His words made me feel uncomfortable and extremely guilty, "Dad, it's my fault. I paid too little attention to you... Wuwu! Dad, don't worry, I will definitely take good care of my mother."
My father came to stroke my hair and said, "Son, how can I blame you? I am a man and I should take care of myself. The main reason is that I was too scared before. Someone once said that the more afraid a person is of problems with one of his organs.
, it turns out that’s exactly where the problem lies. The more a person is afraid that he will suffer from a serious disease, the disease will find him. Okay, don’t feel guilty. I know my body, and this has nothing to do with it.
It doesn't matter to you. Son, let me tell you the second thing. After I die, I will be cremated in the crematorium of the provincial capital and don't let others know. You know that I like to be quiet and don't like to interact with outsiders. Since then,
You know that I often come back to accompany me after I get sick, and I am already very satisfied. It is enough for people to live well every day while they are alive. There is no need to engage in those superficial things after death. Anyway, I will watch it then.
No, I can't hear you anymore. When the time comes, you can take my ashes and bury them not far from Chen Yuan. There will be two graves. Leave one for your mother. I'll wait for her slowly below. Now
I will take care of Chen Yuan for you first, this child is so pitiful."
My mother was crying so hard that she couldn't stop crying, and I was also extremely grieved. I nodded and said, "Yes. Dad, don't worry, I will do exactly what you said."
The father went to wipe the mother's tears again and said, "You have to live well and watch our grandson grow up, and watch the grandson get married and have a future. After I leave, you have to take more care of the family affairs. From now on, you have to take care of your grandson every year."
I want my son to come to my grave and let me watch him grow up. Living is the best thing. Now God wants me to leave first. There is nothing I can do about it. You have to be open-minded."
The mother cried and said: "Yes. I listen to you."
My father then said to me: "Son, I know you have had a hard time these years because your two marriages were so unhappy. But you are still young and your children are still very young, so I hope you can find someone again as soon as possible.
Marry a suitable woman. You are now considered a high-level cadre, and it is not good to be single all the time. To be honest, I am not worried that you will make financial mistakes, but I have been worried about your personal problems. Son, I have some words
You don’t need me to explain it so clearly, you should know it yourself, because you know the rules of officialdom better than I do. You don’t have to be beautiful to find a wife, she just needs to be good to you and good to your children.”
I cried and nodded: "Yes. Dad, don't worry."
The father smiled and said: "Okay, that's it, you go to work. Oh, by the way, tell the boss of the supermarket that I won't go to work from today on. I have already told you about the things that need to be paid attention to in the company.
After I sorted it out and put it on my desk, I won’t hand over the shift to the new manager in person. It’s too scary for me to look like this.”
I hurriedly said: "No. Dad, I will always be with you at home. There is nothing urgent in the unit at the moment, so don't worry. By the way, Dad, do you think you should go to the hospital next or just stay here?"
At home? If you want to go to the hospital, I have already contacted the high-end ward of a hospital. If you want to stay at home, I will invite doctors and nurses to take care of you at home. You know, we have this condition at home now."
The father shook his head and said: "No need. I don't want to go to the hospital. A place like that makes people feel very uncomfortable. I also don't want to fill the house with the smell of medicine, which will also affect your normal life. In a few days
Well, then you can send me to a temple, I want to die quietly in such a place."
I was stunned immediately, "Dad..."
My mother cried and said to me: "Just listen to your father."
I nodded, "Okay. I'll contact you right away. But Dad, I will invite the doctor to the temple when the time comes. You must listen to me on this."
But the father was still shaking his head, "What does it mean to invite a doctor to a temple? I said, I just want to die quietly in the temple alone. You don't have to come and watch me every day. Just
Let the monks in the temple save me. It's a punishment for you to look at me every day. This is my last request, and I hope you can satisfy my wish."
I was immediately embarrassed and immediately looked at my mother. My mother was still crying, and she also looked at me and said, "Just listen to him..."
I nodded and said, "Okay, I'll contact you right away."
The father smiled slightly and said: "That's great. I want to take a rest. You can go and do yourselves."
Then I helped my father into the room, took off his shoes and clothes, let him lie down, and then gently placed the thin quilt on his body.
At this time, I found my mother staring at my father, sobbing and crying. I gently pulled my mother and said, "Mom, let's go out and let dad rest for a while."
My mother hesitated for a moment before following me out of the room, and I closed the door behind me.
"Xiao'er..." My mother cried and called me after we got outside.
I looked at my mother and said, "Mom, you have to be more open-minded. There is nothing we can do about it. There is a mass in my father's liver at the porta of the liver. There is no way to operate on it, and we can't do a liver transplant. What we have to do now
It’s all about fulfilling dad’s wishes.”
The mother shook her head and said: "Xiao'er, I'm so worried. What your father just said made me very worried. He was giving us his last words. Didn't you hear it?"
I was very puzzled, "Mom, I know. Dad already knew about his illness, so he handed everything over to us while his consciousness was still clear. There is nothing strange about it."
But my mother still shook her head and said, "What I'm most worried about right now is that your father won't be able to figure it out. He doesn't want to suffer anymore, and he doesn't want us to suffer with him, so I'm worried that he will commit suicide."
I was stunned immediately.
Then I realized something: my mother's worries were probably correct. After all, my mother knew my father best. And I carefully recalled what my father said before, and I suddenly felt that my mother's worries were very possible.
.I said: "Mom, let me see this. From now on, everyone at home will keep an eye on him and never let him go out alone."
The mother cried and shook her head: "He is a big living person. If he really can't figure it out, can he take care of him? Moreover, he wants to go to the temple alone, and we are not allowed to be in front of him at any time. How can we take care of him?
he?"
I was stunned for a moment and suddenly felt scared, "Then, what should I do?"
The mother shook her head and said: "I don't know either. Now I can only try my best to persuade him. Alas! Your father is a very stubborn person. He will always have a stubborn temper."
At this moment, I suddenly felt that my home was completely enveloped in a dull and terrifying atmosphere. My mother and I looked at each other in silence. At this moment, we didn't know what to do.
It wasn't until the laughter of the children in the living room below that we broke the silence. And at this moment, I suddenly had an idea in my mind.
An hour later, my father woke up and went outside to the terrace to smoke. I followed him out immediately.
"You wait until I finish smoking," my father said to me.
I hurriedly said: "Dad, it's okay. I have something very important to tell you."
But he still said in a strong tone, "Come back later."
I had no choice but to retreat back into the house. I knew in my heart that my father didn't want me to inhale his smoke.
After about ten minutes, I finally heard my father’s voice calling me, “I’m done. Come on.”
I immediately went out, and my father pointed to the chair next to him, "Sit down and say."
I sat down. But at this moment, I suddenly hesitated, "Dad, there is something I have never told you. Don't be angry after hearing this."
The father said calmly: "I am going to die, what else is there for me to be angry about?"
I was even more frightened, "Dad, please don't say that, okay? It's like this. After Chen Yuan left, I dated a girl for a while. She later became pregnant, but she married another man.
That child is mine...Dad, I am responsible for this matter because I don't want to marry her..."
At this moment, I realized that it was so difficult to say such things from my mouth.
My father looked at me in surprise, "Is this really true? Does her current man know that the child is not his?"
I shook my head.
My father was looking at me, "Why are you telling me this?"
I was extremely frightened, "Dad, I want you to see that child. But..."
The father's expression was very complicated, "But what?"
I found it even more difficult for me to speak, "Dad, you have to promise me not to be confused. I know that you always keep your word in front of me. You have never lied to me since I was a child, so I also
I hope you will promise me this time not to do anything that makes my mother and I feel sad and scared. If you promise me, I will bring the child to you."
My father hesitated, and his hesitation further confirmed my mother's worries. At this moment, I felt lucky in my heart.
After a while, the father sighed and said: "I didn't expect that I actually have two grandchildren. Forget it, I won't say anything bad about you. Just bring your children, I promise you."
I was overjoyed, "Really? Dad, you must keep your word!"
The father smiled lightly, "Didn't you just say that? You have never noticed that I lied to you since you were a child."
I felt very guilty because I really shouldn't have said those words just now. But now I was completely relieved and immediately said to my father, "I'll call right away."
My father immediately said to me: "Don't affect other people's current families."
I nodded, feeling endless gratitude to my father: As a father, he is always so tolerant to me, even his tolerance exceeds the bottom line of his principles. (To be continued)