As for Hua Yulin's depression, that's another story.
After her mother's condition improved, Hua Yulin realized that something was wrong with her. As long as people were in groups, she felt they were talking about her. When she went to bed at night, she often dreamed of that fat, middle-aged woman.
In the corridor of No. 1 Middle School, the woman with a sinister face pinched her neck, stared at her eyes like bells, and cursed: You little* bitch! Little* woman! Dirty*!"
Hua Yulin woke up from her dream with cold sweat all over her head.
When she opened her eyes, as far as she could see, she had arrived in a strange country. The situation she had to face was - language barrier, financial constraints, loneliness, and boredom.
Gradually, she also developed similar symptoms to her mother. She often shed tears for no reason, was unwilling to communicate with anyone, and could not sleep all night. She had a splitting headache, but did not want to find a solution. Due to the long-term inability to sleep,
Well, she was in a trance and wandering around the world like a lonely ghost.
She is stronger than her mother, and she quickly started to save herself. She brainwashes herself every day - I have done nothing wrong, I am a good and upright girl. She forces herself to find a part-time job to keep herself busy. She
Work hard to learn the language and make yourself less lonely.
After making all kinds of efforts, she found that depression could not be cured on its own, so she went to the clinic without telling her mother. She spoke broken English, even gestures and pictures, but the doctor didn't understand, so naturally she couldn't understand.
Not treated promptly.
Hua Yulin secretly took her mother's medicine. After taking it, her emotions had no fluctuations. She was calm at all times, as calm as a wooden person. She didn't like this feeling very much.
So, after saving some money and learning basic Spanish conversation, Hua Yulin ran away again. She went to Latin America. During her lonely adventure, she found that she had rekindled her hope in life. She
Immersed in various festival celebrations, she carries her luggage and walks in the dim sunset. She waits at the beach for a small whale that washes ashore. She will be excited to see penguins.
She thought she was better. But after returning to her original environment, she began to feel depressed again.
So, on the bus, she said to Xie Chong: "I'm afraid I can't stop. If I want to save myself, I have to keep walking. In a place where no one knows me, I run wild with all my strength. In that way, I
Only then can we survive.”
"But the wound in your heart has not healed. Maybe it is filled with pus... If things go on like this, aren't you afraid that the wound will rot?"
"No." Hua Yulin said firmly: "Escape can cure my disease. This has been true since childhood."
Xie Chong's eyes gradually dimmed. He didn't want Hua Yulin to fly away. It would be great if he could see her every day!
"When you were a child, I told you that you were not allowed to like me." Hua Yulin became serious again: "If you like me, that will be the beginning of your misfortune."
Xie Chong turned a deaf ear and said, "Sister, where is your next destination?"
"Xie Chong, let me tell you again! I am not interested in boys younger than me. Please stop wasting your time on me."
"Sister..." Xie Chong said with a smile, "You won't go to Africa, right?"
"There's really nothing I can do about you." Hua Yulin put her hands in her pockets, looking very cool. "Those things I told you, those related to depression, you must not tell my uncle, nor can you tell Hua Tianlong.
"
"Hush money!" Xie Chong stretched out his hand: "Show some amount."
Hua Yulin flicked his palm hard: "Don't be naughty!"
Xie Chong waved his hands and continued to ask, "Sister, how long will you stay in Laicheng?"
"No comment."
"It doesn't matter." Xie Chong said nonchalantly: "Hua Tianlong will definitely know anyway."
Hua Yulin made a face, as if the ghostly girl from before was back.
After finally driving Xie Chong away, Hua Yulin went to visit Zhou Kewei. This time, he was very lucky. Zhou Kewei was leaning on the bedside drinking porridge. Eating was also a pain for him. After two bites, he
I don’t want to eat anymore.
Xue Qin had a sad face and sincerely hoped that her son would eat a few more bites. But as soon as Hua Yulin came, she went to wash the dishes in a sensible manner.
Zhou Kewei smiled: "You came so early today?"
"Yeah." Hua Yulin felt a lot more relaxed: "You are in good spirits today."
"Ah, this is probably a flashback."
…
Hua Yulin clenched her fists, but she couldn't hit him. Zhou Kewei was indeed different from ordinary people. Even if he was on the edge of death, he could still joke optimistically.
Zhou Kewei took two deep breaths and said, "Actually, I thought you hated me so much that you would never pay attention to me again."
"I did hate you when you left without saying goodbye. But I couldn't contact you, and I didn't know that your condition had relapsed. I just vaguely guessed that something was wrong with you, otherwise you wouldn't have left like this. At that time, I still had to
Watching my mother all day long to prevent her from committing suicide
I killed you and stopped contacting you." Hua Yulin said depressedly: "I originally wanted to beat you a few times or get angry at you. But you were sleeping most of the time. When you woke up, I
All my anger has gone away and I don’t want to lose my temper anymore.”
Zhou Kewei shrank into the quilt: "It seems that I am still suitable for a long sleep."
"...Zhou Kewei! If you talk like this again, I'm really going to beat you!"
Zhou Kewei then smiled kindly: "To be honest, I am happier that you come to see me than anyone else. Even if the second child comes to see me, I am not so happy."
Hua Yulin blushed: "Am I so important in your heart?"
"Yes, I was worried that if you were angry and refused to come and see me for the last time, I would have regrets when I died. But you came and stayed with me for so many days, and I died without regrets."
"Zhou Kewei! Can you stop saying those unlucky words all the time? It makes people feel so uncomfortable!"
"I have escaped death countless times and jumped back and forth at the entrance of the Palace of Hell. I am no longer afraid of death. The reason why I often mention it is to familiarize you with it." Zhou Kewei rarely became serious and said: "Yulin,
You should all practice saying goodbye."
Hua Yulin bit her lips to prevent tears from falling: "I don't want to. If you prepare for all bad things in advance, it would be useless. I will only be sad on the day when misfortune comes; like today
It’s a good day, and I’m so happy.”
Zhou Kewei lay on the bed and said with all his strength: "To be successful in life, you must have all the joy, and don't let the golden bottle stand empty against the moon."
"Well, that's the truth." Hua Yulin asked excitedly and expectantly: "Hey, social youth, has the nurse ever asked about me? How did you introduce me? A good friend, or a girlfriend?
"
The girl's confession also came unexpectedly.
"Bosom friend." Zhou Kewei said softly, "That's how I introduced you."