Chapter 129: Conflict with the world, mutual redemption of boys and girls
【Mom and Dad’s love has no reason or purpose. I finally joined this family.
In other words, I have always been a part of this family, but I just didn’t realize it.
I began to try to respond to this love, and truly realized the close connection between my parents and me that blood is thicker than water.
As my father said, in this life, they are my parents. This is an undoubted fact.
I feel very lucky to be able to join this family as a new member.
Finally, I am no longer alone in this world, and my closest parents are with me. My restless heart finally has a peaceful destination for my soul.]
"Yeah."
Hongli nodded and sighed: "I am so happy to be my parents' child."
【……】
【Time flies so fast, in the blink of an eye I am already three years old.】
【……】
[It’s the Chinese New Year again, and many relatives have come to the house. I’m like a moving little toy, being sent from the arms of one elder to the arms of that elder, making all kinds of fun. Wow, it’s really hard. The New Year’s Eve? I think it’s the Hell’s End!]
"It's true that when I encountered this kind of thing when I was a child, I always stayed away from it in advance."
Hong Li felt the same way: "Seven aunts and eight aunts, that's a real nightmare."
But it's a pity that when she grew up, for the sake of "politeness", she couldn't run away early. She could only sit "demurely" and "quietly" and listen to the elders laughing and joking. From time to time, she would show an embarrassed rather than polite smile.
Use this to show that you are listening carefully.
In fact, her soul had already flown away and followed Hei Yang to hide in a small corner!
[However, as I grow older, my parents still have some headaches about my personality.]
"That's for sure. Hei Yang, you are a big burden and a big trouble."
Hongli curled her lips and complained about her boyfriend.
"That is to say, sister, I like to collect rags, so I can tolerate your shabby character and treat you as a treasure. Otherwise, without me, who will want you, huh!"
As for her own character...
Uh...
Let’s turn our attention back to Black Sun Diary!
[They found that apart from this home, I seemed to have no interest in anything else around me, which made them worried. Terrifying words such as "unsociable", "isolated" and "autistic" flashed in their minds. They wanted me to have a happy childhood, thinking that this would create a positive outlook on life for me and prevent me from going astray in the future.】
[This is Hei Yang when he was fourteen years old. Looking back now, during that period, my painting style was indeed a bit strange.
Avoiding the sight of everyone, in a small room alone, crying or laughing, he was drawing mysterious and unknown words on a suspicious book. His whole person seemed to be shrouded in shadow. If he said he was a little evil cultivator, it was really not true.
A little bit of a sense of dissonance.]
[Here is Hei Yang, who is sixteen years old. At that time, my attitude towards evil cultivators was still too rigid. I met one some time ago. To be honest, he looked much brighter than me.]
"No doubt, you also have the same virtue now, but this has not changed."
Hongli rolled her eyes: "Besides, what's going on with this person? It's obviously a diary from the past, so why does his future self always come back to complain.
Wouldn't he feel ashamed if he still reads his diary all day long? Tsk tsk."
[Actually, my parents were right, I was deliberately escaping from the world.]
[Five Color Family, Five Elements Sect, World of Cultivation, Demons and Demons, Immortals, Buddhas, Daoists and Martial Arts...
Some of these are very close to me, and some I may never see in my life, but without exception, these strange new words make me feel that there is always a gap between me and the world.]
[It is said that every time traveler is lonely, because people are emotional animals. How is that possible to abandon everything in the past and come out, start over and no longer think about the past?
Telling jokes that no one has ever heard, telling jokes that no one understands, and dreaming back at midnight, I often feel crazy and feel pain in my bones.
Granny Meng is right, after a bowl of soup, all worries will be forgotten. If I didn’t have those memories of my previous life, I would definitely live happily in this world, in this big and humane family, right?] p>
[However, if I lost the memory of my previous life, my personality would definitely be very different.
At that time, the person named Hei Yang may still be there, but I will disappear forever. Thinking about it this way, is it really okay?】
"It must be bad!"
Hongli said without hesitation: "If you weren't of this character, how could I still love you!
Gu Shen
I want the complete Black Yang, not another person wearing the skin of the Black Yang.
After all, I'm not with you just because I'm greedy for your body...
Uh, okay, I admit, little Heiyang, you do have some good looks, but your greedy body is greedy body, and my liking for your character is completely different. Oh, sniff, sniff... cough cough."
[This is not good! I have made a judgment. I am Heiyang, I am unique. I don’t want to become another person.
It is precisely because of the memories of my previous life that I know how to cherish every bit of this life. When people around me start sprinting hard with their eyes closed, just like me before, I slowly move step by step and enjoy the scenery around me. The road of life is so long. If you win at the starting line and run so much faster than others, won't you reach the finish line faster?
I don’t want to forget my parents in my previous life, and I don’t want to forget those interesting things in my previous life either.
Happy memories will always be treasured in my heart, and happy memories make me cherish today’s life even more.]
[I seemed to be getting used to every bit of this world, and suddenly I realized with horror, why did I start the habit of keeping a diary not long after I was born?
You know, recording secrets in a diary is obviously easier to expose and let others know!
However, that may be my instinctive defense measure from my previous life. I don’t want to be assimilated into this world and I don’t want to forget the past.
Although now that I think about it, it seems to have happened a long time ago. It has been so long that I can't help but wonder, have I really experienced those things? Maybe it was just a child's imagination, and the settings he set for himself through some fragments of dreams.
?
No, look at the previous diary, how could a baby know this from birth?
I actually began to doubt the authenticity of my previous life. I was actually assimilated. This is simply terrifying!
I don’t want to forget, and I don’t want to become another person, so I have to record it more carefully in future diaries!]
【……】
[The number of pages in the diary was not enough, so I tried to sew a new one on. My diary was twice as thick, and I could continue to keep a diary again!]
"Well..."
Hong Li didn't comment too much, she just held her chin and turned to the next page with her tender white hands. Sure enough, she could see the traces of stitching. No wonder Hei Yang's diary is so thick!
[In order for me to blend in with everyone and the surrounding environment, my parents began to take me around to play, cousin Hei Hui, cousin Hei Xiaoqi...]
"Hey, hey, what's going on, little brother!"
Hongli drawled a long voice and said with an unhappy face: "Why haven't you come to my door yet?
If you continue to behave like this, it will make me feel like I am absent from your life!"
[My parents’ visit plan didn’t go as smoothly as expected. In my opinion, they are just a group of children and we can’t play together.
Innocent cousin Hei Hui, to be honest, when I am with her, I feel like I am her uncle and have to worry about her all day long.
Hei Xiaoqi, who pretended to be a young adult, could not speak a few words when facing me. Then she cried and went to her uncle and others to complain, saying that this younger brother was not good and she wanted to have a better brother.
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[This is 15-year-old Hei Yang. Later, after having a younger brother, Hei Xiaolong, Hei Xiaoqi realized what it means to be naughty. I laughed to death. Is it really all about comparison?
However, Xiaolong seems to only be interested in bullying his sister. His attitude towards my cousin, in addition to being as close and dependent as cousin Hei Hui, actually has some admiration. This surprised me a little, but I didn't let it go too far.
In my heart.
In my opinion, they are all relatives and equally lovely.】
[My parents took me to visit the Five Color Family, which further confirmed my idea: I and this group of people love to cry and make trouble, and their personalities are always unpredictable. They don’t know the importance of their actions, and they can’t guess their true thoughts at all. Some even
A little brat who plays with his bare buttocks and urine in the mud really has no common topic!]
[However, there is an exception. The Hong family has a little sister who is three days younger than me. Her personality is much quieter than other ordinary children.
When there are many people, she always likes to hide secretly and does not want to participate in the arguments of those children.
In her eyes, I always feel a bit familiar. When I think about it carefully, that girl looks like me in the past.
I don't like to socialize, I like to be quiet, and I always show a sense of laziness and exhaustion in my every move.
But her big and lively eyes that are constantly searching are shining brightly. They are children's instinctive curiosity and exploration of the world.
Those eyes are so inconsistent on this girl, as if the light in her eyes has been extinguished! (crossed out, wrong!)
I think I should give that child a hand in the dark to prevent her future life from being filled with pain and sorrow! (Well, that’s right!)
Oh, by the way, her name is Hongli, which is a very nice name.]
"What the hell did you cross out? Why can I still see it after crossing it out, bastard! Are you already a black-hearted bastard at such a young age? I'm really unlucky to meet you!"<
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Hongli couldn't help complaining loudly, but suddenly she breathed a sigh of relief and showed a relaxed smile: "Humph, it's finally time for the hero to appear.
Sure enough, I knew that it would be up to Xiao Hongli to save your miserable life, Hei Yang! Oh ho ho ho!"