Go ahead, make this call quickly. Don't hesitate. It's noon now and she won't be at work. It's the best time to make this call to her. I said to myself over and over again.
Finally, I picked up the phone and started calling her.
The phone was connected, but I heard a noisy voice coming from her end. Of course, the noisy voice was just the background, and I could basically hear her voice clearly, "Teacher Feng..."
I immediately asked: "What are you doing? Why are you so noisy?"
She said: "I was shopping in the supermarket. I worked night shift last night and have today off."
I thought to myself: No wonder. So I immediately said to her: "You find a quiet place, and I will tell you something."
She said, "Oh, wait a minute, I'll pay the bill first, and then I'll call you."
I immediately hung up the phone.
Just now, when I dialed the phone and talked to her, I immediately felt a sense of regret again. Her voice coming from the phone immediately reminded me of her appearance and what we were doing together.
The indescribable pleasure she gave me every time we were together.
In fact, I am very clear that she and I will never get married. At this moment, I also clearly know that once she agrees to what I told her, we will never be the same as before.
.Although Lin Yu did not tell me some things, I knew it in my heart, that is, I would never expose the kind of relationship I had with Udon Mei in front of Governor Huang.
Men all have a common mentality of exclusive possession of women, which is one of the characteristics of male animals. Of course, the difference between humans and other animals is that humans are rational, and because of this, they are willing to do something about certain things.
Treat them differently. For example, Governor Huang has never been angry about Lin Yu and me.
I know very well that he must know about my relationship with Lin Yu. Although I still don’t know the specific reasons why he doesn’t care about this matter, I can vaguely feel that there are at least two factors:
First, it is not convenient between him and her because they are both senior officials. Second, I think it is probably because of boredom.
Therefore, I immediately understood why Lin Yu took the initiative to find a "nanny" for Governor Huang, because she needed a woman to replace herself.
After I understood this, I immediately no longer hesitated.
Lin Yu can be said to be as kind as a mountain to me: the first money I earned, every step of my promotion, and I found that she has never refused any of my requests so far, but she is so
Let me go and give me ample personal freedom. I am extremely grateful for all of this.
Now, I suddenly felt a sense of shame: Compared with her kindness to me, I was really too selfish.
I began to think seriously about how to tell her about this.
More than twenty minutes later, Wu Dongmei called me. She asked me: "Teacher Feng, where are you?"
I still felt a little sour in my heart, but I knew I could only do this, "I'm on a business trip in Beijing. Dongmei, is it convenient for you to talk now?"
She replied: "It's convenient. I was in the supermarket outside the school just now. There was an argument between a customer and a salesperson, so you heard the noise on my phone. I took my things back to the dormitory. Now I'm alone.
Inside the dormitory."
I don't know why she told me in such detail. The only explanation is that she was worried that I would doubt her. In other words, she cared about my feelings very much.
Doubtful? I suddenly remembered something, so I hurriedly asked her: "Dongmei, have you really broken up with your boyfriend?"
She answered me hurriedly: "We've separated. We've separated a long time ago."
But I was still a little worried, because that night I heard his attitude was so intense. From a personality point of view, such a person should not give up on something so easily.
And now, I am about to persuade her to work as a "nanny" for Governor Huang. I have to guard against this problem, otherwise, if she causes any trouble in the future, it will be difficult for me to get out of it. This is
Just like giving a gift to someone, but accidentally giving a fake or stolen product, the consequences can be imagined.
I said: "Dongmei, you have to tell me the truth first. This matter is not a joke."
She said: "Teacher Feng, it's really not true. In fact, I was also worried that he would come to me again, because I knew his character, so when I gave him money that time, I told him that I used to work in Songcheng.
He, he even scolded me at that time..."
I felt relieved immediately. But when I thought that she was so knowledgeable, I felt even more reluctant. At this moment, I felt really uncomfortable.
Fortunately, I don't have much feelings for her. Otherwise, I'm not sure whether I would continue to tell her what happened next. I think I can continue to tell her what I want to tell her now. After all, there is no choice.
I have thought carefully about how to tell her about it just now.
I immediately said to her: "Dongmei, we may break up."
She suddenly lost her voice. After a while, I heard her make a thin voice, "Why?"
The more she acted like this, the more uncomfortable I felt inside, because I could feel her surprise and discomfort on the other end of the phone, but I had to toughen my heart and say, "I, I'm getting married. Dongmei, I'm sorry."
Then she heard her heavy and uneven breathing coming from the phone, which was a reaction to her agitation. She said, her voice still very soft, "I know..."
This was a method specially designed by me, because I know that this method is the most effective: I am going to get married, and then the relationship between me and her must end. This is inevitable.
I was about to tell her the next thing, but I heard her suddenly ask me: "Teacher Feng, then why are you asking me about me and my previous boyfriend?"
She was indeed very smart and grasped the key to the matter at once. I admired in my heart. I said: "Dongmei, I called you mainly for several things. First, I wanted to tell you about our relationship.
The relationship must end immediately. The second thing I want to tell you is that regarding your postgraduate entrance examination, whether you are online or not, I will find a way for you. Of course, you must at least pass the national basic score.
It doesn't matter if you get into it, just go and study smoothly. If you can't get into it, you'll have to study at your own expense. I'll pay you when the time comes."
She said: "I have already passed the exam and I don't feel that I am doing very well."
I said, "Let's wait until the results come out."
Her voice was still thin, "Yeah."
I felt that her mood was relatively stable, so I decided to continue talking, "Dongmei, there is a third thing, that is, I will continue to give you the money I promised you every month in the future.
For you, until you complete graduate studies."
She hurriedly said: "Teacher Feng, no need. How can I continue to ask for your money? You have given me so much money, and I can't ask for your money anymore. The money I have now is enough for me and my husband."
Mom has had to pay for her living expenses for several years, and I will get better after I go to work."
I said: "Dongmei, as the saying goes, it is easy to go from frugality to luxury, but it is difficult to go from luxury to frugality. Do you think your income will be very high after you go to work in the future? Haha! Dongmei, don't be embarrassed, let me tell you,
Of course I do this with conditions."
She immediately asked me: "Teacher Feng, you mean... you will still be with me occasionally in the future, right?"
I said: "No. Dongmei, we may meet in the future, but we can no longer be together like before. And I must tell you, you must not tell others about our past."
After she was silent for a while, she asked me: "Teacher Feng, do you want me to accompany someone else?"
This is indeed a very smart girl. Of course, it is precisely because I know she is so smart that I said the previous sentence to her. It is better for her to ask such things herself than for me to tell her directly.
Is she okay?
At this moment, I couldn't help but feel sorry for her. I thought to myself, if she had not been born in such a family, or if her family had not suffered such changes, with her intelligence and beauty, she would be in this situation.
?
I couldn't help but sigh at the impermanence and misfortune of fate. Moreover, I suddenly felt that I was also a driving force in pushing her fate to continue to develop towards misfortune.
However, I am also a person in the whirlpool of fate, and I can’t control many things myself. Maybe this is the helplessness of life?
I said: "Dongmei, if this is really the case, would you like it?"
But she said: "No, I don't want to. I'm tired. I used to do those things because I had no choice. Later, I agreed to accompany you because you have done so much for me. In addition to your money, I have another
A kind of grateful mentality. But I am a woman and a student, and I must consider my future. Teacher Feng, if you want me to continue to accompany you, I will definitely not say a word and will definitely continue to accompany you.
.Because you are a good person, I feel a sense of security when I am with you. Teacher Feng, I’m sorry, if that’s not the case, then please forgive me, because I don’t want to do such a thing again.”
But I disagreed in my heart, because I felt that her refusal was just inevitable, or a necessity for her. Isn't that how the saying "You have to be a bitch and build a memorial arch at the same time" comes from
?
Maybe it is inappropriate to use this sentence to evaluate Udon plums, and it is even a bit cruel, but I think this is actually a normal mentality in itself. As for this sentence, some people have given it a more neutral concept.
: A weak character who compromises due to the pressure of life coupled with a good desire to pursue a noble life and personal dignity.
Everyone has their own basic dignity. Therefore, I think what she told me that she disagreed was just the remaining dignity that she had to maintain.
Of course, what I have to do should not be to destroy her dignity. On the contrary, I must also defend her. This is the minimum requirement to successfully persuade her. In other words, I must give her a