Feeling that the man beside her was distracted, Yu Ruanruan couldn't help but look up at him.
Huo Xu's face was thin and his jawline was smooth and clear. When he raised his head, the tip of Yu's soft nose just hit his prominent Adam's apple.
It was late at night, and the two people were sitting and chatting in a rather ambiguous posture. This sudden collision made Yu Ruanruan's face heat up.
Huo Xu felt his Adam's apple itching and lowered his head to regain consciousness. It was obvious that he had not completely recovered from the shock just now. "Listen, you are so stupid."
"Why do you say that?"
"I just feel it's not worth it. It's not worth it to like me. It's not worth it to be kind to those who have hurt you." Huo Xu clenched her fingers tightly and said it wasn't worth it, but his body was honest and hugged her tighter.
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"Why is it not worth it?" Yu Ruanruan was puzzled.
I even felt that the man's words came out of nowhere.
Huo Xufeng's eyes were as dark as a dry well, and his voice was very low, "The world slanders me, bullies me, humiliates me, laughs at me, underestimates me, despises me, hates me, and lies to me. How to deal with it?"
Yu Ruanruan was stunned.
This sentence comes from a famous dialogue between two Buddhist masters, Han Shan and Shi De.
The answer is, just tolerate him, let him, let him, avoid him, be patient with him, respect him, ignore him, wait for a few more years and you can see him.
Yu Ruanruan was about to say something when Huo Xu said, "Anyone who talks about tolerance is a hypocrite. If you hurt someone, you should pay it back ten times a hundred times."
The more I know her now, the more profound the memories of those who neglected her and hurt her in the past are.
Huo Xu felt that this might be God's punishment for him.
If he hadn't acquired the ability to read minds, he might never be able to see the girl's crystal heart in his entire life. He would be as ignorant as those people and continue to hurt Ruanruan.
But he also knew that mind-reading was not only God's punishment for him, but also a punishment for Ruanruan.
Now that she was targeted by him, there was no possibility of her escaping.
Although he knew that he was not worthy of being liked by a girl, he could not let go.
He will never let go in this life or the next.
When this layer of dark thoughts comes to mind, it is followed by a trace of pain and suffering.
He's bad, isn't he?
Seeing the girl looking at him with wide eyes but no longer speaking, Huo Xu looked at her for a while and then said, "I never said that I am a good person, why should I retaliate with kindness? From now on, even if I hurt
You, don’t fight back mercilessly, okay?”
He looked into her eyes, and there was a warmth in them that was rare tonight.
Yu pursed her lips softly, stretched out her hand, and held his face.
Huo Xu was stunned and suddenly became nervous.
Did he say the wrong thing?
I couldn't help but start to feel annoyed in my heart.
Why did you mention hurting her?
Isn’t this just digging a hole for yourself?
Just as he was about to make amends, he heard the girl cover his ear, "Huo Xu, you are actually not bad at all."
She whispered in his ear, her voice was like a whisper, Huo Xu's eyes widened involuntarily, and the gloomy look deep in his eyes instantly froze.
He...isn't bad?
After a brief moment of surprise, his eyes curled up with strong sarcasm.
Oh, how could it not be bad?
"Ruanruan, you don't need to comfort me." He lowered his eyes. At this second, because of the girl's unrealistic compliment, he actually felt resistant, and subconsciously reached out to push her away.
"You have seen today's situation with your own eyes. In the eyes of the Qin family, I am a heinous evildoer. Of course, I have indeed done a lot of bad things. I have almost robbed the Qin family's business."
When Huo Xu said this, there was only indifference in his eyes.
"Actually, it's not that I don't have the ability to let the Qin family perish, I just... don't want them to die too easily."
The more he spoke, the more he went overboard, and the look in his eyes became somewhat demonic. His pure white bathrobe and droopy black hair no longer looked as innocent and harmless as before, but instead looked gloomy and cold.
Huo Xu's palm silently rubbed the soft back of Yu's neck.
Her neck was very thin, as if it could be easily broken with just a little force.
And he had never been a kind person. Huo Xu asked himself whether he could do such a cruel thing.
However, he would not do this if the target was soft.
"Do you think Qin Hongying's death has anything to do with me?" Huo Xu smiled sadly and said, "Actually, even if she doesn't die today, she will die in my hands sooner or later."
The woman he should have called his aunt not only destroyed his mother's reputation, but also destroyed his mother's soul.
She was meant to die!
"no!"
A pair of small hands suddenly grasped his big hand tightly, and Yu Ruanruan interrupted him eagerly.
"It's not like that Huo Xu."
The girl's clear eyes were as bright and sharp as black onyx, and her eyes were determined, "You won't kill her, you are not that kind of person. Why do you have to talk so badly about yourself?"
"Are other people's opinions important? They think you are bad because you have caused losses to their interests. Essentially, from your standpoint, that is selfishness on their part."
"Huo Xu, you are not a bad person. You know what you should and should not do, and you have your own principles and bottom lines."
"So what if he is a bad person? A bad person with principles is more worthy of friendship than a good person without principles."
"To me, this is what attracts me to you."
Yu Ruoruan held the man's hand tightly, looked into his eyes seriously and said, "Huo Xu, you are worth it, you have always been worth it."
Huo Xu met the girl's eyes blankly, and after a moment, he suddenly couldn't help laughing, "I don't know if this is praising me or hurting me."
"Don't close yourself off." Yu Ruoruan hugged his waist and comforted him, "Actually, I think you should sit down and have a good chat with your grandpa. The grudges of the previous generation should not affect you. You
Have you ever gotten to know your aunt and grandpa? Ask more about them from other people, maybe you will find something different about them?"
Although what Huo Xu said makes sense, if you are bullied, you should fight back.
However, when facing one's own relatives, fighting back sometimes becomes a double-edged sword, hurting others as well as yourself.
Yu Ruoruan knew that Qin Hongying had done many unforgivable things to Huo Xu's mother, but now that the deceased was dead, it was the survivors who suffered the most.
She knew very well how deeply those scars left a deep imprint on Huo Xu's heart, and they were also one of the reasons that contributed to the formation of his character.
Perhaps, if he could calm down, sit down with the Qin family's grandfather, and have a good chat, those misunderstandings and grudges that have been entangled for many years might be solved.
Yu Ruanruan is not helping the Qin family.
She wanted to help Huo Xu.
She wanted to help Huo Xu reconcile with his mother.