To be honest, I was a little excited and more confident at this moment.
Looking at the students sitting below, I suddenly had a dreamlike feeling: they were so young, just like myself many years ago.
A person is not aware of himself when growing up. I feel that my college stage passed by in complete confusion. Only when a person looks back on the past will he realize that he used to be so ridiculous and naive.
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At this moment, when I look at these childish and young faces in front of me, I suddenly have a retrospective feeling: it is good to be young. Their faces now, and the admiration they look at me
I've had that look myself.
I looked at these childish faces and smiled, and my eyes occasionally glanced at Udon Mei. But she didn't look at me. I saw a slight blush on her face.
I started talking -
Fellow students:
Everyone is welcome to come to our hospital for internship.
Some classmates may already know that you and I are alumni. In fact, I think that to be precise, I should be your senior brother. Not the second senior brother. I should be slightly prettier than Zhu Bajie.
(laughing below)
Regarding the importance of medical internship and the specific matters that need to be paid attention to, I believe your teacher has already told you, so I won’t say more here. Here, I just want to tell you some of my own experiences
Feelings about your alma mater, life, your career, etc.
First of all, let me talk about our alma mater. Jiangnan Medical University is located in the relatively center of the city and is built on the mountain. There are many masson pine trees in the school. The masson pine trees are not eye-catching. They grow on the hillside and are evergreen all year round.
No one would notice whether it was blooming or bearing fruit. In the past, sometimes when I was walking on campus and saw fallen pine nuts, I would pick up a few and take them home.
Later, I read an article by Taiwanese writer Zhou Zhiwen recalling his teenage classmates, saying that these people who have been unknown all their lives are like "pine nuts falling from an empty mountain. Not just one, but countless pine nuts fell from the tree. Some of them fell from the tree.
It fell on stones, some fell on blades of grass, and some fell in streams, but no one would ever see it, and no one would hear it, because it was an empty mountain." I think he is telling the truth.
But if we think about it more deeply, even if it is not an empty mountain, even if there are people coming and going at Jiangnan Medical University, we have never cared about the fate of the pine nuts one after another. In our eyes, there is actually no difference between all the pine nuts. If a batch falls, it will be scattered.
From the mud, another batch comes naturally, and the cycle starts over and over again. The world will not be any different just because there is one more or one less pine nut.
The fate of pine nuts is probably the reality of life. If I am destined to be one of thousands of pine nuts, go through an ordinary life, and then leave without leaving a trace, what is the value of my life? What if I am just a speck in the long river of history?
Dust, everything will eventually return to nothingness. What is the meaning of today’s efforts and struggles to me?
Every time I think about this issue, my mood is always mixed. Sometimes fearful, sometimes sad, sometimes open-minded, sometimes nihilistic. Most of the time, I don't let myself think about it anymore, because it is like putting people on a spiritual cliff.
If you are not careful, you will fall. So I took a step back and asked why this problem always lingers and affects my mood so much.
Gradually, I understood that I actually cannot think about it, because I am a human being with self-awareness and value awareness. I see myself so clearly alive, the present blinking into the past, and myself walking silently as an independent individual.
Follow your own path.
More importantly, I measure my life all the time. There seems to be a steelyard in our hearts, requiring ourselves to live well every day. We plan our lives carefully, make decisions carefully, and cherish all opportunities, because we know that we only live once, and
There are good and bad things in life, including happiness and unhappiness. We are unwilling to live a useless life and waste our years, so there is no way to escape the issue of meaning.
Then the problem arises. From an individual subjective point of view, my own life is everything, as heavy as Mount Tai. When my life is over, the world will also be over. I am the center of the universe. But as long as I stay away from myself, from an objective point of view
Look, I have to admit that I am just one of thousands of pine nuts.
My life is over, and the world still exists, unchanged at all. My life is like a drop of dust and water, weightless, and will be forgotten soon, and there will be more to come. This is not an unimaginable thing. Every time I
When I see a patient pass away, I sometimes go to the funeral home. When I see my close relatives and friends turn into ashes in an instant, and when I return to the downtown area and face the laughing crowd again, I always feel unspeakable sadness. At that moment, I see
When you see the weight of life, you also see the lightness of life.
Now that our life road map has been drawn, do the twists and turns in the middle really make a difference?
I think we always believe that there is a difference. Yes, even if I am a pine nut growing in a deep valley and no one sees it, and one day I fall into the wilderness and turn into mud, I still will not accept that my life is no different from others.
Nor will I accept that my life is worthless. But is this self-deception? Are we spinning a web of meaning to comfort ourselves? I don’t think so. The reason why all questions of meaning are problematic, and why they bother me, is
In the final analysis, it is because I realize that "I" exist, that "I" am living my own life, and planning my own life.
If I don't have my own subjective point of view and only know how to observe myself from an objective and detached perspective, I will not be able to understand why "I" care about myself so much. We must first realize the existence of "I" and be in the vast universe.
Only by finding a foothold for "I" can the question of meaning emerge.
Therefore, even if I am a pine nut, I don’t have to feel sorry for myself because I see countless bigger and more beautiful pine nuts around me, nor do I have to feel that my life has been wasted because I am unknown. I have truly experienced my own spring, summer, autumn and winter, and witnessed my own appearance.
The changes of life, and use your own eyes and soul to appreciate everything that life has given you. This appreciation cannot be taken away or replaced by others.
This affirmation of self-existence is the pillar of our lives. The world is very big, and there are many other lives in this world, but I can only see the world through my eyes, and I can only use my body and mind to interact with the world.
Only when we first have "I" can we begin to think about how to live a meaningful life. But the problem does not end here. Because once there is "I", there will naturally be countless others who are different from "I". Our
Appearances, temperaments, abilities, beliefs, family backgrounds, all vary greatly. With differences, disputes are inevitable.
So we always treat others as opponents and strive to gain the most wealth, status and power for ourselves. You have been practicing for a while, but I estimate that few of you will consider such issues when facing your own patients.
You won't think about such issues during your college years. But I think you should start thinking about it from now on.
You are about to complete your internship and leave school to enter the society. What you may feel most deeply is this kind of competitive pressure that is everywhere all the time. We may not like to compete, but we have to compete, because everyone tells you that the world is one
In the arena, only competition can survive, and only competition can affirm the value of one's existence. All kinds of oppression, domination, and alienation in the world arise from this.
The question is, are these oppressions, domination and alienation really inevitable? If different individuals form a society, can't they live together in a more equal and fair way? I think there is a difference between recognizing individual differences and accepting equal treatment.
Although there is tension, it is not irreconcilable. The key lies in whether we can integrate two seemingly opposing views.
On the one hand, from a subjective point of view, we realize that we are unique and irreplaceable, and that our life is absolutely important to ourselves. On the other hand, from an objective point of view, we will realize that if my life is important to me,
I am extremely important, so his or her life will be equally important to him or her. We are all human beings, we all have our own lives to live, and we all want to live well.
In this regard, our lives have the same importance. We do not classify people based on their origin, ability, wealth, and measure their value. When we apply ourselves to others, we not only see the differences between people, but also see the differences between people.
We recognize the precious humanity shared by all human beings, so we strive to practice the politics of equal dignity in group life. In other words, we must not only affirm individuality and encourage everyone to freely live out their own life mood, but also care for each other and protect each other.
Human equal rights enable people to live together fairly.
It is very important to realize this, because only after we truly realize this will we care more about the lives and health of others. You are the future doctors, and it is necessary to realize this.
In addition, I think people with a university education should have such an equal concern for others. But it is not easy. Just think about it, you have to go through many exams and leave many of your peers behind before you can enter a medical university. And
Once you leave school, you will face fiercer competition.
In this case, how can we see through the various differences among people to see the shared value in human nature, and use this as the basis for social cooperation to achieve equality and dignity?
As you are new to our hospital for internship, why do I have to discuss these issues with you so endlessly? Because I think this issue is very important. In the above topic, I pointed out that there are two fundamental tensions in life, and tried to propose ways to resolve them.
Tao. The first level is the tension caused by the two ways of observing life. The second level is the tension caused by the difference and equality of life. The first level of tension affects how we live well. The second level of tension affects us.
How to live well together.
Maybe you will think that such a topic is too profound, but I believe that as long as you think about it seriously and understand it, you will suddenly realize it one day in your life.
The students who can understand these first will be more likely to succeed. I firmly believe this.
Maybe you are wondering: Why does our senior brother talk to us about such a topic? Haha! Let me tell you that medical internship is important, but what is more important is understanding. Medical knowledge must be memorized by rote.
It's not difficult, but it requires understanding to learn and apply it. This is especially true for our understanding of life.
Okay, I'll stop here. Thank you all for listening carefully. It makes me feel very proud.
Finally, I wish you all a happy internship in our hospital and gain what each of you needs. (To be continued)