After dinner, I sat at the old director's house for a while, and then said goodbye to him. The old director said to me: "Xiao Feng, please see Xiaochen off."
Chenchen looked at me and said, "Okay, then please ask Mayor Feng to send me to the Medical University."
Of course I can't refuse.
When we got downstairs, she suddenly said to me: "Let's go for a walk."
A warm feeling suddenly arose in my heart, "Okay. Chenchen, won't your music bar open today?"
She said: "I can go later. Anyway, that place is for everyone to relax and have fun. Now the guests who go there can also sing on stage. But we need to listen to their singing level first."
I laughed and said, "That's true, otherwise it would be a karaoke. If people like me can go up and sing, wouldn't it scare away other people?"
She immediately laughed, "No way? You don't sing that often, do you? By the way, it seems that I have never heard you sing before. When will you go there and sing a song for me to listen to? It doesn't matter, anyway.
You have money, and you can afford to pay for it if you scare away the guests."
I hurriedly said: "No! I have sung very far. It's not a big deal to scare away your guests. I can't afford to pay for it if they have nightmares when they go back."
She laughed and said, "You are really good at joking." Then she came to me and asked me softly: "I heard that your father passed away? Are you okay now?"
My heart suddenly stung, and then I smiled bitterly and said: "Everyone is like this. Birth, old age, illness and death are a natural thing. My two previous wives have passed away, and I have also witnessed the death of friends around me. What's more?
I used to be a doctor, and I have experienced too many such things... Now I have figured out that life is actually very simple, and if a person can face it calmly, he will be very happy.
Otherwise, it will be painful. Those who are alive will fulfill their responsibilities and face their own lives well every day. This will be much simpler and much happier."
She said softly: "You said it so well... Feng Xiao, oh, can I call you this? You will be the deputy mayor soon, and you won't think that I call you this as a way of disrespecting you."
Respect it?"
I smiled and shook my head and said, "How could it be? The most important thing between friends is equality. I call you by your name, but you call me by my job title. This shows that we are not friends at all. You said
right?"
She smiled and said: "You are right, I think so too. So Feng Xiao, can you tell me about your past? I think your past must be very touching, because I found that there is something like
There are many stories."
I shook my head and said: "Chenchen, my past can be summed up in four words: I can't bear to look back. In fact, I am not a good man, and I was not a good husband before. But now, I just want to be a good father and mother."
A good son. That’s all.”
She said: "I understand. In fact, a person like you has such a high position at a young age, and you are also pretty good-looking. If you say how good you are, I won't believe it. So,
Can you tell me the story of your two wives? Haha! I don’t mean anything else. I can see that you still love them very much, so I really want to know what kind of women they are and why they can
Let you fall in love with them. This may help me find a boyfriend in the future. Of course, if you don't want to talk about it, forget it, after all, such things may make you feel uncomfortable. I'm just curious."
I thought about it and then started telling her about it, but I was only talking about their affairs.
The first thing I will talk about is Zhao Menglei, starting from our middle school days. I found that telling a girl about my past under such circumstances actually made me feel young, because I suddenly discovered all that I had
It seems to be right in front of you.
I talked about Zhao Menglei's suicide, and then started talking about the marriage between Chen Yuan and me, and her death. However, I did not tell her what Lin Yi forced me to do at that time, and I postponed my marriage to Chen Yuan until Zhao Menglei
After death.
Chenchen didn't know that, in fact, I had always been careful in the process of telling the story, because I couldn't expose the unbearable things I had done, which were the filth deep in my heart.
This is not because I want to pursue her, so I deliberately hide it from her, but I feel that there is no need to reveal all that to her. Unless I really want to pursue her, otherwise there is no need at all, and I will not
Being stupid enough to expose one's own filth to others casually.
Since the last time I made up my mind not to associate with those women, I really am no longer as sentimental as before. Of course, this is due to my father's illness and death, and of course it is also due to the fact that I have truly awakened in my heart.
Because I think what Lin Yu said is right.
I believe that the unbearable things I have done in the past will be sealed in my memory forever, and will always be wrapped up in my sanctimonious appearance, and I will never let those unbearable things be exposed.
The past has passed and no one can erase it. There is only one thing I have to do from now on: face myself and start a new life.
I didn't take into account her emotions and reactions during the narration. Slowly, I completely entered into the memories of the past.
Later, I finished speaking without knowing it, and then I suddenly felt that I was a little ridiculous: Feng Xiao, why did you really tell her all this about yourself? For an old man like you, how could you tell her this?
Are these interesting?
But she was already infected by my story, and she said softly: "Feng Xiao, I didn't expect you to be so strong. Compared with you, I feel that I am too fragile."
At this moment, I understood my true intention as to why I had just told her those things. Yes, subconsciously, I also hoped that she would be strong.
I said: "Chenchen, your uncle told me about your parents. I think you should forget the past. The dead are gone, and we living people should continue to live well. In this case, your parents'
Only the souls in heaven can truly find peace. If they know that you are still immersed in the pain of their death, they will also be very unhappy. As I said before, as a human being, birth, old age, illness and death are actually a very normal thing.
To be precise, we are all facing the threat of death from the moment we are born. It’s just that some people live longer and some live shorter. Speaking of which, we are actually just passers-by in this world.
.It is our luck that God brought us into this world. We should treat ourselves well, our own life and all lives. Chenchen, this is not a big talk, but the true meaning of our lives."
She said softly: "Maybe. Feng Xiao, thank you for telling me so much today...ah? How did we get here?"
Only then did I suddenly realize that the two of us had reached the edge of the city center without even realizing it.
We immediately looked at each other and smiled, and then I took a taxi and went back to the home of the old director with her, and then I drove her to the campus of the Medical University.
"Go and have a seat?" she asked me as she got off the car.
I shook my head, "I have to go home to spend time with my mother and children."
She waved to me, "Okay. Goodbye. I congratulate you on becoming the deputy mayor, and I hope you can become a good official."
I nodded towards her, smiled and said to her: "I hope I will live up to your words."
Before reporting to Shangjiang City, my mother and I took our children to the cemetery together. We went to Chen Yuan first, and I asked my children to kowtow to her in front of her tomb. I pointed to Chen Yuan’s photo on the tombstone.
The child said: "Son, this is your mother."
The child asked me: "Why is mom here? Why doesn't she go home?"
I told my children: "This is mom's home, and we will all stay here from now on."
Of course the child didn’t understand, “Why can’t we live here now?”
I smiled and said, "Because we haven't finished our work yet. Son, you don't understand now, but you will understand when you grow up. But you must remember that this is your mother, and you must always remember it."
"
Then we went to my father’s tomb, and I took my children to kowtow in front of my father’s tomb.
Kneeling in front of her father's tomb, she said to her father's photo on the tombstone: "I listen to you and will accompany you when our grandson grows up."
A few days later I headed to Shangjiang City.
This is a season with a lazy atmosphere in the sun, and the faint fragrance of flowers and plants is filled with the colorful colors. Occasionally, a gust of wind comes, and the fallen flowers are colorful, attracting the moist spring rain, rolling among the leaves, with a very reluctant "Bata"
Standing, like a wronged child. And when the breeze blows, people will feel one part sober, two parts drunk, and three parts proud. In a trance, spring will soon pass away with the falling flowers in the flowing water.
Perhaps our life is like this. On a sunny day, we jump from the yellow willow branches into the water, waking up the sleeping fish and calling out the winter-sleepy birds...
I sighed slightly in my heart: since it is not necessary to moan softly and sigh longly, then I have no choice but to talk to life in silence, to welcome the various situations of life with a smile, and to express true expectations in this sunshine.
In fact, life is just a process of opening and closing your eyes. As long as you don't dwell too much on it, it's actually very simple.
The Secretary of the Municipal Party Committee of Shangjiang City came to greet me in person. We smiled at each other as soon as we met, and then our hands held each other tightly.
We are acquaintances, because he is also one of the candidates for the adjustment of provincial cadres in the province. Before that, he was the mayor of Gaolou City. His surname is Chen. (To be continued)