Seeing that I was leaving before dawn, Qi Tianyou wanted to say something more, but when he looked at my face, he seemed to understand everything and did not try to persuade me to stay. He just told me that if he knew what kind of ashes they were, remember to call him.
Help me find it.
I didn't want to say anything, and I sat up all night without sleeping. I couldn't figure out Cheng Baize's reason for lying to me.
I was really scared by his previous life, so even though I said very firmly that Qi Tianyou said Cheng Baize was a good person, I was still very scared in my heart, as if the fortress I had built up little by little to believe that Cheng Baize was loosening and collapsing.
When Zong Bao came into the room and told me what time the flight was, I turned to look at him dully: "Zong Bao, Cheng Baize is a good person, right?"
"I don't know." Zong Bao just spat out a few words and glanced at me: "I'm pretty good to you."
I opened my mouth and scolded him: "You always suspected that Cheng Baize had a problem! But you said you didn't know!!"
Zong Bao was confused by my reaction, "You're not sick, right? He's so hard to see through... He's too lazy to talk to you."
I opened my mouth and watched Zong Bao walk out of the bedroom and sit alone in the dark bedroom. Cheng Baize couldn't be seen clearly, but he has always been a man of his own. If you ask him anything, he will definitely answer.
You, if you are in need, he will definitely help me. I don’t know since when, Cheng Baize has become an indispensable friend in my life little by little. It is true that he helps me, and he is also honest when he is casting poison.
To be honest, the only thing he lied about was that he didn't tell me that the poison was not broken. In fact, he knew that Zhuo Jing and I were together. Am I just angry with him about this?
It's messy, it's really messy. I can't get rid of it, so I can only hold it in my heart. These messy thoughts are like vines, growing from the bottom of my heart, and then slowly coiling up until they are blocked in my throat.
There are two voices shouting out different voices all the time. Let me talk about the other one, Ma Jiaolong, please touch your own conscience. As a friend, Cheng Baize has only done a lot more! If you don’t want to repay your kindness, what right do you have to be angry with others?
!
Another voice said, "Ma Jiaolong, don't you think it's weird? How virtuous and capable are you? Why do people treat you so well? There is no love without reason in this world."
I felt like I was going crazy, so my eyes were already bloodshot in the morning. Maybe it was because of what Qi Tianyou said. He said that qi that cannot even be seen by Daoists is evil energy. Because it is heresy, he needs to hide the evil energy, but
Those who can hide their anger are those who hide it deeply and cannot be imagined. I really can't see the anger in Cheng Baize. The only time I was really scared was when he faced Feng Xia.
arrive.
Qi Tianyou said, you must not be with a tiger. Is Cheng Baize a tiger? If he wanted to eat me, would he not let me live to this day at all?
"Jiaolong, there are reporters."
When I walked out of the airport, Zong Bao reminded me in a low voice. My nerves were pulled all the way by Cheng Baize, and my head hurt. When I came to my senses, the reporters had already swarmed over. Naturally, they asked me how to predict the mudslide.
I was being pulled around like a big paper figure. Zong Bao became anxious and pushed me out the door while blocking the reporters until he put me into a taxi. He shouted: "
drive!"
Seeing that the reporter had been shaken away, he panted and looked at me: "Jiaolong, what happened to you! Your soul is gone, what did Qi Tianyou say to you!"
I sat there expressionless, not wanting to say anything. I couldn't give me an answer, so I wanted to say something.
There was light snow falling in the air, and the streets were bustling with activity. Passing by the shopping mall, I could see a two-story Christmas tree covered with colorful gifts. There were many smiling faces standing under the tree to take pictures. I looked at it in a daze, but felt sad in my heart.
Gradually I felt a little chilly.
Walking into the elevator, I directly pressed the floor where Cheng Baize was located. Zong Bao glanced at me: "Why don't you go home and see the master first?"
Seeing that I didn't respond, Zong Baowu sighed to himself: "I took the dumb medicine. Aren't you very happy when you came back in the past? This time you even appeared on TV. Needless to say, you are famous. The rental guy just now
The driver even asked me if your name was Ma Jiaolong. Ma Jiaolong, you know you are very popular."
As the elevator door dinged, I looked sideways at Zong Bao like a ghost: "Zong Bao, let me ask you one last time, do you think Cheng Baize is a good guy or a bad guy?"
Zong Bao frowned: "Is it possible that you didn't sleep on the plane and kept your eyes open all the time in a daze just thinking about this?"
"you tell me."
Zong Bao shook his head: "I don't know. Just ask him. I'll wait for you when I go home." After saying that, he walked out.
I watched the elevator door close, took a deep breath, and said silently to myself, I shouldn't think of him according to the standards of my previous life. He didn't lie to me too much. If he could give me a reason,
Or if the explanation is reasonable and reasonable, then I am willing to believe him, I really am.
After walking out of the elevator, I knocked on his door. No one answered, and then I started ringing the bell again...
No one responded, so I lowered my head. He wasn't there, so he probably went to the hospital.
I rubbed my face vigorously, all my thoughts seemed to be inextricably stuck together like strong glue. I didn’t know why I was so frustrated. Looking at his door, I bit it.
Biting her lip, turned around, and walked directly downstairs.
"Jiaolong is back!"
The person who opened the door for me was my grandpa. He looked at me with a happy face and smiled like the little girl taking a photo with the Christmas tree outside. "You came back just in time. My grandson made dumplings to eat, and Xiaobai's fever has gone away!" he said.
But before I could respond, he turned around and shouted: "Xiao Bai! Jiaolong is back!!"
He's at my house?!
I was slightly stunned and watched my grandpa take my hand and pull me into the house. In the living room were still sitting Xiaoshi Li and Wen Xiaoni. Zong Bao was holding an apple in his hand: "I was just going to go up there to find you.
, Cheng Baize is at your house."
There was no answer, my eyes were silently searching for Cheng Baize. My grandpa pulled down the living room for me and pointed to the balcony with a smile: "Xiao Bai is on the balcony! Go and see him!"
Everyone in the room was smiling, but I felt my legs were a little heavy. I slowly walked to the balcony step by step. I smelled a strong floral fragrance in my nose, which was particularly refreshing. Cheng Baize was watching with his back to me.
Hua'er, wearing home pajamas and a coat, probably heard the voice and looked back at me. The corners of her mouth slightly raised, and her dimples immediately caught my eye: "You're back."
I stood there without moving, looking at his pale face after recovering from illness, and opened my mouth: "Yeah."
The Doudou who had been sleeping all the way seemed to wake up. It twisted its body and jumped up and down on the clothes on my chest. I didn't carry it close to my skin, thinking that it would stop after moving a few times. Who knew that the shirt seemed to be suddenly touched.
Its teeth penetrated, and a stinging pain suddenly came out——
He looked at me with a smile, his eyes were clean and clear, and pointed at the wintersweet: "Look, the flowers are blooming, aren't they very beautiful and fragrant?"
I saw that he still hadn't moved, and I felt that Doudou was biting harder and harder, and opened his mouth slightly: "Cheng Baize, why did you lie to me?"
A trace of doubt suddenly appeared in his eyes. After a while, he slowly raised his eyebrows: "You have a poisonous insect on your body?"
My nose felt a little sore, "You know everything, right?"
Two small yellow flowers unexpectedly fell on the bare wintersweet branches at this moment. He picked them up carefully and put them in his palm: "You know what?"
"Zhuo Jing and I..."
I glanced in the direction of the living room with some taboos, took a step forward, and closed the sliding door of the balcony, "You know that, right? You asked me where I went that night, and I said I went to see the victim. You know that I
You're lying, right? You know everything in your heart, why do you pretend not to know!"
He lowered his face so that I could not see his expression clearly, but his fingers were still teasing the seemingly fragile petals: "If you don't want to say it, why should I make it difficult for you? If you can lie, at least it shows that you care about my emotions.
Isn't it?"
He raised his eyes, opened the balcony window, and spread his hands in the drifting snow, "Jiaolong, is it wrong for me to pretend not to know?"
I didn't know why I wanted to cry, so I looked at him: "But my poison was not broken at all. I broke it wrong, and I used the wrong ashes. Why didn't you tell me!"
He tugged on the clothes he was wearing and walked up to me: "That bug is biting you."
I gritted my teeth and looked at him with a trembling voice: "How do you know?"
He breathed out softly: "I told you a long time ago that you can't break that poison yourself. What you broke was just my ability to feel your pain in one line. But you always like to show off. Now I want to ask
You, when you wanted to break that poison so much, even if Zhuo Jing told you that we broke up, you wanted to break it. Was it because you were afraid of me spying on your feelings, or because you simply knew that you couldn't let go of Zhuo Jing?"
I raised my eyes and looked at him. I wondered if Doudou bit me too much. Tears actually fell from my eyes. It was I who wanted to question him. I felt that I had something to ask him, but why suddenly?
That's wrong: "I..."
"It's not that shameful to say you can't let go, but it's very shameful to lie to me."
He looked at me as if he could see through everything: "Ma Jiaolong, you know how powerful it is. I gave you the poison for your own good. I didn't tell you that the poison was not broken. It was still for your own good. If you are wrong,
Zhuo Jing thought, then in this life, you will not feel any pain or itch, it will not harm your body, what I am afraid of is that you are thinking about it. "
"Yes, I'm tempted!"
I sniffed and looked at him: "But why did you lie to me! You could have said it clearly! Cheng Baize! Are you a good person or a bad person? You make it difficult for me to see clearly, you know!!"
"Jiaolong! What's wrong! I started arguing with Xiaobai as soon as I came back!!" My grandpa heard my voice and immediately opened the door and got in between me and him, staring at me: "He's just getting better this way, you know!"
!”
"Grandpa, it's okay."
Cheng Baize spoke calmly, looking at me with a somewhat forbearing and complicated look: "You can't see clearly, right? Then I'll let you see clearly."
With that said, he passed over my grandpa, took my arm and walked directly out the door.
"Xiaobai, where are you going!"
"Grandpa, you'll be back soon." Cheng Baize turned around and responded. Seeing me trying to get rid of him, he couldn't help but open his mouth: "Don't you want to ask clearly? I'll tell you everything at once."
Until we walked into his house, he threw me into the living room, turned around and walked into the bedroom and took out a small porcelain bottle. It was really small, only half a finger high. He took my hand and put the small bottle into the palm of my hand.
: "Well, don't you want to remove the poison? Just take it."
At the same time, the beanie that was biting me actually let go, and fell from my clothes to the floor with a 'snap'.
"What is this..." I looked at Cheng Baize: "The ashes of Po Gu?"
Cheng Baize looked down at Doudou, then looked at me: "My ashes."
My legs went weak and I immediately sat down on their sofa, "Yours?"
Cheng Baize did not respond, but raised his left hand and rushed towards me. Then he used his right hand to pull on his little finger, and one of his little fingers was torn off by him. I was so frightened: "What are you doing?"
Ah You!"
As soon as the little finger of his left hand was torn off, only a short finger root was left, and his good hand immediately became strange. He looked at me with a calm expression, and put his hand in his hand.
The torn off silicone-looking finger was placed on the coffee table, "The ashes made from this finger bone can be used to break the poison for you. I thought you would never need it in this life, but since you admit to forgetting
If you don’t want to get rid of him, that’s fine, I can break the poison for you, I don’t care.”
"you……"
I was speechless for a moment. Looking at his mutilated hand, my chest felt tight as if someone had punched me: "How can you use yourself as a hook?"
Cheng Baize was so calm that he pulled out a chair and sat across from me: "When you were asked to donate a kidney, I was really anxious. It seems that poisoning is the fastest way, but if you want to use other ashes, I can't control it.
It’s not serious, so I had no choice but to come here by myself, and I didn’t expect that one day, you would still be obsessed with wanting to be with Zhuo Jing. In that case, I’ll help you and take away the ashes.”
I covered my mouth, looked at the porcelain bottle in front of me, and couldn't stop crying. I didn't know why this happened. Did I do something wrong? I felt sorry for Cheng Baize, but I also expressed that feeling.
I am really exhausted mentally and physically!
"You don't have to cry. I have made it clear to you a few years ago. Firstly, I was forced by the situation at the time. Secondly, it was to help you forget about Zhuo Jing. It was just a roundabout way.
Turn around, I didn’t expect that you would ask me if I am a good person or a bad person. I may be a bad person, but Ma Jiaolong, I have never been bad to you."
"Why……"
I looked at him with tears in my eyes: "Can you tell me why? Even if you are poisoned by the heart, you can't commit self-mutilation! Cheng Baize, why do you always help me like this? Can you tell me!"
He looked at me steadily for a while, then opened his mouth: "It probably started when you stood on the stage alone and helpless. Later, you told me that you can't keep anyone who is good to you.
Stay, I think, I can always stay by your side and help you, because you are my only friend."
I was a little overly excited, my blood kept gushing up, and my head was about to explode. I looked at him: "Are you telling the truth? Cheng Baize, I'm really afraid that you are a bad person. You're good to me, and I don't care at all."
It’s unclear, you might as well say what you want, and I’ll give you everything I can give you…”
"What do you have for me?"
He still sat across from me and looked at me quietly: "What I want has never been mine. I want family, relatives, etc. These are not mine. I have always only had one person. Until you, I
I treat you sincerely, but I still have to endure your doubts."
"do you know."
He stood up slowly and looked at me, his face extremely pale: "My master even told me that if I want to achieve a level that is beyond the reach of all Onmyoji, I just need to kill you and grind your bones and blood.
It would save me a few decades of hard work, but I really can’t do it. I couldn’t do it when I didn’t know you. I would rather lock the door of your house. I even thought that killing people is already my limit, so why let me
Eating human blood? How is that possible, Ma Jiaolong, I don’t care about your natural yin and yang, what do you think I want from you..." (To be continued)