Under the street lamp, her figure looked a little thin. The cold wind from the river blew through the tips of her hair, and her hair immediately spread out. Her figure did not move, and she kept looking at me quietly. No.
I know why, but I feel that she seems to be as lonely as me.
After sighing in his heart, he walked towards her.
I stood in front of her and saw her eyes sparkling, and she was looking at me. Her face looked a little pale in the night, and her hair was still blowing in the wind. I saw her body moving slightly.
Shivering. This is because the cold makes her like this, because I also feel the bitingness of the river wind.
"You... why don't you go back?" I asked her, my voice was very soft, because I suddenly felt a little moved and felt some pity in my heart.
"I'm worried about you," she said, her voice trembling.
I was even more moved, "I'm fine. It's just that the incident with my classmates made me feel a little depressed, and I felt a little guilty."
She said quietly: "Brother Feng, I know why Zhuang Qing and Chen Yuanhui like you. It's because you are so sincere to others."
I was very happy to hear the praise. "Isn't it bad to be sincere?" I asked.
She sighed and turned around immediately... I heard her say, "It seems I'd better stay away from you in the future." Then she started running quickly.
I stared blankly at her retreating back and couldn't help but sigh.
Of course I knew what she meant - she sensed the danger I posed to her.
I remember Zhuang Qing said the same thing to me. She said I was too kind to those female patients and moved others easily. Women are animals that are easily moved, especially when they are sick or depressed. And I
As a male doctor in the obstetrics and gynecology department, I have been exposed to women when they are in the most pain. So I feel that I should be nicer to them, because I truly feel their pain as women.
In fact, I know where my most critical problem lies. It is not because of my sincerity, nor because I am too good to my patients, but because of my own weak will and that I am not good at saying no. This is the root cause of all problems.
So, on this cold wind-swept riverbank, in this lonely night, I am asking myself: Feng Xiao, can you learn to say no?
Zhuang Qing was still awake when she returned.
"Did you drink too much?" she asked me with a smile. It was obvious that she was in a good mood today.
"It's okay." I said, "I drank too much at first, and then I went to sing. Fortunately, Shangguan quietly changed my wine to brown sugar water."
The purpose of what I said is to avoid being with Shangguan later today, otherwise there will be a gap in time. Just eating won't take so long, right?
"You can sing? Go play with the lady?" She looked at me and smiled strangely.
"What are you talking about? I'm a doctor." I said to her seriously.
"Okay, I'm too lazy to care about you." She smiled. Maybe she noticed that my expression was wrong, so she hurriedly smiled at me, came over and nestled her body in my arms, "Feng Xiao, you
Don’t I know what kind of person he is? Well, don’t be angry. I wanted to call you several times tonight, but I was worried that it would affect your discussion, so I held back. I know you were talking to Lin today.
The boss and the others are together."
I felt a little touched in my heart, "Zhuang Qing, you are really sensible now. By the way, what happened today was not bad, right? I heard what the superior officer told me."
"Yeah." She let go of me, and then went to sit on the sofa. I noticed that her expression suddenly became calmer. I was secretly surprised, "What's wrong?"
She sighed quietly, "Feng Xiao, I'm a little scared."
Now I was even more surprised and hurriedly went to sit next to her, "What are you afraid of?"
"Feng Xiao, I feel that now I am very panicked, hesitant, and a little scared. I don't know what's wrong with me. Hey! I always thought that the nursing profession was not good in the past, and I always wanted to leave the hospital one day.
That profession disgusts me. But when this day really comes, I suddenly feel panicked. I really don’t know what’s going on.” She shook her head and then smiled bitterly alone.
I understood immediately, so I smiled and said: "This is human nature. Everyone will have a feeling of fear in their hearts when they encounter new choices. Because we don't know what our future will be like. And there are other things.
, each of us actually has laziness, and the phrase 'it is better to die than to live' is a concrete reflection. Although you dislike the profession of nursing, in your heart you are still very dependent on your past."
"That seems to be it, right?" she said, then smiled, "Nevermind, let's talk about it after we go out."
I immediately laughed, "This is you Zhuang Qing."
In fact, what I said before is right, many people are inert. I admire those who often change jobs, because they have overcome the inertia in their hearts, and because they are sunny and always full of hope for their future.
.I think Zhuang Qing should be such a person, but she was still a little scared about her first career change.
"Feng Xiao, do you think I can succeed?" She suddenly raised her head and asked me.
"Of course." I said. In fact, I'm not sure in my heart, because who dares to be sure about the future. Suddenly, I remembered Lin Yi's word test today, and I suddenly felt confident in Zhuang Qing. You know
, this job was arranged by Lin Yi.
However, is Lin Yi really that powerful? Can he really predict the future? If he really has that ability, he should do even more. Maybe, as he said himself: What he learned back then is not
not much.
"Zhuang Qing, I believe that as long as you work hard and with everyone's help, you will succeed. But then again, if you fail in the future, I think this choice now is worth it.
, because you tried after all. The most rare thing for a person is to do a job that he likes. For example, Chen Yuan. Zhuang Qing, I am very happy now because you and Chen Yuan have found a job that you like best.
It’s work.” So I said.
"Feng Xiao, do you like your current job?" She nodded and asked me immediately.
I was startled and said, "It seems okay."
"You'll definitely like it," she said.
"What do you mean by that?" I thought her words meant something else, but I immediately noticed that there was no laughter on her face.
"I'm telling the truth." She glanced at me and then laughed, "Don't think that I'm telling you such boring things. You are a person who has sympathy for those patients from the bottom of your heart.
And he never gets bored with any patient. Dr. Hu has never been able to do this like you before. So I think you are a very qualified obstetrician and gynecologist. Feng Xiao, maybe you can make more money by doing business, but in that case the world
There will be one less outstanding obstetrician and gynecologist, which is a great loss for our female comrades. Hee hee! Don’t you think so?"
I couldn't laugh or cry, "What you said makes sense. I will definitely follow your instructions."
"Feng Xiao, I am telling you this matter seriously. In fact, the most important thing for a person is to do a job that he likes most. Of course, it would be better if he can earn a lot of money. Feng Xiao, be well.
As your doctor, if I really succeed in the future, I will buy you a Mercedes-Benz and a villa. How about that?" She asked me with a smile.
Of course I knew she was joking, so I smiled and said: "Okay. I'm waiting for that day. Wow! Living in a villa, driving a Mercedes-Benz, and having the nationally renowned beauty star Zhuang Qing accompanying me. This is a dream.
What kind of life do you want? It’s simply a fairy-like life. Haha!”
"You are so beautiful!" She glared at me and then smiled.
My heart suddenly felt warm and cozy, and I immediately hugged her in my arms, "Zhuang Qing, if that day comes, will you dislike me, a little doctor?"
"Feng Xiao, please don't ask me like this, okay? Everything I have now is given to me by you. If I really succeed in the future, you will give me a good foundation. Although we can't get married,
But in my heart you are already my husband. Moreover, if I fail, I will still have to rely on you to support me." She snuggled into my arms and said with a very soft voice.
"You will not fail." I patted her back. At this moment, I suddenly felt like this.
"Why do you say that?" She looked up from my arms and looked at me with a surprised look on her face.
"Because you are a strong person and you do not allow yourself to fail." I said.
"Really? Why don't I think so?" she asked me with a smile.
"You are very tolerant. This is very important. Haha!" I said with a smile, "Zhuang Qing, I think, now that you have decided, don't hesitate anymore, just go out when you are sure. That model agency
Didn't your boss say that your conditions are good? Then why are you hesitating? You are not very old, so you will be able to get through it if you persevere in the early stage. I believe you will succeed."
"I hope so." She said, and then sighed again. I suddenly understood in my heart: Although she just said that she had made up her mind, she was still a little uneasy in her heart. But I feel that there is no point in talking about such issues anymore.
Meaning, because many things need to be experienced before you can feel those things. Now that she has decided, there is no need to say anything else.
"Zhuang Qing, let's go to bed early. Let's go see Chen Yuan tomorrow." I immediately changed the topic.
"Feng Xiao, I want to lie in your arms like this. I don't want to move anymore," she said.
"It's easy to catch a cold like this. Let's go to bed." I said to her softly.
She immediately giggled, "Feng Xiao, do you want to be with me..."
I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. The tenderness that had just risen in my heart was suddenly lost by her words, and I immediately went to tickle her, "You little devil, you only know that one thing all day long."
She laughed "haha" under my hand, and her body kept shaking, "Feng Xiao, haha! Don't, haha!"
It wasn't until she was laughing so hard that she couldn't breathe and she stopped tickling her. She lightly hit my arm and said, "You're annoying! I'm the most ticklish person."
"Okay, let's go to bed, otherwise we will catch a cold easily. I went to take a shower. I went to the clinic for a day and drank alcohol at night. I am so tired." I said. (To be continued)