I didn't go back to Shangguanqin directly because I was afraid that she would smell Lin Yu's scent on me. So, I went to a public bathroom and washed my body clean before leaving. I mainly washed my
Hands, the index and middle fingers of my right hand.
After returning to Shangguanqin's place, I immediately changed out of my clothes and threw them into the washing machine to start cleaning. Then I took a shower again. When I put on my pajamas and entered the bedroom, I discovered that she had already fallen asleep.
It’s on.
I got into the warm bed and hugged her into my arms. She woke up and said, "Are you back?"
My heart was filled with guilt, but also with a kind of warmth, "Well. Why did you fall asleep so early?"
Her head came to my chest, and the ends of her jasmine-scented hair were on my face, "I had nothing to do, so I fell asleep. Laughing, I found that after I was with you, I
I have become lazy. I want to sleep all day long.”
I went to caress her face and said, "Then go to sleep."
She said, "No. I want to talk to you."
Her body was close to mine, and then her lips came to my cheek and gave me a gentle kiss. At this moment, I suddenly felt that my body began to react, "Xiao Qin
,I want you."
Her body pressed closer to mine, "Yeah. I want you too..."
Passion suddenly surged like a volcano erupting. At this moment, I truly understood: I no longer have any passion for Lin Yu.
Once, I asked myself more than once: Why do you want to be like her? Is it feelings or needs? Now, I suddenly understand that such factors exist. Maybe, my performance in front of her today will make my so-called ideals and career worse.
I suffered a huge impact, but in my heart I feel no regrets.
After experiencing so many things, I finally understood one thing: nothing is more important than a person's desire for freedom. Yes, it is the desire for freedom. Such a desire is what one really needs deep in his heart, and
False, superficial vanity is completely contrary to that.
I truly felt the beauty of the love Shangguanqin gave me.
But to be honest, this feeling is not unforgettable. Only when I am with the nursery rhymes can I have a touching feeling of ascending to heaven. The beauty she has given me has been deeply engraved in my heart.
I believe that even if my body disappears from this world one day, my soul will still not forget the beauty she gave me.
It's a pity that it was just a short and extremely beautiful memory. Could it be that the most beautiful things in this world cannot last long?
When I woke up the next day, I started to feel uneasy because of what happened the night before. I felt that I was a little impulsive at the time. No, it was not just uneasy, but also a kind of fear and regret. I couldn't help but start to doubt my impulsiveness the night before:
Is love really more important than your own future?
At this moment, my concept between right and wrong has become blurred. Now, I have to think about a question: If I had not had that incident with Shangguanqin before going to Lin Yu's place last night, what would have happened next
Will it still be like that?
At Lin Yu's place, both her and I had taken off our clothes. In fact, in the final analysis, I was still cheating, but I became incompetent. I remember that my incompetence started when I smelled her
The bad breath started. Has she ever had that condition before? Or was she ignored by me before?
I have been thinking about such things in the office. The anxiety and fear in my heart are difficult to eliminate, and it makes me have no intention to think about my work.
Later, I suddenly thought of a way to make up for it. I went to the traditional Chinese medicine department of the hospital.
I directly went to the director of the Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine and told her that a female fellow villager of mine suffered from bad breath and wanted to see if there was any special Chinese medicine available.
The director told me that there are many causes of bad breath. In addition to lung fever, chronic gastritis, sinusitis, and pharyngitis, it may also be gum problems. When she said this, she looked at me in surprise. I knew what her surprise was.
, suddenly felt ashamed, so he laughed at himself: "I am still very unqualified as an obstetrician and gynecologist, and I don't have a deep understanding of such a simple problem. I thought it was a problem of lung heat."
She smiled and said: "Many experts are like this. They study profound issues very deeply, but ignore common diseases. This is also normal. It is like taking a physics question from the college entrance examination to test a nuclear physics expert.
, they may not be able to answer it.”
I laughed immediately and felt that I had nothing to be ashamed of. There are specialties in the art industry, that's how it is.
She immediately said to me: "Dean Feng, please ask your fellow villager to check whether he has the previous symptoms. If he does not have any of the previous symptoms, then the only explanation is lung heat. In addition to targeted medication, the treatment
In addition, there is the simplest way, which is to chew tea leaves at any time every day. This will make her breathe like blue."
I didn't expect it to be so simple, so I immediately thanked her profusely. Then I thought, since I happened to be here, I might as well have a chat with her to see if she had any good suggestions for the work of the hospital.
So I asked her next: "Does your department have any good suggestions for the work of our hospital? What opinions do you have on our work during this period? I hope you can say whatever you have, and you're welcome."
The director said: "Dean Feng, everyone has a good impression of you. They think you are clean and honest, and you are more humane when managing the hospital. Many people say that the hospital should have done this a long time ago. If you don't do it this way, it will be bad in the future."
It’s completely out of date. Opinions, haha! I do think that the business of our Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine should attract the attention of the leaders of your hospital. This is not a boast of my wife Wang. President Feng, you may not know that now our hospital’s Traditional Chinese Medicine
The business of the department is getting better and better, and more and more patients are seeing traditional Chinese medicine and taking traditional Chinese medicine. However, the conditions of our department of traditional Chinese medicine are the worst, so we hope that the hospital will give us more room for development after renovation in the future.
The traditional Chinese medicine department of our hospital is famous throughout the province, especially in gynecology. If we want to build a specialty hospital, we should start from this aspect."
I was surprised, "Really? I'm sorry, I really haven't paid much attention to this aspect. I'm sorry, because I am a practitioner of Western medicine and don't know much about this aspect. Then I would like to ask you,
If our Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine compares with the Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine of the Provincial Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital and the Medical University Affiliated Hospital, what are our advantages?"
She said: "We are definitely relatively strong in the treatment of gynecological diseases. This is our advantage."
I nodded, "Thank you, it seems that our work is still very rough. I thought I had a better understanding of the hospital's situation, but now it seems that it is far from enough."
She smiled and said: "They say Dean Feng is not only young, but also has no airs. Today I finally saw it with my own eyes."
Of course I knew there was flattery in her words.
After returning to the office, I sent Lin Yu a text message: Sister, I'm sorry about what happened yesterday. You should check your body and chew tea leaves every day when you have nothing to do.
I didn't write "last night" because she has a special status and I didn't want to get her into trouble.
She quickly replied: It's none of your business. I know it will happen sooner or later. Thank you.
Her text message made me feel a lot more relaxed, and at the same time, I was filled with greater gratitude to her. She was so reasonable, understood my current situation, and gave me everything I have now, but she
In this situation, she didn't even have any complaints against me. At the same time, I felt that I was so selfish and so sorry for her. From this, I immediately said to myself: If she needs it in the future
, I will definitely be able to break my body to pieces for her.
Suddenly I remembered a story from a Chinese fairy tale I had read somewhere. A female ghost seduced a scholar. The scholar was thinking about Miss Zhang, whom he was madly in love with. The female ghost said to him, so what about Miss Zhang, I can change and be the same as her.
Not bad. Besides, no matter how beautiful the skin is, it will be gray and dry after a hundred years, so what? Then the scholar had an epiphany. It is said that in ancient times, the way to wake up a lovesick person was to let him smell the other person's stool, and then ten years later...
Eighty-sixty-nine times, they will wake up: It turns out that the lover's feces also stink, it turns out that the lover is also a mortal... Yes, the love between a man and a woman will one day become indifferent, but what about guilt?
At this moment, I immediately felt that guilt was actually a kind of shackles. Perhaps, I had already firmly locked myself on Lin Yu.
Can't help but sigh.
However, I was finally able to let go of this matter, and I could finally calmly think about work.
Immediately, I went to Deng Feng. I told him my thoughts: "Dean Deng, I think our previous work was still too rough. We should have a deeper understanding of the specific situation of the hospital. For example, I
I went to the Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine today, but I found that I knew very little about the conditions there. So, what about the conditions in other departments?"
He looked at me inexplicably, "Dean Feng, what exactly do you want to say? Why don't I understand?"
I said: "Today I went to the Department of Traditional Chinese Medicine and went back to the office and thought for a long time. I feel that I have committed a common problem shared by the leaders of other units, which is to try to influence the future of the entire unit with one person. Just imagine, our hospital
This transformation can be said to be equivalent to reconstruction. We have invested so much. If the future results are unsatisfactory because we are too subjective, it will be a crime for me personally, including our entire leadership team.