During the two hours on the plane, my mind was filled with Tong Yao's appearance, her smile, her anger, her beautiful body, and the way she always tried her best to restrain her moans.
These pictures finally made me cry. But I could only cry quietly because I didn't want the stranger next to me to see me crying.
Finally arrived at Chengdu Airport.
After getting off the plane, when I dragged my luggage to the roadside outside the airport, I flagged down a taxi. Then, I threw away the suitcase in my hand and went straight to the taxi.
The taxi driver reminded me: "Your luggage."
I shook my head at him, "No more. Let's go."
Yes, what do I do with those things? They are all filled with my sorrow.
I stayed in the hotel where Tong Yao and I had stayed for one night, in the same room. I found that I still couldn't abandon the sadness in my heart. I hoped that I could feel the sadness between me and me again in this room.
The warmth she felt when we were together.
Lying on the bed, I closed my eyes. She came, came to my side, we started kissing, and I hugged her naked body. However, I found that what my hands were embracing turned out to be a ball of air.
.
Fantasy must be just fantasy, she can never be with me like this again. The sheets in the room have been changed long ago, without leaving a trace of her breath.
The same hotel, the same room, the same bed, but everything here has completely changed.
I almost had the urge to leave the city right away, but I restrained myself because I didn't want to feel the painful loneliness this night.
It took me nearly seven hours to get there on the five-hour journey.
I set off early in the morning, and there were a lot of cars on the road, which made me feel less lonely. On the way, I called Tong Yao because I was still unwilling to give in.
However, her mobile phone was turned off. So I sent her a text message while driving the car: I still want to talk to you again.
However, I did not receive a reply from her until I arrived in Jiangnan.
Either she didn't turn on her phone, or she didn't want to reply to me at all. That's what I thought.
I really wanted to call Fang Qiang right away, but I found that I didn't have the courage. In Tong Yao's eyes, I might not be even half as good as him now.
I hesitated like this, and I still couldn't make up my mind until I arrived in Jiangnan.
I was very hungry, so I went to a roadside shop and ordered a few dishes. It tasted really good, even better than the food in a big hotel. I ate several bowls of rice.
At this moment, I suddenly became impulsive because I really didn't want to give up this opportunity. So I finally picked up the phone and called Fang Qiang.
The call came through quickly, and Fang Qiang's voice came over the phone. He said in a very polite tone, "Hello, Dr. Feng."
I said: "Have you gone to Lhasa?"
He suddenly said in a very surprised voice, "Lhasa? Why should I go there?"
I understood immediately: Tong Yao was lying to me. I hurriedly said: "Tong Yao said she was going to Lhasa, and I thought you were together. I just wanted to talk to her about something."
He said in an even more surprised tone, "Tong Yao? She is going to Lhasa? Doctor Feng, what is going on?"
I said: "It's okay. I can't get through her phone. By the way, I want to ask you something, Fang Qiang, are you still in love with her now?"
He was silent for a moment before answering me: "Of course. She has already occupied all my heart. I will never marry her in this life. If she doesn't always forgive me, I will never marry in my life."
I didn't expect that he was so infatuated, and at the same time I was a little moved, "Fang Qiang, are you telling the truth?"
He said: "Of course. I've always thought so."
I asked him again, "I had a meal with Tong Yao during the Spring Festival. The case she told me was the case you told me before. I found that what you said seemed different. Fang Qiang,
What on earth is going on?"
He said: "Dr. Feng, you'd better not ask so clearly about some things, because those things have nothing to do with you."
I immediately understood: he might have deceived me. Now it seems that what Tong Yao told me may be more true.
I was about to hang up the phone, but when I was hesitating, I suddenly felt something: maybe it would be more suitable for them to be together. So, I immediately said to him, "Fang Qiang, I think you should go to Lhasa immediately. According to
As far as I know, Tong Yao is there now. The hotel she is currently staying in is..."
He immediately asked me: "How did you know?"
My heart hurts so much, "Don't worry about how I know. I'm just reminding you that if you really love Tong Yao, this is your best chance."
After saying this, I immediately hung up the phone. However, I suddenly regretted it, and I didn't know whether I did the right thing or not.
Everything Tong Yao said to me is kept in my heart. I clearly feel that it is impossible for her and me. Just imagine, a woman like her can dedicate her body to me, so I completely believe it.
I remember what she said to me - "I have given my body to you, but I find that my soul still cannot accept you."
If that's the case, then why don't I be beautiful?
At this moment, I feel that this kind of adult beauty is the most reward I should give to Tong Yao.
I have experienced so many emotions, I have gained and lost so much, and I feel that I am very mature and calm when it comes to such things.
When I was with Tong Yao, I used to be as innocent as her, but now I am different. I have returned to my proper state: since I can't get her, I should make her happy.
Now, I don't know how Fang Qiang will decide, but I would rather believe that he will fly to Lhasa immediately.
Tong Yao told me that she had called Fang Qiang and said that Fang Qiang would meet her soon. I believed it at that time, because I had to believe it, because I didn’t dare to
I went to face Fang Qiang directly. To be honest, I felt extremely inferior in front of him.
But now I know that I was wrong, and very wrong. Tong Yao is not that kind of frivolous woman. She would never call Fang Qiang just after breaking up with me. She must have regretted it, regretted being with me
This journey together was because she said that she and I were not suitable.
It was obvious that she really regretted it, so she needed time to digest this regret. She just wanted to stay alone in Tibet, in that land full of gods, to repent to the Bodhisattva. She wanted to truly get out of her current situation.
A state of regret.
Her regret was caused by me, and I feel deeply guilty.
That's why I told Fang Qiang about Tong Yao's stay in Lhasa. I think this can be regarded as a kind of compensation for Tong Yao. Of course, such compensation is definitely not enough, but as long as she has any need for me in the future
, I will help her without hesitation. This idea has firmly existed in my heart.
I didn't go home, but went directly to the villa. I had already decided that I would move here from now on.
After all, the place where Chen Yuan and I lived before was still Lin Yi's real estate. Now I feel that I am no longer suitable to live in that place.
However, when I arrived at the villa, when I saw that the whole house was covered with dust and so empty, I immediately changed my mind. I thought of the sound that appeared in the house, and I would rather believe it.
That was the noise Chen Yuan made after she came back. So, I went back immediately. I wanted to live with her.
In the afternoon, I rested for a while at home. I curled up on the sofa in the living room. I wanted to hear that footsteps again. (To be continued)