Tonight, I have insomnia. The vast snow-capped mountains outside the window cast the dazzling snow light onto my bed. I stared at it blankly. The lights outside Lhasa shone with God’s spirituality. Each light was a lonely soul.
, seeking God’s relief here.
It's getting brighter outside the window, and a new day has arrived.
The newborn sun looked exceptionally red through the snow-capped mountains. The sky was clear and quiet, pure blue, without a single bird.
I went to knock on her door, and her voice immediately came from inside, "The door is unlocked. Come in."
When he pushed the door open and walked in, he found that she had already washed up and was wearing a dark red turtleneck sweater and jeans. Her figure was so good that the word graceful could not describe her beauty at all.
She was looking out the window with her back to me.
I said to her excitedly: "Tong Yao, let's go to dinner. What are your plans for today? Where should we go to play?"
She did not turn around, "Feng Xiao, I've thought about it. I still feel that we are not suitable."
At this moment, my heart seemed to have fallen into an ice hole, "Tong, Tong Yao, what's wrong with you? Isn't it good for us to be together?"
She turned around slowly, and I realized that her face was full of tears, "Feng Xiao, we are really not suitable. I have thought about it for a long time recently and found that I still can't forget Fang Qiang, and I can't completely forgive you.
In the past, Feng Xiao, I have given my body to you, but I found that my soul still cannot accept you."
I hurriedly said loudly: "Tong Yao, that's not the case! Aren't we very good during the days we were together? I really love you, and I feel that you love me too!"
Her tears were falling, "Feng Xiao, I can't deceive myself, nor can I deceive you. When I am with you, especially when we are doing that thing, you know? There is always something in my mind
It will appear that Fang Qiang hates me. I had a dream all night last night, and my dream was all about the scenes when I was with him. I know that I was wrong, and I should not be with you at all.
I shouldn’t do that kind of thing with you. My first time should be given to him instead of you. Woohoo! I was wrong, I was really wrong..."
My whole body was already cold, but at this moment, my heart was extremely disappointed, "Tong Yao, you are right, we can be together, can you give me another chance? Please..."
She shook her head slightly, "Feng Xiao, it really can't be done. I have completely figured it out. We can only be friends. Feng Xiao, I'm sorry, you can go back by yourself. I want to stay alone in Lhasa for a few days. You
Go back, there is still so much work waiting for you. I called Fang Qiang last night and he will fly here today."
At this moment, I was completely disappointed, and the sorrow in my heart suddenly surged into my heart. At this moment, I could no longer restrain myself and burst into tears.
She came over and hugged me gently, and her face gently pressed against my cheek. I felt it, and her face was full of tears, and our tears blended together. She said softly: "
Feng Xiao, don't be like this. I feel very uncomfortable. After all, I gave you my first time. I originally thought that I loved you and could accept you, but now I find that I was really wrong. I
I can't forget him, I can't deceive myself anymore. Feng Xiao, I want to thank you, thank you for giving me such a beautiful feeling, and also letting me understand who I really love. Feng Xiao, I have decided,
I will marry Fang Qiang immediately after returning from Lhasa this time. I don’t want to make any more mistakes and I can’t let him wait for me any longer.”
Immediately, she pushed me gently and wiped my tears, "Feng Xiao, go back. I don't want Fang Qiang to see us together. I'm sorry for him, and now I just want to treat him well in the future.
To make up for this mistake."
I knew that I would never be able to get her to change her mind, and that she and I would be at an end forever. Thinking of this, my tears began to flow out unsatisfactorily, and only now did I truly feel:
It is so difficult for a person to truly fall in love with someone he likes. Although I have obtained her body, her soul has never belonged to me.
Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan, they love me so much, but deep down in my heart I don't love them that much. This is my sadness.
I prepared my luggage and left Lhasa gently. Looking back, I saw that Lhasa was still awake from its early morning sleep. The snow-capped mountains were still shining with silver light.
In this way, I left this place alone and full of sadness.
After leaving Tibet, I felt an indescribable nostalgia. This place gave me so many beautiful things, but in the end, my last glimmer of hope was dashed.
When I walked into the airport, I no longer had the excitement of first arrival. My eyes were filled with the bleak cold wind, and the snow-capped mountains were still shining with silver light. The plane was cold and cold, waiting to take off. Farewell, Potala, Farewell, Tibet. There was once a person in
I have been touched and lost here, and he even left his soul in this clear river. My luggage is filled with all my sorrow.
The plane flew over Tibet, and thick clouds covered everything on the ground. The newborn sunshine spread on the clouds, a golden color. Tibet is slowly moving away from me, and my soul is slowly leaving my heart.
Fly out and try to stay in one of the clear tributaries of the Brahmaputra River.
In two hours, I will return to my original life. I will go to Chengdu and then drive back to Jiangnan alone. (To be continued)