"Feng Xiao, do you know the difference between you and Song Mei? Song Mei is thick-skinned, bold, and good at lying. She is never bound by morality and has many tricks and tricks. Once she has the opportunity, she will chase those beautiful women, and never
Irresponsible. However, many women prefer men like him. Feng Xiao, you are actually a timid person, but you have one advantage, that is, you are sincere to women, which is exactly what women like most. Song
Mei is different. When he sees a beautiful woman, he chases her without any intention of taking responsibility. As long as the other woman is pretty, he will chase her first, so those women are easy for him to get. Also, you are more honest.
It doesn't matter if you don't have money, just tell the truth, and be frank about women's shortcomings, which often makes women very disappointed. But Song Mei is different. He can just make up a story to show that he is superior, and he can easily let women down by flattering them.
They are elated and think they have found their soulmate. In addition, you have always respected women and will not tease or molest them. But Song Mei often tries to please women by teasing, drinking, and asking them to sing and dance. You are also sincere to women.
, attaches great importance to the relationship between the two parties, and tends to have an unbalanced mentality. He always cares about small things with women. For example, now, you care very much about whether I like you and love you. But Song Mei is different, he always thinks
: Anyway, I'm just playing a game to get some excitement. I can coax her, why are I angry? He has a calmer mentality, but the woman thinks he is mature. When the two parties have a dispute, your self-esteem and principle
You are strong and will not easily accommodate others. You were like this that time in the department. You criticized me and made me angry. But Song Mei is much thicker-skinned than you. It is easier to admit a mistake than to drink porridge. Often
It's easy to coax a woman to change her mind; of course, that's before he's tired of playing, otherwise he can find an excuse to break up even if the woman gives in. Later, he insisted on divorcing me and that's it. You are different, you
The department said to me more than once: Zhuang Qing, you should find a boyfriend, it’s not good for us to continue like this. In fact, you are more terrifying than Song Mei, because women like you can’t hate even if they want to.” She said.
He kept talking, and the more I listened, the more frightened I became. I muttered, "Didn't you just say that? You said you couldn't hate him either?"
"That's just me. But you are different. Look at Chen Yuan, she is still so kind to you. And Director Lin, isn't she also nice to you? Feng Xiao, what a man like you.
Excellent. He looks weak, but he is actually a killer of women." She laughed.
I couldn't laugh or cry, "Zhuang Qing, don't say that. I'm not as bad as you think."
"I didn't say you were bad? This is your advantage." She smiled, "It would be great if I were also a man. I must have enough fun with many women."
I couldn't help being shocked, suddenly feeling that she was not normal today, "Zhuang Qing, what's wrong with you?"
"Haha! It's great to be a man." She laughed.
Now I really felt that she was not normal, and I suddenly felt scared, "Zhuang Qing, please don't think about the past, okay? Didn't you just say that? Since Song Mei has so many shortcomings,
He is not worthy of your love at all? What’s more, you have divorced and he is no longer in this world, so why bother? "
"But, but I just like him, what should I do? Woohoo! What should I do?" What I didn't expect was that she suddenly started crying.
I couldn't help but feel pity, and I also understood something in my heart: There is a devil in each of us, and that is desire. In addition to desire, the devil in a woman's heart also has persistence, especially the persistence of her first love. This is the case with Zhuang Qing now.
, she clearly knew that Song Mei had so many shortcomings, and she also clearly knew that he had left this world, but she just couldn't forget him.
I couldn't help but sigh, "Zhuang Qing, you should live for yourself, not for others. People, sometimes it's better to be selfish."
"Feng Xiao, I have nothing now. I really want to jump from this place. Really." She said, suddenly breaking away from my arms, and then went to the railing of the bridge.
I was shocked and hurriedly stood up and hugged her, "Zhuang Qing, are you crazy?!"
She struggled in my arms, "Feng Xiao, please leave me alone, I really don't want to live anymore. Woohoo! I really don't want to live anymore."
Just then, I felt the bridge trembling. The train was coming!
She was still struggling. I held her tightly, and the trembling under my feet became even worse. After a long whistle, my ears were suddenly filled with a "clang" and "clang" sound. I felt it.
, at this time she had stopped struggling, and her body became docile.
The train passed by, but the sound was still ringing in my ears. She was silent in my arms.
I went to see her and found that her eyes were closed tightly. I hurriedly pressed her upper lip... She slowly woke up and asked, "Feng Xiao, why did you stop me?"
"Zhuang Qing, why are you doing this? Is it worth it if you just leave like this? Have you ever thought about your parents? What would they think? You die for a man who doesn't love you, this, this is worth it
"?" I said, heartbroken.
"Do you know? This is where he and I met for the first time. Woohoo! That time, my classmates and I went here for a spring outing, and we bumped into him. Later, I saw him again at the school dance.
Him. From the first moment I saw him, I knew that I belonged to him. However, he didn’t want me anymore. Now, he left alone again. He must be very lonely there. I
I want to accompany him. Feng Xiao, wuwu! Don’t stop me, okay?” she cried loudly and sobbed.
"Zhuang Qing..." I found that I didn't know how to persuade her, and I really hated my stupidity.
"I, I have nothing now, I, what's the point of living? How can I face my parents and my elders?" She was still crying.
"Don't you still have me?" I said, "Zhuang Qing, don't worry, I will really like you and will always be good to you. Really, just trust me."
"You have a wife and Chen Yuan." She said, sobbing hard.
At this moment, I suddenly understood: She, why did she call me out today, why did she come to this place. It turned out that what she needed was a promise from me.
But, can I promise? Zhao Menglei has already done that, and Chen Yuan also has my child. I am already overwhelmed. Can I give her my promise under such circumstances? I suddenly became embarrassed.
She was crying in my arms, her face full of pear blossoms and rain. I felt very sad, hesitant and helpless.
Maybe she was just showing off just now, just acting for me. But what if she really doesn’t want to live anymore? Moreover, I accompanied her out today, what if she really has something wrong with her?
?
She was still crying. I felt very sad.
Feng Xiao, do you love her? I am asking myself, asking myself again and again.
After asking myself several times, I knew: I don't love her, I just like her. Suddenly, a question came to my mind: Chen Yuan! Thinking of that possibility, I suddenly panicked.
If I don't agree to her now, will she hurt Chen Yuan? You know, Chen Yuan is the only obstacle between me and Zhuang Qing, besides Zhao Menglei. Zhuang Qing knows very well that it is impossible for Lin Yu and I to get married.
. And now, Zhao Menglei has become like that. Maybe in Zhuang Qing's view, it is only a matter of time before Zhao Menglei and I divorce. If Zhao Menglei is sentenced to more than ten years in prison, will I wait for her for ten years? This question I have
I once asked myself, and I told myself, I will wait, I will definitely wait, because of the feelings I had for her, and the guilt I felt towards her. But, Zhuang Qing will believe in me
Perseverance? I think she won't believe it.
Suddenly he had an idea, "Zhuang Qing, I like you very much. I really do. But I can't divorce Zhao Menglei. She is my wife. Even if she is like this now, I can't divorce her. No matter how much she is sentenced in the future.
I will wait for her for years. You don’t know how much pain and torture she has suffered, and she is my real first love. Just like Song Mei in your heart. Zhuang Qing, if this were not the case, I would definitely
I want to marry you. But...hey!"
But she was shaking her head, "Feng Xiao, you won't marry me. Now that Chen Yuan has your child, even if you divorce your wife, it won't be my turn. I know it completely. So, I feel like I am living like this
It’s even more meaningless. The first man I liked didn’t love me, but the second man I liked couldn’t marry me. Feng Xiao, what’s the point of me living?”
"You are still young and there is still a long way to go. There are so many outstanding men in this world. Why do you only see the people around you now? I said, your biggest problem now is that you cannot escape from your own world.
Go, you should contact more people and socialize with more people." I said to her.
"So, Feng Xiao," she stopped crying, "if I fell in love with another man, would you be jealous? Would you let me go?"
I was stunned and found that this was a difficult question to answer. Of course, I could deceive her, but I suddenly felt that it was not possible to deceive her either - if I said that I was not jealous and was willing to give up on her, that would be
It means that I have no feelings for her at all. Wouldn't it make her even more uncomfortable? So, I decided to tell the truth, "Zhuang Qing, of course I will be jealous, and of course I will be reluctant to let you go. However, I know that I can't give you more."
So much happiness, so as long as you feel happy and as long as you can find someone you like, I will be willing to give up on you. I can't be too selfish because I can't give you more." (To be completed.)