After Ruan Chen left the Lin family, he went directly to Xu Wan's place.
He stood at the door and pressed the doorbell for a long time. Finally, Xu Wan's assistant Xiaoyu came to open the door.
Xiaoyu opened the door just a little and exposed his head: "Are you looking for Sister Xu Wan? She is not feeling well and has already fallen asleep..."
Ruan Chen said: "I'll go in and see her."
Hearing this, Xiaoyu still pressed his foot against the door, not intending to let him in. His face seemed hesitant, but he didn't know how to speak.
After the two were in a stalemate at the door for a while, Xiaoyu said hesitantly: "Why don't you go back first, Sister Xu Wan doesn't want to see you..."
Ruan Chen pursed his thin lips slightly and stood there without speaking.
After a long while, he said: "I will wait for her here until she wants to see me."
After finishing speaking, Ruan Chen turned around and walked to the wall to stand.
Xiaoyu closed the door and turned around to look at the person standing not far away: "Sister Xu Wan, he refuses to leave..."
Xu Wan leaned against the wall, her face turned pale, and she hummed softly: "I heard it."
"How about you meet him instead?"
Xu Wan, however, avoided answering and just said: "I have nothing to do here. You can go back first. I have been lucky to you in the past two days."
The assistant was a little worried about her at first, but thinking that Ruan Chen was outside, he didn't say anything. He picked up the things and said, "Then I'll come back tomorrow morning. Remember to take medicine to prevent the wound from becoming inflamed."
"I see."
After the assistant left, Xu Wan walked to the door and stood, looking quietly at Ruan Chen outside through the display screen.
When something happened to him, all she could think of was fear and despair, and she frantically wanted to see him.
But now, seeing that he was fine, those photos were like a rolling tide, completely engulfing her, suffocating her until she couldn't breathe.
How could she have the face to face him?
In the room, Xu Wan has been standing in front of the display screen. Outside, Ruan Chen is leaning against the wall and squatting beside the wall.
Never left.
I don't know how long it took, but Xu Wan heard the patter of rain outside. She looked out the window, and the cold rain had already flowed down the glass.
Ten minutes later, the door was opened.
Ruan Chen turned his head when he heard the sound and stood up immediately.
Xu Wan said: "Come in."
Ruan Chen followed her into the room.
Xu Wan poured him a glass of hot water and turned around to hand it to him, but he was trapped in the gap between the dining table.
Ruan Chen put his hands on the table, lowered his head, and said with dark eyes, "I'm sorry."
Xu Wan turned his head and put down the water glass: "You don't need to apologize to me. What you should apologize to is..."
"Let's end this matter, okay?"
Xu Wan met his gaze again, with a faint smile on his lips: "You must mind."
Ruan Chen frowned slightly: "That's not what I meant."
Xu Wan's voice was calm: "You should have seen those photos. I am not as good as you think, and I am not worthy of your liking. You are suitable for younger, better and cleaner girls..."
"I said, that's not what I meant."
Ruan Chen interrupted her and said word by word, "I don't mind either."
Xu Wan's eyes were red and he raised his voice: "But I mind, do you know how I got here these two days?
When I close my eyes, I see you being taken away by the police car, those photos..."
Xu Wan's voice trembled: "All I can think about is the scene where Qin Yuhui gave you those photos! Ruan Chen, let's just do this. I'm really tired. You're still young and there are so many girls who like you. Find a suitable one."
It's your time for me to return to my own life."
“What’s right for me?”
Ruan Chen asked back, his eyes staring at her for a moment: "For me, the person I like is the most suitable. No one can make decisions for me."
Xu Wan closed his eyes: "Ruan Chen, have you ever thought about it, if it weren't for Zhou Cishen and your father this time, would you still be standing here now?
Your confidence is all given to you by them, what else do you have besides that?"
Ruan Chen remained silent and pursed his lips tightly.
Xu Wan continued: "But on the contrary, before you met me, you had your own abilities and choices, but after you met me, you were involved in these messy things one after another."
"Haven't you noticed that you can handle your life on your own with ease, but when it comes to me, you have no choice but to rely on them."
"Give me a little more time, can I not..."
"There is no time. This incident is a good example that proves that we are not suitable."
Xu Wan looked at him and said slowly: "Didn't you say that I've had enough fun with you now?
So, let’s not meet again in the future.”
Ruan Chen stared at her: "I don't accept it."
Xu Wan stretched out her hand and slowly pushed him away, took a few steps to the side, then turned to face him and unzipped the string of her nightgown.
The silk fabric slid down the smooth skin. She lowered her eyes and her eyelashes trembled violently: "Anyway, we have done everything we should do, and we are not missing the last step. I really have nothing to compensate you for. Let's do it."
Once, it’s considered…”
The last words were stuck in my throat and I couldn't say them out.
Ruan Chen's face was slightly tense and he didn't speak. He leaned over and picked up the nightgown on the ground with his fingers, put it on her body and tied it with a rope: "You know, if it was because of this, I wouldn't have waited until now."
Xu Wan said quietly: "Or do you think that when you see my body now, what you think of is the photo Qin Yuhui showed you?"
Ruan Chen stopped moving his hands and said in a low voice: "I know you have been with him, so I am mentally prepared."
He has always had this attitude, not angry at all, not planning to give up, and even lowered his attitude.
But the more he behaves like this, the more Xu Wan collapses.
What virtues and abilities does she have that deserve him to treat her like this?
It was obvious that she was the one who did the wrong thing.
She is the one who should bear the consequences.
Xu Wan said in a hoarse voice: "Can't you still see it?
I think you are naive, I think you are impulsive, I think you do things regardless of the consequences, and you will affect others! You are young now, and with your father and Zhou Cishen to take care of you, there are endless possibilities in the future, but what about me?
I have nothing, I have everything I have now through my own hard work, and I don’t want to have nothing because of you, do you understand!”
Ruan Chen took back the hand that tied her pajamas: "I'm sorry."
"You don't have to be sorry to me! What you're sorry for is yourself and everyone who is worried about you!"
Xu Wan said, "I'm going to film somewhere else next week, and I won't be back for a few months. I hope you can sort it out. I'm about the same age, and I will find a suitable person to get married. Let's just do this, okay.