The injustice shown by the teacher actually includes another thing, which is the worship of privilege. No need to guess and analyze, the parents of the student who beat Kang Demao at that time must be a privileged person.
Therefore, the truly terrible thing about our country’s educational failure is that it ignores human dignity and makes everyone feel the injustice of society so deeply from an early age.
I started drinking with Kang Demao. At this time, I felt very uncomfortable because I was completely enveloped in all the sufferings he had experienced.
I raised my glass to him and said, "De Mao, let's not talk about anything. No matter what happened in the past was my fault or your own problem, I think these are no longer important. What is important is that we will still be friends in the future. De Mao,
I sincerely hope that we can still support and trust each other as before."
He nodded and drank it all in one gulp.
I was very happy, so I immediately toasted happily.
But I didn't expect that he would bring the topic back to the previous matter, "Feng Xiao, you know what happened when I was in high school. Our head teacher looked down on me from the bottom of his heart, so he used words like that
Way to insult me. Feng Xiao, do you know? In fact, he is the person I hate the most in my life.
Because I was already in high school at that time, and I already understood what human dignity is. You wouldn’t know that after that incident, I thought about killing him. Of course, I just thought about it, because I didn’t dare
, and I knew I could only endure it, because it was not easy for my parents to let me study, and my family needed me to change everything. Later, he got sick, and I felt that my opportunity for revenge had come.
I told you before that I helped him to show my tolerance. No, that's not the case. The purpose of helping him was to make him ashamed and make him regret from the bottom of his heart that he looked down on others. My purpose was achieved.
, because he later confessed in front of me. This is something you don’t know. Also, when I was in high school, I swore that I would return to school with dignity and dignity.
I want to give a report to the teachers and students in the school. I want to tell them about my high school days and the insults I suffered there. I want to humiliate the teachers in the school and let them know that a person who was once abused by them
Even students who look down upon them will have their day of glory. So when the organization asked for my opinion, I chose to return to my hometown, and I actually went to the school to give a report.
But my mood has already changed, and this is because of the death of our head teacher. His death made me understand a truth: As a human being, no matter what he was like when he was alive, he will not exist after death, and
That might be the retribution given to him by God. So I feel that I should not care about it anymore, and my identity also prevents me from caring about everything in the past.
Therefore, in that report, I said a lot of words of gratitude to the teachers, and at the same time taught the students in the audience to be grateful. Of course, those words were not my true thoughts in my heart. They were what I must do as the county magistrate.
What I want to talk about. Feng Xiao, you and I are both in the officialdom. In fact, we all live in lies. Maybe only under such circumstances, in front of friends whom we truly trust, will we say such true words. You said
right?"
I nodded, and I was very touched by his words, and at the same time very happy, because I felt that we seemed to have returned to the friendship we had in the past. I said, "Demao, you are right. On weekdays we
We all wear masks and live in lies, but in our hearts we still long for real things, including our emotions.
In fact, I am still not married until now. The most real reason is that I don’t want to give up the pursuit of true love. Because I know that if I get married again, it will only be the last marriage in my life.
, now I regret it very much. I regret that I was sorry for Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan in the past, so I will cherish my future even more. Hey..."
He nodded and said: "Yes. Feng Xiao, in fact, I also regret it. My two previous wives have betrayed me, and I have suffered so many insults since I was a child. The betrayal of those two women made me feel sad."
The sense of humiliation became even stronger, so I still couldn't trust Ding Xiang, and I also did some things that made her feel very sad. Now I understand that Ding Xiang is a good woman, and my parents were so harsh to her, and I was so
I hurt her, but she is still so considerate to me and can forgive me for the things I did, so I feel that I should cherish her even more from now on."
I became even more happy and immediately raised my glass to him, "De Mao, that's right."
After we drank together, he said: "Actually, I should be happy that I have gone down such a downward path in my official career. Really, Feng Xiao, I didn't lie at all. To be honest, if I hadn't left because of
If it's such a downhill road, I definitely won't be able to calm down and think about many issues, let alone reflect on my past mistakes. So, I'm really glad."
I completely believed what he said, because today I clearly felt that he was different from before, no longer false, more real and sincere. I said: "De Mao, I believe you will gradually become smoother in the future.
. In fact, a person who has such a process is also a very valuable asset."
He smiled and said: "I agree with what you said. Come on, Feng Xiao, let's drink. I'm very happy today. In fact, I've wanted to drink with you for a long time. It's not that I can't lose face... Actually, I
I have long put aside things like face, let alone between you and me?
Feng Xiao, I know there are some things you have no choice but to do. If it were me, I would do the same thing. So now I understand that I shouldn’t blame you at all, let alone the leaders. Sometimes I myself
I will think about this question, if I were the leader, I would definitely make the person who tried to betray me even worse. Haha! I said try, because I really never thought about betraying Governor Huang, I just
But I really wanted to take a shortcut. At that time, I thought, if I had one more leader to help me, wouldn’t it be smoother in the future?
But I made the lowest mistake, that is: in fact, leaders often regard their trusted subordinates as their slaves. I have been a county magistrate, and I have personal experience of this.
But I just forgot about this. Hey! I was really dizzy at that time, so I felt that it is best for a person to endure some setbacks. Feng Xiao, I don’t mean that I want you to suffer anything.
It’s a setback, but I hope you can take it as a warning. My setback may be a mirror for you, which can help you avoid detours in the future.”
I was really touched by his words, but I knew I could only bury the feeling in my heart. Friends don’t need to use too many words to express their gratitude. In fact, friendship
It is also a spiritual connection.
We drank a lot of wine, and then Kang Demao proposed to end it. He said: "You have just arrived at a new place, and you must have a lot to do. Although tomorrow is the weekend, I believe you will not have much free time. We will stop here today.
That's it. Feng Xiao, although we haven't seen each other for a long time, I have been paying attention to your situation. It's just that I learned about your family's affairs a little later. You didn't notify me about my uncle's death at the time. I still don't know about it until now.
You are very opinionated. But later I heard that you did not publicize this matter at all, so I understand you. It is true, we are still very young, and some things are better kept low-key."
I was very ashamed, "Demao, it's not like that. It was my father who specifically told me to do that before he was alive. You also know that my father could not bear the pain caused by liver cancer... Hey! Now I
Only then did I realize how stupid I was at that time. Why didn’t I think that my father would do it that way when he told me that? Now that I think about it, I understand that he had actually already thought of ending it in that way at that time.
own life.
My father...forget it, let's not talk about this anymore. Demao, that's right. I have to talk to Secretary Chen in the city tomorrow morning. Let's stop here today. I hope we can often see each other in the future.
When we are together, friends don’t actually need to drink much. The most important thing is for us to communicate more and help each other. You think so? But I’ve almost drunk enough today. Let’s go, you should go back early.
, go back early to accompany your wife and children. Demao, I am so happy today, haha!"
He had to pay the bill, and I didn't feel much better. Anyway, this little money was nothing to me and him.
I didn't ask him whether Ning Xiangru gave him the money, because I thought it would be disgraceful for the two of us to talk about such things today.
We broke up outside the restaurant and drove away. (To be continued)