Chapter 83: Would it be better if I shed tears at that time?
When the princess of the kingdom was just born, an evil curse was imposed on her. The dark world was afraid of her power and tried to make her fall into a sleep of eternal silence and destroy a seed called light. So from that day on , no matter where the little girl goes, she cannot do without the shining of light.
She could only stay in sunny places during the day. If it was cloudy or rainy, she would ask the maid to light a kerosene lamp beside her, hugging her knees and curling up in the dim light, looking at the gloomy sky in trance. ; At night, when others of the same age can cuddle up in the arms of their parents and enjoy the warmth of family affection, she can only look at the fluorite and candlelight in the room, silently in a daze.
As the only child of the Lesili royal family, the honor and favor she received was unique in the entire kingdom. In order to keep the shadow of darkness away from his daughter, the old king even ordered that the princess' palace should be kept safe all year round. No matter day or night, sparkling lights are on. This decision has increased the annual fluorite consumption of Bemang Kingdom by 10%. In other words, the princess alone has one-tenth of the kingdom's light. < /p>
However, the darkness brought by the curse does not stop there. Growing up, the princess has always been lonely, although the old king insisted that her fear of the dark was a disease, and found a knowledgeable scholar for this purpose. Let her serve as the princess's teacher, pull out all the vegetation in the palace garden, replace it with fragrant violets, and try to use the mysterious "flower therapy" to cure the princess's illness. However, most people in the kingdom prefer to believe in astrology According to scholars, this is not a disease, but a curse.
If it weren't for a curse, who would tremble at the sight of darkness and not even dare to look directly at their own shadow? Even light elves who were born from light and were born with an affinity for light can naturally get along with darkness. Yes, it will never be to such an extreme extent.
As a result, those people who believed in the words of astrologers couldn't help but look at the princess with a little more sympathy and pity, and even a deep hidden fear. No matter how harmless the princess appeared, she was always a curse to them. As a symbol, she instinctively rejects and alienates her, becoming accustomed to caring through words and stingy with comfort through actions. Even children of the same age dare not communicate or play with her because they fear the princess's identity or are afraid of the onset of the curse.
At that time, the old king was busy looking for a way to lift the curse or cure the disease, while the queen was troubled by illness and stayed in her room all day long, never going out. Without the care of her parents, the princess still felt lonely despite the company of her teacher. And she grew up in a lonely environment. There were many times when she felt inferior and insignificant, not loved by her father, not her mother, and perhaps not loved by everyone. If the whole world If no one loves her, would it be better to leave here?
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What changed this idea was an impulsive action and the consequences of the action. Perhaps one time she heard the palace maids discussing her curse through the corner, along with some not-so-optimistic conjectures;
Or maybe the violets she carefully cultivated in the garden withered one after another due to a heavy rain that she could not intervene... In short, at that moment, she suddenly felt sad and lost, and no longer wanted to love the world.
.So he shut himself in the room silently and turned off all the lights.
In that moment of darkness, the little girl was surrounded. She felt very painful, her breathing was as hot as burning, her heart gradually stopped beating, and her body kept falling, sinking into the never-ending abyss. It was uncomfortable.
When she was about to suffocate, a gentle voice told her in her ear: If you die here, you will make those who love you deeply sad. Do you want them to be sad, Olvera?
She didn't know who would be sad for her, but she inexplicably listened to the comfort of that voice, struggled to open her eyes, and found that she was lying on the bed, and her father was looking at her with surprise. Even the bedridden
The mother dragged her weak body to her room. When her daughter woke up, she hugged her and told her in a hoarse cry how worried she was, how scared she was, and how much she hoped you could wake up safely...
...It was in such a warm embrace that the princess suddenly understood that she was indeed loved. Maybe she was not loved by this world, but she was loved by some people in this world.
She concealed her intention to seek death, and only mentioned it to the teacher, saying guiltily that she was not mature enough to do such an impulsive thing. The teacher asked her if she would do it again in the future.
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Of course she shook her head and said she would never do it again. Why? Because she felt that actually living in this world was not such a sad thing.
"This is courage, Your Highness Princess." The teacher showed a gentle smile and gently touched her cheek: "It is easiest to abandon everything and leave alone. It is because of cowardly thoughts that you want to run away. Cry and shed tears.
, and then walked away; however, it is difficult to say 'I want to survive'. If you are not brave enough to face the cruelty of this world, you cannot say such a thing, right?"
The princess's expression at that time seemed to understand, because she was still a long way from the age of understanding those profound truths.
However, I also remembered this sentence: Bravely facing the cruelty of the world and saying "I want to live" is a kind of courage.
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Later, the princess was about to celebrate her coming-of-age ceremony. During this short but long childhood, she read a lot of books and felt that she might be able to understand the principles of the world. She also gradually got used to the dark curse and knew how to do it.
She got along with the people around her. She originally thought that life would get better day by day, and she would be as prosperous as the flowers and plants in the courtyard. However, something unexpected happened again, and her shadow split into countless evil beasts, devouring the light of the kingdom.
It brings boundless darkness.
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As a result, the possibility of "disease" no longer existed. My father, who was exhausted both mentally and physically in order to find a cure for the disease, had no choice but to agree to the astrologers' request and built a closed castle on a remote high cliff to confine him.
Some kind of eternal darkness.
With a feeling of guilt and self-blame, he told his only daughter about this matter, but the princess's expression was very calm, as if she had expected such an ending. She nodded lightly and said: "Okay.
I understand, father." Just like when she woke up from a coma ten years ago and comforted her parents with a weak smile: "It's okay, I'm fine, father, mother."
Later, after the castle was built, the old king took his daughter and stood on the highest point of it, overlooking his country shrouded in darkness. Due to the rush of time, the castle was not luxurious, and it could not even be said to be comfortable: it was covered with cold bricks.
Stone walls, airtight corridors, and even no windows to prevent darkness from leaking out. There is only one room in the entire castle, with a bed, a lantern, and countless candles.
In the years to come, the princess can only rely on them to obtain light.
The old king felt very sorry for his daughter, but the princess said: "It's nothing, father, I have them to accompany me, so it can't be considered lonely. I also have my own book. When I live alone in this castle in the future,
I can read a book. You know, father, you can never finish reading, so loneliness has its limits."
The old king looked at her with sad eyes: "But this way of living is too tiring for you."
"I don't feel tired, father." The princess whispered: "If you get used to it, you won't feel tired."
"Habit..."
The old king repeated his daughter's words in a low voice, and suddenly felt that habit is really the most terrifying thing in the world, because it sometimes makes people forget what the world should be like.
He was silent for a while, then asked again: "Oveira, do you want to cry?"
"Crying?" The princess looked confused: "Why are you crying?"
"It's nothing, but I remember that you rarely cry." The old king sighed: "Sometimes I wonder, is it because you have been a sensible child since you were a child and don't want us to worry about you? Or, you
Is there any reason why I don’t want to cry? Please forgive me, Olvera, I am an immature father. I often forget some important things, and I didn’t think of asking you until today.”
"I have never felt that way. In fact, I have always thought that you are the best father in the world." Olvera looked at her father seriously and said word by word: "As for why I don't cry, it's because
The teacher once said to me that it is easy to abandon everything and leave alone, cry and shed tears, and then walk away, but it is also cowardly; only by bravely facing the cruelty of the world and saying "I want to live",
It is a kind of courage. I want to become a brave person, father."
"That's it..."
The old king turned around, and it was only then that the princess realized that his figure was not as tall and generous as she had remembered, giving people a sense of security. Instead, he was a little slumped and decadent, as if he had been bent by the years. Beloved
When a person passes away, he takes away one-half of his life. Now, the remaining one-half will also leave his side and go to a place that is far away and perhaps beyond his reach in his lifetime. p>
He stretched out his hand, gently stroked his daughter's soft long hair, and asked in a low voice: "Your teacher, what she said is of course right, but what if I want you to cry?"
The princess asked blankly: "Why, father? Do you want me to be a coward?"
"No, Olvera."
The father shook his head slowly, and his words, along with the wind blowing through the stone bricks of the castle that day, gradually dissipated into the unknown depths of memory: "I just hope you know."
"Be sad when you feel sad, helpless when you feel helpless, cry when you want to cry, and face your tears bravely."