When I first came to work in this hospital, I was very ambitious and filled with passion all the time, because every time I thought about how this hospital would become under my planning, design and implementation,
When entering a modern hospital, there will be a kind of excitement, and that excitement will immediately transform into a kind of power. But now, when everything starts to proceed step by step according to my original design, I find that I no longer have much
Motivation. The first thing that shows up in such a mental state is a kind of fatigue that comes from the bone marrow.
After thinking about it, I called the chief of the medical department and said, "Please arrange an extra two days for my outpatient clinic. Let me know about it in the department and arrange for me to have a suitable surgery."
The chief of the medical department agreed repeatedly, and then said to me: "Dean Feng, I will make arrangements immediately and bring your outpatient time schedule to your office. The department may have to contact you specifically about the surgery, because you
You need to know the patient’s condition in advance.”
I said: "Okay. That's it. Thank you."
The chief of the medical department said: "President Feng, Director Shen has called for a meeting. I heard that students from the medical university are coming to practice."
I smiled and waved to her and said, "Go ahead."
She left, and I felt a little happier.
In fact, this matter only requires a phone call, but I like to give orders to my subordinates in person. On the one hand, I am really bored, but on the other hand, it also allows me to feel the fun of being a dean - my subordinates are respectful in front of me.
The appearance always makes people feel comfortable and happy. Maybe this is why many people are willing to be officials? In addition, there is another reason. I really don’t want to give up my major.
Few people can understand the feelings that we professionals have towards the major we study. As long as a person loves his major, it is difficult to change, because that love for his major has become deep-rooted. But I
But it is different because I am engaged in administrative work.
Some people say that there is no contradiction between the two, but I think it is absolutely contradictory. The relationship between politics and profession is actually the collision between desire and purity. Maybe my metaphor is not appropriate, but I think my feelings
That's it.
Being in politics is really a manifestation of desire for a person who loves his profession, and sometimes I feel that it is not doing his job properly. However, such desire is difficult for ordinary people to restrain, because being in politics represents power.
, is another manifestation of a person's value. And more importantly, that kind of value manifestation is often a shortcut. You must know that it is very difficult to really achieve any great achievements in academics.
This is not the case in politics. For example, I can transform from an ordinary doctor to a deputy director-level hospital director in such a short period of time. Who can resist such a temptation?
You must know that the most fundamental reason why my scientific research project was able to proceed so smoothly and achieve success was because of Zheng Dazhuang. Otherwise, I would have achieved nothing until now.
Now, I have deeply realized one thing, that is: it is much easier to be an official than to be an academic.
I remember someone once said: What should you do when you can’t do anything? Become an official.
Although this sentence is exaggerated, it really illustrates the problem. In fact, I have always had a concept, that is: being an official is not that easy. And if you want to be an excellent official, you must have
Super smart. And of course, luck.
I think my luck is better because I met Lin Yu by chance.
Yes, that's it. Since I met her, my life has begun to change fundamentally. I am the deputy director and director of the Obstetrics and Gynecology Department of the Medical University Affiliated Hospital, the director of the Foreign Affairs Office of the Medical University, and then the director of this hospital.
Long. I completed this process in a very short time.
This process may seem unbelievable to other people, but for me it has really become a reality. However, few people question my promotion process. That is because Lin Yu is treating me very well.
On the matter of promotion, the promotion procedures were completely followed——
First of all, I graduated from a medical university with a master's degree, so I could easily get the title of associate professor, and I did become an associate professor very quickly. In universities, obtaining professional titles requires policies. As long as you have a master's degree
, as long as the working years and required papers for evaluating associate professors are met, the professional title of associate professor will become very simple.
Secondly, there is an unwritten rule in universities, that is, the title of associate professor is the same as that of deputy director. A long time ago, it is said that it was in the early days of reform and opening up. At that time, when people evaluated the professional titles in colleges and universities, this was generally the case: lecturer and full professor.
The regiment level is the same as the department level, and an associate professor is at the deputy department level. It can be seen that with the deepening of reform and opening up, knowledge becomes less and less valuable.
But in the final analysis, I had the title of associate professor at that time, and I was also the director of the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology of the Medical University Affiliated Hospital. However, the position of director in the university was completely in line with the cadre appointment principle. Because I was in the university at the time, and
People in the university don't think there is anything wrong with my appointment, which is the most fundamental thing. In fact, Wang Xin was promoted much faster than me.
College is a relatively independent kingdom, and in such an independent kingdom, the promotion given to me is normal.
Because of this, it is not surprising for me, who already has a director-level position, to be promoted half a rank to deputy director. Although this process seems a bit short, at present, it is strongly advocated to strengthen the cultivation of intellectuals, and the appointment of
Under the premise, it seems that this is not surprising.
We already have such an example in our province: a full professor from the Democratic Party was promoted to deputy governor overnight.
Of course, there are several factors at play: the government needs women, and it needs someone with a certain position in the democratic party, and she has a certain backing. Therefore, now she can only be the deputy governor in charge of culture and health.
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Can you say that this is not in line with policy? Can you say that it is just luck?
But I really can't give up my major. This is the truest thought in my heart. And I also believe that the current deputy governor in charge of culture and health in our province must have the same idea as me.
After the medical section chief left, I have been sitting in the office, thinking out of boredom. Now, I am really lazy. I don’t like to do research as much as I did when I first came to this hospital, and I don’t even like doing research.
I am willing to take the initiative to visit other vice presidents' offices.
I feel that I have slowly been immersed in the habits of officialdom, because I am always waiting for others to report to me.
There is a pile of documents on my desk, but I don’t want to look at them. These things are just there for show: they are all things I proposed and researched and launched, so why should I look at them?
I stood up from the boss chair and started pacing in my office. I really felt that I was so lonely at this time. This kind of loneliness was completely different from my emotional loneliness, because at this moment in my heart
I really had a feeling of being cold at a high place.
At this moment, I really hope that someone knocks on the door or a phone call comes in.
But no, nothing. This situation lasted until noon.
At noon, I went to the canteen to have lunch, and then rested on the sofa in the office for more than an hour, undressed. When I woke up, it happened to be the time to go to work in the afternoon. Then I got up from the sofa, and at this moment I was thinking:
Why not drive to the mountain and go to your own stone house? Maybe that place can help you no longer feel so lonely.
But I didn't go out because I knew that the loneliness in my heart could not be solved by that stone house. Now I also understand something: that stone house is not my paradise, but my hypocritical dream.
A place of escape.
In the past, my personal emotions were a failure, so I needed such a place. But now, although my personal emotions are still in a state of failure, I don't need to go to such a place at all, because now I simply can't.
There is no need to escape from anything anymore.
I am still bored in the office, and I don’t want to go out at all. I know one thing: I stay in the office like this, and no one in the hospital knows that I am so bored. Maybe they think I have been taking care of everything.
Woolen cloth.
I just stayed in the office bored like this, trying to wait until the time when I got off work as soon as possible and then go back to be with Udon-mei.
However, when time slowly passed to after four o'clock in the afternoon, I suddenly heard someone knocking on my office door. At this time, I was pacing boredly in the office. When I heard the knock on the door, I ran immediately
He sat down at his desk, then picked up a document from the table and pretended to read it, and at the same time called outside: "Please come in."
Someone opened the door and came in. It was the director of the hospital office.
"President Feng, today interns from the Medical University came to our hospital. President Shen wants you to meet those students. After all, you are a leader who graduated from the Medical University and worked there, so you go
It would be best to meet the students." The director of the college office said to me.
Originally, I wanted to pretend to be very busy at first, just like when I went to see Principal Zhang before, he would always give instructions on documents. But at this moment, I suddenly felt that it was meaningless. After all,
I feel a little awkward doing things that are too fake.
In fact, now I have somewhat understood that every time I went to see Principal Zhang, he would read documents at night. I thought: He must have been as lonely and lonely as I am now.
I said, "Okay, I'll go meet them."
The reason why I agreed to this matter was that besides being a little bored at the moment, I also suddenly really wanted to meet them. At this moment, I suddenly thought in my heart: What if Udonmei is really in that group?
What kind of scene would it be like among the students?
Really, at this moment, I really had such a strange thought in my heart. In fact, I also know a little bit about my heart at this moment: I want to show my excellence in front of Udon Mei.
I put down the documents and immediately asked the director of the hospital office to take me to where the students were: the large conference room in the hospital.
In the advanced conference room of the director of the hospital office, she began to say at the door of the conference room: "Students, President Feng of our hospital has come to meet you personally. Please welcome everyone!"
The applause rang out enthusiastically, so I stepped in energetically.
There are dozens of students in the conference room. Shen Zhongyuan of our hospital and the female vice president who was just transferred are also there, as well as the section chief of the medical department, the director of the nursing department, etc.
Of course, there were also several teachers from the Medical University. I went over to shake hands with them one by one, and then jokingly said to them: "Thank you for your hard work, teachers. Thank you for coming to guide our work."
Several teachers from the Medical University said politely: "Dean Feng, we have heard about you a long time ago."
I smiled and said, "It's yours. I'm not that old, am I?"
They all laugh.
Only then did I realize that the seat in the middle of the podium was reserved for me, but I didn't want to sit there.
The students began to whisper: Such a young dean? So handsome! I seem to have seen it somewhere...
I stood in front of the podium and looked at all the students below with a smile. In fact, I hoped to find the face of the girl I wanted to find among them.
She was really there, right behind the seats where the students were sitting. She was whispering something to the girl next to her.
At this moment, my heart was filled with confidence and a strange psychological feeling.
I coughed and started talking... (To be continued)