actually not much more calm than me. He said coyly: "No, I can ask the Queen Mother to find someone to treat the Queen Mother."
His words once again touched my heart. I turned my back and said, "My mother is about to take medicine. I have to go back." After that, without waiting for him to call me, I quickly ran to Ningshou Palace.
Zhen Zhiping's confession brought some vitality to my originally anxious and troubled life. At that stage, I didn't understand my own thoughts, but I just had a vague hope that someone as ordinary as me would be desirable.
To put it simply, it is a kind of affirmed happiness.
But in the face of the cruel reality, this happiness is too small. At the end of July in Ziao City, the bitter summer is unbearable, and the mother-in-law has an even worse appetite. In the words of Imperial Physician Wei Lin, she is already worried about the inner palace, and her illness is getting worse.
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But she became more and more silent, and most of the time she would ignore me. I scratched my head and couldn't figure out why the mother-in-law suddenly lost all her vitality. She even thought about asking her to be my mother-in-law.
The few remaining relatives from the concubine's natal family came to the palace to visit.
But when I said this, the concubine finally said: "No need, it's irrelevant." Her voice was hoarse, which made me feel strange.
In mid-August, the concubine began to have a low-grade fever, and later developed phlegm. The elderly people privately said that it was time. Even the concubine De Mu secretly told me that the Ministry of Internal Affairs had prepared a coffin, which was considered a blessing.