Xuanqing must have known about my hasty departure. Swallowing Novels www. However, he did not come to look for me.
I am grateful for his understanding, because with this understanding, even if I choose to keep a distance from him, I can still gain a little peace and numb my chaotic heart in peace.
When I returned, Jin Xi had tidied up the Zen room in Lingyunfeng, planted flowers and trees in front of the courtyard, and happily welcomed me back from my illness.
The days passed so calmly. But in this calmness, I spent more and more time leaning on the window sill in a daze, often in the evening or early morning. When I felt a little better, I took the coolness out of my mind.
The seeds of the sunset flowers collected in Taiwan were carefully sown into the soil and watched as they sprouted light green and light yellow buds.
Jinxi sighed slightly and stayed with me. Finally one day, she asked: "My wife has come back from recuperating at Qingliangtai. She seems to be different."
I looked at the new young leaves blooming on the branches one by one, and said softly: "I have been sick, and maybe I have lost weight again."
Jinxi stared at me silently, "What happened on the balcony?"
I smiled tiredly, "Jinxi, there's nothing."
Jin Xi said: "If it is true that there is no such thing, how come Mr. Wen often comes here now, but the prince never sets foot there again."
As she said, Wen Shichu did come to see me often.
He put his hand on my pulse and said gently: "Your body is much better. It's just that your spirit is still weak. Why don't you go out for a walk more often to relax."
I retracted my hand and put down my sleeves, and he looked at me silently, "Sister Huan, I always feel that you have been depressed since you came back from the cooling terrace."
I raised my eyelids and said, "My depression didn't just start today, so why bother with the balcony."
He was silent, with a hint of concern and a hint of relief in the corners of his eyes, "Maybe I'm overly concerned. But it's a good thing for you to leave the cooling terrace."
"Good thing?"
"That's right." There was a hint of complexity in Wen Shichu's eyes that I couldn't understand. "I always feel that King Qinghe is a danger and makes people easily bewitched. It's better that you don't get close to him."
"Bewitched?" I smiled calmly, "Are you worried that I will be bewitched by him?"
"No, no, no," he waved his hand, "I'm just thinking about you, I don't mean that."
I lay lazily on the table, gently stroking a peach blossom in the vase with my fingers, and said calmly: "No matter what you mean, I don't care."
The peach blossoms were in full bloom, and I suddenly felt tired. How could the red flowers compare to the elegance and pleasantness of the green plum blossoms?
Thinking like this, let the peach blossoms bloom and fall, and the spring of this year has passed like this.
One day in late spring, it was already the time when flowers were falling and the lingering fragrance fell to the ground. I was in a good mood that day, and I remembered that the strings of the "Sauvignon Blanc" had been damaged and had been kept at Princess Shu Gui's place for repairs for almost a year. Counting the time
, I thought it should be repaired. So I got up to visit Princess Shu Gui who was practicing in Anqi Temple.
But I didn't want to push the door and go in. What I saw was Xuan Qing, standing beside Concubine Shu Gui with his hands behind his back, talking enthusiastically. His figure flashed into my eyes so unexpectedly, I held my breath for a moment.
I haven't seen him for three months.
The Qingliang Terrace is not very far from where I live. I secretly thought that we could see each other every day if we wanted to, but if we deliberately avoided it, we could be as close as we were to each other.
Thinking like this, I couldn't help but be startled, and my steps stopped. I was about to retreat quietly, but Jiuyun saw me, came forward with a smile and said, "My lady hasn't been here for a long time."
Hearing the sound, Xuan Qing turned to look at me, with a smile as broad as the blue sea and clear sky on his lips, and nodded to me. He was thinking silently in his heart that after three months of separation, he had become a lot thinner.
I couldn't help but retreat, so I went forward to greet Concubine Shu Gui and gave her a blessing before looking back and smiling at her.
The concubine waved to me and said with a smile: "The weather is nice today, it's rare that you are willing to go out for a walk." After chatting for a few words, the three of them stood side by side in the back courtyard, watching the fallen flowers in the courtyard silently on the green grass.
. Turning around, I saw Xuan Qing standing with his hands behind his back, with a long body and a calm and peaceful expression. He felt very peaceful in his heart.
After a long time, Concubine Shu Gui smiled and said, "It's been a long time since I enjoyed the fallen flowers quietly like this."
I smiled lightly and said: "Falling red is not a heartless thing. It turns into spring mud to protect flowers. It is actually more rewarding than spring flowers."
Xuan Qing looked at me slightly, then quickly turned away as if nothing happened.
Concubine Shu Gui smiled and picked up a fallen flower in her hand, and said softly: "In this season of falling flowers, when I hear the flowers falling silently, I would like to listen to the piano." She called Jiyun to the inner hall and said to me: "
The strings that were damaged last time have been repaired, so you can try to weigh your hands."
Since the last string broke, I haven't played the piano for more than a year.
Xuanqing's smile slowly spread into his eyes. My eyes were attracted by him and stayed on his waist. My heart felt warm and cold at the same time. Sure enough, there were this and that number on his gold-locked silk belt.
The flute that "stays together forever".
just in case…
Before all my thoughts of "what if" came to my mind, he already said: "It's just right. My son carries the 'Chanxiangshou' with him so that he can play a song with his wife." He said to me calmly: "In the past, I
The Qing Dynasty always remembers the incident when the lady played "Shang Xiang Si" with the ensemble, and she was very good at playing the piano."
I purposely did not look at him and only said humbly to Concubine Shu Gui: "The old owner of 'Sauvignon Blanc' is here. How dare I boast about my piano skills? I am really out of my league. As for the duet with the prince, it happened many years ago.
It’s happened. If the prince didn’t tell me, I would have almost forgotten about it.”
Xuan Qing's eyes dimmed slightly, as if the bright candlelight was blown away by the strong wind, and then it just returned to normal.
Concubine Shu Gui's expression changed, she was as drunk as smoke, and she said with a gentle smile: "After the death of the late emperor, I will never touch 'Sauvignon Blanc' again. I have never heard the sound of this ensemble again."
I excused myself and said, "I'm afraid it's not appropriate to play the piano and music in a Buddhist land."
Jiu Yun advised from the side: "The concubine and the lady are just practicing Buddhism, and the prince is also a wealthy and idle man. Since the three of them are all familiar with music theory and are not making vapid music in this temple, there is no problem."
Xuanqing looked at me with a look that seemed to be asking for advice. Although I couldn't bear to refuse in my heart, my own reason did not allow me to agree.
Just as I was about to speak, Concubine Shu Gui's expression turned as sad as frost on a blue tile, and she said: "Then, Madam Zhen, please grant me, the widow, my wish. I would like to hear it again in my lifetime."
"Sauvignon Blanc" and "Sauvignon Blanc" play in unison."
Tears were already visible in her amber eyes. I couldn't bear to refuse anymore, so I said: "Okay."
Xuanqing looked at me and asked Heyan: "What should I play?"
I concentrated for a moment, and what came to my mind was that day when I was playing the piano in Tangli Palace to relieve my worries. He took over the half-part of "Long Love" that I couldn't continue outside the distant side hall.
So he blurted out: "Sauvignon Blanc."
Unexpectedly, as soon as the words came out of his mouth, he also said this excitedly: "How good is 'Sauvignon Blanc'?"
Concubine Shu Gui smiled and said, "You two have the same mind."
I blushed slightly and felt a little uncomfortable. I smiled quickly and said, "It's just because the name of the piano is 'Sauvignon Blanc' that the prince and I thought of it here."
He also said: "My mother-in-law loves to make fun of me the most. My wife and I don't have any sympathy, it's just that we fell in love with each other according to the situation."
Concubine Shu Gui smiled and said: "It's very good. Although I'm not very good at writing, I still know Li Qinglian's "Sauvignon Blanc". How about just this one."
I agreed, tuned the strings, and Fang slowly rolled up his sleeves and plucked the strings. At the same moment, the sound of his flute rose slowly and softly, as clear and clear as a wisp of a quiet spring, and as clear as a person's heart.
Such a familiar flute sound. At that moment, my initial discomfort was soothed by the sound of his flute. Concubine Shu Gui listened intently and seemed to be very fascinated. After I played the flute, I could hear the sound of his flute.
Without any intention of stopping for a moment, I turned my head slightly, only to see him raising his eyes and smiling slightly at me. I concentrated my attention, and in an instant I understood, and the melody followed the sound of his flute, and I started all over again.
But I heard a gentle female voice singing softly along with me and him:
Longing for lovesickness destroys the heart and liver. The sun is full of flowers and smoke, and the moon is as bright as a day without sleep. Zhao Se stops the phoenix pillar at the beginning, and the Shuqin is about to play the mandarin duck strings. This song is intended to be passed down by no one, and I wish to send it to Yan Ran with the spring breeze. Recall it.
You are so far away from me in the blue sky. What used to be a wave of water is now a fountain of tears. If you don’t believe that I have a broken heart, I will come back and look in front of a bright mirror.
Longing for lovesickness, in Chang'an. Luo Wei cries in autumn, the golden well is covered with light frost, the mat is desolate and the color is cold. The lonely lamp cannot be seen, and I am heartbroken. I roll up the curtains and look at the moon and sigh. The beauty is like a flower separated by clouds. There is a long blue sky above and Lu water below.
The waves and waves. The soul is suffering from the distance of heaven and earth, and it is difficult for the dream soul to reach Guanshan.
In such a sad and confused piece, the flute sounds are faint and wisps, but there is no mournful feeling. Even the sound of my piano is clear and clear but not stagnant. The song of Concubine Shu Gui is thoughtful, but not sad.
When the song ended, I just felt relieved, and all my worries were lost with the sound of the song.
Concubine Shu Gui smiled like a flower in the wind, nodded and said: "Since the death of the late emperor, I haven't heard the sound of 'Sauvignon Blanc' and 'Chang Xiangshou' playing together for a long time, but you two have lived up to these two pianos and flutes."
I smiled and said modestly: "I haven't played the piano for more than a year, so my gestures are inevitably a bit unfamiliar. Fortunately, it hasn't tarnished the dowager's ears."
The concubine looked lovingly at a pair of pianos and flutes, caressed the body of the piano lovingly, and said with a smile: "Very good, I feel relieved after hearing this today. In the past, I thought you were beautiful and smart, so the emperor gave you 'Sauvignon Blanc'.
, I have been worried for several days. If you are not good at playing the piano, you will really let down my "Sauvignon Blanc". Now that I have heard that I am overjoyed for this piano, it is considered that I have a good owner who complements me and cherishes it.
Already."
I hurriedly said: "The concubine is overly praised, how dare I become one?"
Concubine Shu Gui said sternly: "I don't mean to praise you." She was slightly focused, as if immersed in beautiful memories, her smile was like snowflakes and trees, and the clear moonlight was bright, "Today I hear the piano and flute ensemble again, it is very similar to the day when I and the late emperor
The ensemble is full of fun.”
Concubine Shu Gui spoke unintentionally, but I listened to my ears, and my heart felt like the five strands of a harp string, which were plucked hard by someone's hand, causing them to clang and become confused. I turned my head involuntarily, and happened to meet Xuan Qing's eyes. Unknowingly,
Burning fever inside the body, flushed face and ears.
But Cuiyun said again: "What the concubine said is true. There are other pianos and flutes, but our 'Shang Xiang Blanc' and 'Long Xiang Shou' are different. We have to test the skill and skill of the player.
It is not enough to have skill and technique alone, but also to have a clear understanding and understanding of each other when playing together. More importantly, there must be affection in it, otherwise, there will be no flavor of lovesickness and staying together."
My heart tightened, but I smiled as if nothing had happened: "When Aunt Jiuyun said this, I was struck by a blind cat and a dead mouse. Isn't it an accident? I only played with the prince once,
It's fair to say that we know each other, but if we say that the relationship is charming, it's really ridiculous. It's just a joke to the concubine."
Aunt Jiuyun smiled and said: "I said I was happy. I looked at it appropriately. Madam, don't take it personally."
I hurriedly said: "How dare you."
Concubine Shu Gui slowly poured a cup of tea and handed it to me, and said with a faint smile: "Having said that, the most important thing for ensemble players is the tacit understanding of each other. If there is no tacit understanding, no matter how superb the skills are, it will be in vain after all."
.In short, today I can hear the harmonious sounds of 'Sauvignon Blanc' and 'Everlasting Love' again, and I have no regrets."
Xuan Qing, who was accompanying Concubine Shu Gui, also said with a smile: "In the past, it was just a piano and flute ensemble, but now there is also the Queen Mother singing, it is really complete."
I also laughed: "It is true that what the prince said, the piano and flute ensemble can only feel the charm, it is more unique to sing the lyrics of "Sauvignon Blanc" directly. For the concubine, the love in the world is more direct and clear than vague.
Being tactful is in line with the concubine's temperament."
The concubine smiled brightly, ruffled my hair lovingly, and said, "Mrs. Zhen is also my close friend."
I smiled and said, "The concubine said this, which shows that she really loves me."
Concubine Shu Gui smiled and stroked Xuan Qing's shoulder, brushed off a few fallen flowers for him, and said with a smile: "My concubine's bosom friend is also your bosom friend. I hope you and Madam Zhen can have a few words."
Xuan Qing laughed and said, "My mother and concubine don't know that in the past, when discussing a few poems, books and history, if my son is not careful, he will fall behind my wife. I am really ashamed."
Concubine Shu Gui laughed horrifiedly, pointed at me and said: "Ms. Zhen looks gentle and graceful, but she doesn't want to be so sharp in her words. It's really amazing that she can make my son willingly defeat her."
I covered my lips and smiled: "Your Majesty is so humble that he doesn't hesitate to speak. Do you believe it, too? Your Majesty just coaxed me a few words in front of you. He turned around and didn't know how to laugh at me."
Hearing this, Xuan Qing said anxiously: "Qing is really telling the truth. I definitely don't dare to laugh at my wife."
After talking and joking like this, they dispersed. Xuanqing also said goodbye to the concubine and sent me down the mountain.
Xuanqing walked beside me, and Ajin led the horse and followed far behind. The mountain road was winding, and the breeze blew slowly into my face, mixed with the unrestrained and refreshing smell of green grass, which made me feel refreshed. I could smell a little bit faintly in the wind.
The sound of the bells on the horse's neck sounded far away, like someone singing a pleasant song. The horse's hooves stepped on the fallen flowers in the mountains, and the sweet and fragrant juice filled the road. I was separated from him.
They walked side by side silently at a distance of one punch, and no one said a word.
There is a large wild banana plant growing at the mountain intersection. The bright sunshine is flying down like a waterfall. The broad banana leaves are as huge as cattail fans pushed together. Under the sunshine that is like golden powder, the already emerald green color becomes even more intense.
Yingying, as if it were dripping down, exuding the green smell that only grows healthy plants. There are a few new leaves that have just been pulled out in the center of the banana tree, and the bright yellow color is freshly curled, like several burning giant candles.
.There are a few lilac flowers blooming here and there in the long grass underground. They are lavender or light blue in color, blooming slenderly and softly, like a shy and smiling 28-year-old girl.
I saw Xuanqing looking at the plantains and lilacs with a smile, and I couldn't help but laugh and said: "The plantains don't show the knots of lilacs, and they are facing the spring breeze with their own sorrows. 1 Are you laughing at this, your lord?"
There was a clear smile in his eyes, "I don't know whether I should praise my wife for being smart or call her scary?"
I smiled from the bottom of my heart, "Then the prince means that I was lucky enough to guess right."
Xuanqing stretched out his hand and picked up a purple lilac and sniffed it, "Qing just smiled when he thought of this sentence. Although lilac and Bajiao are together in front of him, both Qing and his wife are in a happy mood at this moment, and there is no sadness about separation and lovesickness. This sentence is true.
It’s not the right time.”
I smiled and pointed to the "Sauvignon Blanc" in my arms, "With this thing here, I have to respond to the occasion. This piano is originally called 'Sauvignon Blanc'." I looked at a lilac between his fingers and said,
He said softly: "It's very beautiful."
Xuan Qing looked at the flowers with pity in his eyes. He looked back at me and smiled at Qing Yi: "It is indeed beautiful, but Qing does not intend to give it to my wife."
I laughed and said, "Although I don't intend to do it, I still want to ask why."
Xuanqing's eyes moved from lilac to my face and said: "Lilac is a flower that loves me very much. I don't want my wife to be like this."
"I am a cultivator, so naturally I will not be tainted by lovesickness. Your Majesty, you are worrying too much." I thought of what happened just now, my eyes fixed on his waist, and I said: "'Long-lasting love' is a precious thing, Your Majesty, always
Do you carry it with you like this?"
"No," he shook his head and said, "I just bring it with me every time I come here."
I vaguely guessed the deep meaning of his words, and I felt a little scared, so I hurriedly said: "The prince is indeed very filial to the concubine."
In the past, when we were in the palace, when he talked to me about this, he would always just point it out without leaving any embarrassment. But today, it was very different from usual, and he went straight to talk. "This is just one of them." His eyes suddenly lit up.
, said calmly: "It's because 'Sauvignon Blanc' is here with you." He said it so plainly and calmly, as if it was a matter of course.
With such a heart, doesn't he know that he can't say anything to me at will?
I concealed my smile, turned away, and said, "Your Majesty is really interesting. He came here to look for 'Sauve Acacia' for the purpose of 'staying together forever'."
Xuan Qing's eyes were like sunshine falling all over the sky and the ground, shrouding people with nowhere to escape. He said seriously: "Qing is the master of 'Long Xiang Shou', and I'm here to find the master of 'Long Xiang Shou'."
The palms of my hands holding the "Sauvignon Blanc" had moist beads of sweat, and it had a gelled texture on the body of the instrument. I couldn't avoid it, my face suddenly turned red, and I said humbly: "Your Majesty, you really know how to joke."
He looked at me helplessly and said for a long time: "You know I'm not joking with you."
I hardened my heart, suddenly raised my head and stared at him, and said coldly: "But I can only think that the prince is a joke."
He didn't look at me closely, just stared at me lightly and said: "You used to be the favorite concubine in the palace, but you are no longer. So, what I said is not a joke, you have to listen to it as the truth. Since you have I left a piece of paper on the cooling table and left without saying goodbye. I was afraid that you would be sad and embarrassed, so I endured not to look for you. But you know how sad I am. The plantains don’t show their lilac knots, and we share our sorrows in the spring breeze. I don’t know you. Are you the same as me? But for me, because of your words, 'I am so grateful for my love, I am ashamed of myself', this spring is probably the most difficult one in my life."
What he said immediately made me anxious. I rolled my sleeves and said: "I used to be the beloved concubine of the palace, so even if I am expelled from the palace wall in this life, I will never be able to escape the shadow of the palace." There were sour tears in the corners of my eyes. The overflowing thoughts came out, but I held back tightly, "We are not grass and trees. It's not that I don't know the prince's thoughts. It's just that Qi Dafei is not a coincidence. Mo Chou is a broken body that came out of the palace. I really don't want to have any more contact or entanglement with the royal nobles." Not clear."
"Because you were once his concubine, and I also came from the palace, so you can't accept me." He looked at me, with infinite regret and love in his eyes, "I just want to ask you, did you ever have someone in the palace in the past? Did you have a peaceful and happy day?"
Peace and joy? There was a sudden pain in my heart. Every day, every moment, even with Xuan Ling's vast and grand favor. Which day did I live without a knife cutting blood and walking on thin ice?
Peace and joy are something I dare not even think about.
I just hope that I can live and live a better life.
He said in a daze: "Every time I meet you, you have never been truly happy. Even crying, you have to try your best to endure it."
So many years of suffering, so many years of fighting, my sadness and loss, only he has truly witnessed and comforted me.
My heart became gloomy and I lamented: "Even without those days in the palace, the past and the present would not be the same after all."
Xuanqing pressed my eyes tightly, leaving me with nowhere to hide. He asked me: "Is there any difference between the past and now?"
Looking through the haze of tears, he actually looked nothing like Xuan Ling. Xuan Ling's edges and corners had the coldness of an emperor, while Xuan Qing's lines and demeanor were as gentle as jade. I almost cried. , "How could it be different? In the past...I no longer have the childlike heart I had back then."
He interrupted me and said earnestly: "In the past, you were the rich daughter of the Zhen family, with a beautiful face; now, you are the woman who was expelled from the palace by my imperial brother to cultivate her hair." He approached me, his breath was so close , wrapped around me with a smile on his face, "But no matter in the past or now, apart from the days in the palace, you are free and can be with anyone. Everything is not different between the past and now. It is different. , it’s just your heart.” His words were as cold as water dripping through a stone, hitting my heart one by one, “Where has the proud, brave, and fearless Zhen Huan that I knew in the past gone?”
"Where has she gone?" I asked myself in a low voice, as if I were asking him, and all the grievances and pain in my heart finally burst out, "She is dead. Zhen Huan like that had already died when her family was ruined! Those who are alive now This one, called Mochou, is the body left behind by Zhen Huan, and she is no longer the Zhen Huan you knew!"
I spat out the words that had been stored in my heart for too long, word by word. Suddenly, I felt hollow and weak for a moment. I staggered a few steps, leaned against the stone wall, and gasped for breath.
His smile bloomed with a little bit of joy in the midst of sadness, and that joy looked like the straw that drowned people. He said, "You just said that humans are not grass and trees, so how can you be ruthless? You also like me a little bit in your heart.
Isn't it? Just like that day, you will call my name."
I shook my head desperately until I felt dizzy, as if only in this way could I be sure of my words, "Your Majesty, you misunderstood. Because Your Majesty has taken care of me in many ways over the years, and people are not like grass and trees, I naturally understand His Majesty's thoughts towards me. But I understand."
I understand that I can only be a confidant to the prince. If he misunderstood you because I called the prince’s name rashly that day, then it is my fault.”
His enthusiasm was fading like a candle flame. I leaned against the stone wall and said forcefully: "Your Majesty once said that there are women like clouds, which make me want to live. Although the young ladies from Peiguo's family are outstanding in virtue, they are delicate and delicate.
She is so beautiful, but you just don’t like her. So forgive me for being offended and say, there are women like clouds, which make me want to live. This sentence is really very good, and my thoughts towards the prince are the same. Although the prince is noble as heaven,
The son of the family, a nobleman of Tianhuang, a prince of a close clan, his literary talent and martial arts are all outstanding among others, but I, Zhen Huan..." I hardened my heart and said calmly: "But I, Zhen Huan, do not like her."
The stone wall was cold and smooth, and it felt hard against my vest. My vest felt cold and hot, as if I was suffering from a serious illness. But inside my head, it was cold and cold. It was so cold, as if I was playing in the snow when I was a child and dipping my palms in the snow.
, cold to the point of numbness like pinpricks.
His breathing became rapid and gradually became heavier. The heaviness and sluggishness between his breaths and inhalations impacted my heart desperately. His eyes were like a wounded animal, cold and desperate.
How scared I was to look at him, how scared I was. I tried my best not to turn my head and look at him, but his eyes were so overwhelming that I couldn't escape. When I was looked at by his eyes, I felt an indescribable feeling.
The emptiness surged up, as if my whole heart had been emptied out and could no longer be filled. My fingers trembled slightly, and I was afraid of being seen by him, so I hid them tightly behind my back and curled up into a ball with all my strength.
His expression gradually became cold and calm. After a long time, he pinned the lilac to his lapel and said with a wry smile: "If you say so, it seems that this lilac that I miss so much will belong to me."
After I finished speaking heartily, I staggered out and ran out, but before I knew it, my eyelashes were filled with tears.
Note:
1 From "Gifts on behalf of others" by Li Shangyin of the Tang Dynasty, the whole poem is: "Upstairs at dusk, the moon is like a hook across the jade staircase. The plantains do not show their lilac knots, and each of them is sad in the spring breeze." The original poem is a poem with seven unique features.
Writing about the sorrow of missing a wife. These two sentences mean that the heart of the banana has not unfolded, just like the buds of the lilac. They are both blown by the spring breeze, but the two of them are in the same heart in different places, and they are both worried about not being able to meet each other.
.It is a metaphor for the sadness and sadness of separation. This is not only a true depiction of the real scene in front of the missing woman, but also a description of the person through objects. The banana is used as a metaphor for the lover, and the lilac is used as a metaphor for the woman herself. The artistic conception is beautiful, with endless implications, and has always been appreciated by people.