Although I had already expected that Dong Jie might be in this situation. After all, I am studying medicine and I still know the basics of psychiatry. But when I heard Ning Xiangru tell me this, I still felt...
I feel very sad because I really can't accept that such a beautiful girl suffers from such a disease.
There are many causes of mental illness, and some of the causes are currently unclear, but at least two factors are clear, one is heredity, and the other is strong mental stimulation. I will not talk about genetic factors, but strong mental stimulation
The stimulus factor should include the gradual aggravation of mental illness.
I think Dong Jie's situation probably started with a mental illness: she didn't go to college after graduating from high school, then her business failed, and she was later arranged to be a model by Wu Yaru... These factors may have contributed to the worsening of her condition. Accurately
In other words, her problem probably started with low self-esteem.
Maybe my refusal to fall in love with her later was one of the reasons. I suddenly felt depressed about this: I didn't want to hurt her originally, but things turned out like this.
But I don't feel that I have any responsibility in this matter, because I think I can only do that.
Now, when Ning Xiangru told me the news, I was shocked and immediately became worried, because I felt that since Dong Jie's problem has been diagnosed clearly, then treatment is necessary, but... if that happens
If so, Dong Jie might be destroyed. I know that drugs used in psychiatric departments often have extremely strong side effects. So I immediately became embarrassed, "Xiangru, what do you think we should do?"
Her voice was also full of worry, "Feng Xiao, I think it's best to tell her aunt about this matter. After all, she is a relative of Dong Jie. Neither you nor I have the right or qualification to handle this matter. You
What do you say?"
I think so, "Xiangru, you're right. Let's go and tell her aunt. Today is my first day at work in my new unit. I'm very busy and I really can't spare the time."
She immediately said dissatisfiedly: "It's a good thing for you, just run away now."
I hurriedly said: "Xiangru, how can you say that? When did I shirk responsibility? No, I don't have any responsibility for this matter, right? I just think you are right, and Dong Jie's relatives should be informed of the situation.
.But I really don’t have time, so please understand. Well, please tell Wu Yaru the matter first. It’s best to ask the doctor to tell her with you, and then we can take time to discuss it together.
What should we do? Do you think this is okay?"
Then she sighed: "That's fine."
I suddenly remembered something because I felt a little surprised, "Xiangru, why did you call me so early? Did you just get Dong Jie's accurate diagnosis result?"
She smiled and said: "Feng Xiao, you are so strange, why do you always like to get entangled in such trivial matters? Well, let me tell you, I knew it last night, but I was in a bad mood and got drunk. Today
When I woke up early in the morning, I felt that I should tell you this right away. Are you satisfied with my answer?"
I was suddenly startled: Am I really someone who likes to get entangled in minor issues? "Xiangru, am I really like this in your impression?"
She smiled and said: "Are you serious? Can't I just joke with you?"
But I asked her very seriously: "Xiangru, I am very serious, tell me, do I often do this?"
She stopped laughing immediately, and her voice became softer, "Feng Xiao, are you really angry?"
Only then did I realize that she had misunderstood me, "Xiangru, how could I get angry so easily? What I mean is that I have never paid attention to some of my shortcomings before. I just suddenly heard you say that sentence
words, so I really want to know if I really have the problems you mentioned. Now that I have entered a government department, I must always pay attention to the shortcomings I had."
Only then did she laugh again, "Feng Xiao, in fact, this is not a shortcoming of yours. I find that good-hearted people are like this. We women often nag like this."
I immediately couldn't laugh or cry, "You said I am nagging like a woman?"
She kept laughing over there, "Look, now we are talking about Dong Jie, but you are struggling with such a matter. Do you think you seem a bit nagging?"
I burst into tears and laughed, and then said to her: "Then, please tell Wu Yaru about Dong Jie's matter. I'm on my way to work. If anything happens, please contact me at any time."
Then I hung up the phone. I was thinking in my heart that what Ning Xiangru said unintentionally just now seemed to really talk about my problem.
She said I was nagging like a woman? I couldn't help but smile bitterly. However, I seemed to be aware of this problem myself, and I immediately felt the root cause of this problem: I had been in contact with female patients for a long time, and every time I consulted,
I always took the trouble to inquire about the details of their illness, not trying my best, but slowly and naturally caring about the patient's pain from the heart, and thus the current situation was gradually formed. At this moment, I seemed to finally
I now understand why men acquire female characteristics after working as obstetricians and gynecologists for a long time. At the same time, I also began to feel grateful that I could finally be freed from my own profession.
However, I still have a feeling of regret in my heart. After all, I have been engaged in this kind of work from professional studies to work, not to mention that I also have a scientific research project that has been completed more than half. Of course, the regret in my heart
There is another thing, that is, I may really say goodbye to my major and academic field from now on. This means that from now on, what I have to face will no longer be the relatively simple working environment I once had. Therefore, my
While I was feeling happy, I suddenly felt a sense of uneasiness in my heart.
At this moment, my expectations and fears for my future are even greater than my regrets about Dong Jie suffering from such a disease. Regarding Dong Jie's matter, I really feel that I have no responsibility. On the contrary, I also feel
I have done everything I should do.
When I was on the phone with Ning Xiangru, I paid great attention to the state of the driver Xiao Sui. I found that he had been driving seriously.
In fact, I am much less wary of him today, and I feel that I don’t need to take special precautions against him. You know, he is my full-time driver, and I am riding in my own car. If I am connected here,
If I can't talk on the phone casually, then why do I need this "specialist"?
Of course, I know that if I want to truly and completely trust him, I need time to slowly observe and examine him.
Now that I have finished making the call, I feel comfortable having a dedicated driver and car.
I think this feeling is really wonderful, because after all, this is the first time I have enjoyed such power.
Winter mornings in the provincial capital are still busy. I see the constant flow of traffic outside the car window just like in other seasons. There are also many cyclists. From time to time, I can hear the rapid and cheerful ringing of bicycle bells in my ears. The sidewalks beside the road are full of people.
People were walking in a hurry, and some were holding steamed buns in their hands and putting them in their mouths as they hurried forward. There was a bit of mist in this winter morning, and there was a chill in the air, but the people in front of me didn't seem to feel it.
To the existence of all this, perhaps we Jiangnan people don’t feel the feeling of winter in our hearts.
Stretching out in my seat, I felt that I was free and comfortable at the moment, but also under a certain amount of psychological pressure, so I tried to use this stretch to release and express everything I felt at the moment.
I immediately felt much more comfortable after lazing around. Every muscle in my body was no longer as stiff and tight as before, and they all returned to their natural state. (To be continued)