The last time I saw the diary, it seemed that the memory came over my mind, and that sentence appeared completely empty.
"I want you to remember the taste of my kiss with you every time you eat something with cherry flavor in the future."
Those words still seem to ring in my ears.
call!
Could it be that what I dreamed about was the scene when I said those words?
Is it the deepest memory in your mind?
Could it be...
Is the person I cheated on four years ago Du Xiaoyin?
impossible!
Absolutely impossible!
Although all memories have been lost after rebirth, the previous memories may have been hidden somewhere in the mind, but just like the last time I read the diary, only by touching certain memory points and stimulating them can those memories be awakened.
Hidden memories.
If the person who cheated on her four years ago was really Du Xiaoyin, after seeing her, he would definitely trigger those memories hidden in his brain.
But the reality is, it doesn't.
And if the person who cheated on her four years ago was Du Xiaoyin, then she would be able to remember her.
Shouldn't she have confessed when she first met him?
Shouldn't he be so moved that he rushes to hug himself?
nor.
She seemed to have just met him, and it was just a kind of admiration or a slight liking.
It's definitely not the familiar, sour smell of love that lovers should have.
Regarding this point, Zhang Haidong has a more intuitive feeling.
But why is that scene so real?
The irritable Zhang Haidong got angry a few more times before he came to a conclusion.
It must be that I have something to think about during the day and something at night.
In fact, men are like this. They can't resist the temptation of women. Maybe their moral bottom line in life or some aspects can restrain themselves and prevent them from doing those outrageous behaviors.
But inside, I have already been shaken to pieces by those temptations.
As long as the other party is willing to stick with you, you will have a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment.
Just like a general who has won a battle.
Baddeley once said: The greatest temptation for a man is to conquer the world and conquer women. No matter which one, it will give you a strong sense of satisfaction.
Perhaps my good impression of Du Xiaoyin comes from this sense of satisfaction.
When you are used to vanity, once the other person gives up, you will involuntarily want to stick to it, or you will start to think wildly.
Maybe this is why men look at the pot while eating from the bowl.
This is a kind of mentality that cannot be given up.
After he thought about it for a while, his whole person suddenly became enlightened.
After all, this is a bad trait that every adult man has, and no one is exempt from it.
It's just that I enjoyed the feeling of satisfaction too much, so I unconsciously brought Du Xiaoyin to the scene in my memory.
…
In fact, he was wrong, very wrong.
He has entered a misunderstanding mode of thinking, which will lead him to involuntarily look for excuses.
Then use excuses to think backwards and draw wrong conclusions.
But he didn't know.
…
After washing up, he quickly got dressed, and Du Jing put the only 600 yuan at home into his pocket: "Anyway, try your best to persuade us, after all, they take good care of us."
, Bai Yourong is a good wife. We only have so much at home for now, just watch and pay."
"Okay. I will pay my wages in a few days. Once the wages are paid, our family's life will be better."
Zhang Haidong said with some guilt.
Originally, the family started to have a little surplus food, but my own passion made the already poor life even worse.
He also asked his daughter and Du Jing to endure hardships with him.
He felt uncomfortable for a while.
Aren’t you still useless?
"It's okay! Our family is all solid, and my daughter and I can support ourselves even if we have nothing to do. Just focus on your own affairs and don't worry about the family. By the way, your sales have exploded this time, so you should be able to make a lot more!
Will it be more than last time?"
Du Jing asked with a smile.
"I don't know. But you also know the character of Director Wu. Don't ask anything, she will definitely help you solve it. Although she has a vicious mouth, she is very decisive and reliable when it comes to paying wages and working. It's your turn.
It must be yours, and I will never treat you badly. So, it will definitely be no less."
Zhang Haidong smiled and patted Du Jing on the shoulder.
"Okay, I'm leaving then. Just stay home and play with your daughter. My dear, wait until daddy comes back to play with you."
Zhang Haidong went over and kissed his daughter.
"Goodbye, Dad! You must drink less!"
Qianqian said seriously.
…
The bright sunshine filled the earth, and the sky was blue without any impurities.
The biting cold wind destroyed this strange beauty, making people unable to appreciate this beauty.
Zhang Haidong hunched his neck and walked quickly ahead, fearing that the cold wind would penetrate his clothes along his collar.
Pedestrians on the street were also in a hurry and had no time to stop.
As we entered the restaurant, we were greeted by a rush of heat and the aroma of food.
Maybe it's the weekend, but there are already many guests sitting in the hall.
The bustling crowd took off their coats and chatted about something while eating the food.
"Hello, sir! How many are there in total?"
The waiter greeted me cordially.
"Two people. But we have something to talk about and would like to find a private room to be a little more private."
Zhang Haidong said.
It's really a bit unsightly to say this kind of thing in public.
He didn't even know if Liu Shan would start a fight if he couldn't persuade him.
"There is one private room left, but the private room here requires an additional 20 yuan private room fee."
"It doesn't matter. Get me two bottles of Rose Fen and a bottle of orange juice."
Zhang Haidong waved his hands and said.
"good."
The private room is quite small, with eight chairs arranged.
This place is supposed to be a place to sit and eat when there are many people. It is indeed a bit luxurious for me and Liu Shan.
He moved all the unused chairs aside, picked up the menu and ordered a few dishes, then gently took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and started smoking.
This is the leftover cigarette from yesterday.
Although it is a bit spicy when smoked, it can relieve your irritable mood to a great extent.
The last time I met Bai Yourong was in this hotel.
At that time, two people were also having a conflict. Bai Yourong picked up the child and returned to her parents' home.
I had a chat with Liu Shan first, and then persuaded him to take Bai Yourong back.
This time it’s this hotel again.
But the protagonist is Liu Shan.
Instead of being alleviated and reconciled, things were heading towards collapse.
I don’t know if Liu Shan can turn back this time.
He smoked four cigarettes in one breath, and the smoke that lingered in the private room choked him to tears.
He didn't wipe it, just looked at the table blankly.
Even though I was choking like this, I still felt relaxed.
It can help him relieve the huge pressure and avoid headaches for the time being.
This time, he was not as calm as he was when he had a drink with Liu Shan last time, nor was he as confident as he had promised Bai Yourong last time.
This time, he was only confused.
The phone rang, it was Liu Shan's.
"Brother Dong, have you gotten up? I'm on the way and I'll be there soon."
Liu Shan's voice came from the other end of the phone.
"I'm already here. In the private room, the dishes are all ordered. When you come, just go into the private room and find me."
Zhang Haidong hung up the phone.
…
Liu Shan entered the private room in a hurry. When he opened the door and looked at the smoke-filled room, he was choked and waved his hands repeatedly: "Brother Dong, when did you start smoking? If I didn't know you were in this private room, I would have
I thought there was a fire here! Even a smoker who smokes all year round can’t handle this! I’ll open the door first and take away the smoke!”
He put the clothes on the chair and opened the door of the private room.
Zhang Haidong didn't speak, he didn't know what to say.
After a while, the smoke in the private room cleared away, the dishes were all served, and Liu Shan sat down.
"Good guy, after ordering so much, can we finish it?"
Liu Shan still looked very relaxed and said jokingly.
Zhang Haidong didn't say anything, but opened the liquor and filled two glasses directly, and then gave one to Liu Shan.
"We brothers, don't say anything. Let's drink this glass of wine first and then start chatting."
After speaking, he raised his cup.
Liu Shan was startled, but he also raised his cup.
Finished a glass of white wine in one gulp.
Stimulated by the hot alcohol, the two people's faces suddenly turned red.
After picking up a few mouthfuls of cold vegetables with chopsticks and swallowing them, Zhang Haidong slowly said: "If I hadn't bumped into you yesterday, I wouldn't have known whether you were divorced?"
He spoke first.
"No. I just... How could I hide my affairs from you? I know you are busy, and I am just waiting for a suitable opportunity to tell you. I was planning to tell you after you finish your Christmas activities."
Liu Shan explained.
"Is it?"
Zhang Haidong felt the alcohol was getting stronger. He took a bite of meat, then stared at Liu Shan and said, "I told you so much last time, didn't you listen to a word? Your and Bai Yourong's child is already one year old.
The two have been together for more than ten years, and they have been ups and downs for more than ten years! If you fucking say you don’t want it, then you don’t want it! You can go to whoever you want! Are you the Jade Emperor?”
At the end of the sentence, Zhang Haidong almost shouted.
Liu Shan was startled.
He didn't expect Zhang Haidong to say such serious words at the beginning of today.
But he was not excited, but calm.
After taking a bite of food, he said calmly: "Actually, I told you the reason for family depression last time. Bai Yourong may be very good in your eyes, but for me, I really have
I'm tired of it, I've had enough. Brother Dong, really."
He took a breath and continued: "She is not like Du Jing. Du Jing can tolerate you and support the family by herself for seven or eight years without putting any pressure on you. But Bai Yourong can't do that. She is always giving
Under your pressure, she needs to occupy an absolute dominant position in life and have all the control, do you understand? Brother Dong!"