In fact, this is often the case. Each of us cannot clearly understand ourselves at all times. Many times we need to be reminded by others before we can compare objectively.
Before I left the Provincial Admissions Office, I drank for many days. Team members and various departments treated me to guests. When the leaders of the Provincial Education Commission held a farewell banquet for me, Governor He was also present in person.
Governor He already knew about my father, and she comforted me for a long time. My pain had already been wrapped up by herself, but her comfort made the pain in my heart suddenly pour out.
, as a result, I couldn’t restrain myself from crying at the farewell banquet.
The old director also invited me to drink alone once, at his home. This time he didn’t call anyone else, but he called Chenchen over.
I was a little uncomfortable at first, but Chenchen was very generous, which quickly made me feel more natural and casual.
That day, the old director took out the Moutai that he had treasured for many years. He said to me: "Xiao Feng, I know you won't be working in the Provincial Recruitment Office for too long. You are very capable and have great ideas."
, I don’t have anything to say about work, but your biggest shortcoming is that you are sometimes too soft-hearted.”
The wife of the old director smiled and said, "There are too few soft-hearted men nowadays. This is a good man."
The old director smiled and said: "It depends on where you are and who you are. At home, you should treat your relatives, outside, and your friends like this, but not at work. Now Xiao Feng is a senior official in one party.
, things in the officialdom are dangerous and people's hearts are unpredictable. Many people will take advantage of the weaknesses of leaders to seek their own interests, thereby putting leaders in danger. Such things are not uncommon in the officialdom. In my previous provincial recruitment office
What a good person the director is, but in the end he was implicated because one of his subordinates accepted a bribe, because he had long known that his subordinate had such a problem but could not bear to deal with it. Later, when the incident involving that person came out, some people immediately wanted to
The superior department reported that they had reported this matter to the person in charge of the unit many times... This is still good. Today's business people are even better. Those people specialize in studying the weaknesses of leaders and then prescribe targeted remedies.
, many people who are leaders have been dragged into the water because of this."
Chenchen's face was full of worry, "Listening to what you said, aren't those who are leaders now in danger? There is a possibility of being pulled into the water at any time?"
The old director smiled and said: "Yes. Today's officialdom is a dangerous profession, but smart officials know how to resolve their own dangers, which requires them to stay awake at all times and stick to the last bottom line."
I said: "Anyway, I have a principle, which is not to be greedy. I think my bottom line will never be breached."
The old director shook his head and said: "That's not necessarily true. If I came to you to do a project, and it was obviously against my principles, would you agree or not? What if it wasn't me, but your relatives, or even your kind superiors?
, what will you do?"
I was silent for a moment.
The old director continued: "I think it is enough to pay attention to two points. The first is, as you said, that you are not greedy, so that you can at least avoid jail. The second is to underestimate your own future. If you encounter
When there is a conflict that you cannot avoid, such as when your superior comes to find you to do something that goes against your principles, in that case you should have the courage to say, 'I'll quit doing it at best.'"
I laughed "hehe" and said, "Old director, you are right."
In fact, I don't think so in my heart: It would be great if things in the officialdom were so simple. But now I don't want to think too much about such issues, because no one can tell what kind of things they will encounter in the future.
The old director smiled and said: "Xiao Feng, you have no problem. Because you are one of the most promising young people I have ever met. You are very powerful, you can even be regarded as an alternative, because you are not only successful in your career, but also
You are also very good at making money. Ruan Jie invited me to have a meal in your new restaurant. The business there is really good, and your ability to make money is also extraordinary."
I smiled sheepishly, "Old director, if one day you don't want to go to work, I'll open another restaurant for you to manage. How about that?"
He immediately waved his hand and said: "Forget it, I don't have that leisure time. Although I like to drink, it's not okay for me to stay there every day."
In fact, I know why he said these words. On the one hand, he was really praising me, and more importantly, he wanted to tell Chenchen.
In fact, after my father passed away, I have been thinking about his last words, especially his concerns about my marriage.
I thought about it for a long time and felt that the most suitable woman among the women I know and have experienced is Zhuang Qing. Because we have real feelings, and we have both experienced so many ups and downs. To be precise, we are all riddled with holes.
, maybe we can lick each other's wounds together. And more importantly, she used to like Chen Yuan very much, so I believe she will be very good to my child.
Therefore, one day two months after my father passed away, I finally decided to call Zhuang Qing.
But what I didn't expect was that she rejected me directly.
At that time, after the call was connected, I asked directly, "Zhuang Qing, do you think it's okay for us to get married?"
She immediately laughed, "Feng Xiao, have you drank too much today? Have you ever proposed to a woman like you?"
I felt that I was being a little shameless, so I also laughed, "Then what do you want me to do to propose to you? Kneel down on one leg in front of you? No problem, tell me where you are now?"
I'll fly over right away."
She kept laughing, "Feng Xiao, it seems that you really drank too much today. This is the first time you have been so humorous with me."
I hurriedly said: "Zhuang Qing, let me tell you: first, I did not drink today. Second, I am not humorous, I am very serious."
She stopped laughing immediately, "Feng Xiao, are you kidding me?"
I immediately said: "No, I'm really serious. Zhuang Qing, I want to marry you."
But she immediately laughed and said, "Feng Xiao, don't be like this, your jokes look like they are serious now."
I immediately became anxious, "Zhuang Qing, how can you believe what I say? I think it is most suitable for the two of us to be together. After so many years, we have always maintained a true relationship. It is love, not only
It's just friendship, you should know that, right?"
She immediately asked me: "Feng Xiao, don't you care that I have had relationships with so many men? Don't you care that I kiss or even be more intimate with an actor when I'm acting in the future?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Am I still the same? Haven't I also been dissolute these years? Since I am like this myself, then who do I have the right to care about your past things? As long as we don't do that again after we get married, we will
Wouldn’t it be great if we all be loyal to each other and grow old together?”
But she immediately said: "Feng Xiao, I can't do it. Even after we get married, I will do that kind of thing with other men. Because I like my current career and don't want to restrict myself too much. I just
I like to live freely alone and don’t want to be bound by marriage. So, we can’t be together.”
I didn't expect that she would say this, and I was stunned. But I didn't believe her words, because I knew that she was not the kind of woman she said. I said: "Zhuang Qing, I am serious about you."
I'm talking about it. I'm really not kidding."
She laughed immediately, "I'm serious too. Feng Xiao, don't you think it's best for us to be like this now? You miss me, I miss you, we will be together, and then give ourselves to each other, and we
Every time we are together, we will be very passionate and fresh. Think about it, if we really get married and see each other every day and do that kind of thing every night, we will get tired of each other soon. And it is very likely that we will get tired of each other.
How boring would it be to have conflicts over trivial matters in life? Don’t you think so? Yes, we have feelings and passion, which I care about very much, but I don’t want to be your wife, because
I don't deserve it. On the other hand, I don't think you are suitable to be my husband, because you don't deserve it either. So, we'd better maintain the status quo. If one day you find a woman you really like, I will never
If I seduce you again, I will never do anything like that with you again. Feng Xiao, do you understand what I mean?"
I suddenly felt sad, but I suddenly felt that what she said was strange, so I immediately asked her, "You mean, you did that to me because I didn't really like Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan."
Something about that?”
She said: "Why do you say that? At that time, it was because we were not sensible and because we were all blinded by desire. So we only cared about our own feelings and ignored others. But it is different now. We
You have experienced so much, and you are older, so you should know what you should do and what you should not do. Don’t you think so?"
I sighed immediately. To be honest, I had to admit that what she said was right, because neither she nor I seemed to like the bondage of marriage.
At this time, when the old director once again hinted like this in front of Chenchen, I couldn't help but think: Maybe she is really suitable to be my wife?
I shouldn't have immediately denied it, because I still have a deep inferiority complex in my heart. Especially when I saw her eyes that looked exactly like Zhao Menglei's, the inferiority complex in my heart became even more powerful.
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Fortunately, the old director did not directly mention his thoughts in front of Chenchen. Perhaps he did not want to embarrass me and Chenchen, or perhaps he knew that Chenchen did not have such thoughts about me. (