Although the living room is large, there is not much furniture. The only ones with cabinets and drawers are the TV cabinet and the small wine cabinet behind the dining table. Of course I would not consider looking at the small wine cabinet, because I have seen that place before.
Only wine and tea.
The drawer under the TV cabinet was full of Korean dramas and nothing else. I was a little disappointed and sat down on the sofa slumped. I was thinking: From the note she left in the passbook and bank card
Look, she should have left other things. Suddenly I remembered the note she left before leaving that day. Could it be that one? Just that one?
The TV was turned on by Su Hua just now, but the sound was very low. I didn't see Su Hua's shadow. I guess she didn't want to affect me and went out. I sat on the sofa and leaned my body completely on the backrest.
I'm thinking: Did I really do something wrong in this matter? Did my trying to save her actually lead to her death? If I didn't want to do that, I would have let her stay in prison for more than ten years.
Ten years later, is that really the right thing to do? Now, I don’t believe Lin Yi’s so-called prediction. If he can really predict so accurately, then he should have warned me about Zhao Menglei’s matter.
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Su Hua came back with many things in her hands. "Feng Xiao, I went out to buy some food and drinks. I think you must be in a bad mood today, so I'll drink with you. You were with me the day before yesterday, and I have to be with you today."
You are wrong. Alas! Our senior sisters and brothers are not doing well."
"I don't want to drink." I said. Now, I don't want to anesthetize myself, because there are still many unsolved doubts in my heart. Moreover, my heart is full of regret and guilt. Under such circumstances, I don't want to drink at all.
"Then let's eat something. Look, I bought a lot of delicious food." She said, "There are cold pig ears, pork belly, soy sauce beef, braised duck, and others. Come on. Feng Xiao, you are now
What you need most is to forget that painful thing. Maybe it will be better if I talk to you."
I didn't speak because I felt something indescribable in my heart. I didn't know what it was, but I just felt depressed and uncomfortable.
"Come on, come and have something to eat. You see, I went to buy it specially." She said, and then came to pull me over.
My heart seemed to light up, "No, I don't drink. I'll go to the study and take a look."
Yes, if Zhao Menglei wants to leave something to me, that is the most likely place. Because it is a private space she specially created for me. She once said to me that I need a quiet place to read, so the study is completely
It was designed based on my needs.
I immediately went to the study room, and the moment I turned on the light, my heart suddenly beat violently - the first thing I saw was a jacket hanging on the wall in the study room.
I remembered that it was one night a few days before Zhao Menglei surrendered. At that time, I was checking information on the computer in the study. She took this dress and came in and said to me: "It's cold, put it on."
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She brought the clothes in and handed them to me and then went out. I put the jacket on my body and soon felt uncomfortable. I felt that it was in the way, so I hung it on the wall. That jacket
The clothes have been hanging there since that day.
I quickly ran towards it and took it off the wall. I hurriedly started to feel for every pocket of it... I found it! Inside the pocket inside the jacket, it was hard. When I took it out, I found a
I opened the envelope hurriedly, and inside was a letter in my familiar handwriting——
Feng Xiao, this is a letter gambling on my life.
One thing I have been thinking about is what position I am in your heart.
I thought about it, and I would turn myself in in a few days. Because I found that I really couldn't live in fear like this. Since that incident, there has been almost no night without nightmares.
If you read this letter tonight, I will immediately tell you everything that has happened, and then you will decide my future for me. No, maybe our future. If you want, we can go abroad together
, go to a place where the world can’t find us, such as Iceland, the end of the world. Don’t worry, the money I have is enough for us to use for a lifetime, as long as we don’t waste it. You can open a clinic and I will open one.
Pet shop, we can still live well, even in a foreign country.
It doesn't matter if you only read this letter a few days after I surrendered, because I will tell you one thing before I leave. I will tell you that I will let the lawyer inform you about our divorce. If you agree
, if I agree to sign the divorce notice, I will end my life without hesitation, because there is nothing left in this world that I need to remember. So, if in this case you read this letter
Maybe I can make you change your mind, because I believe you won’t watch me die. Feng Xiao, maybe it’s cruel and unfair for me to do this. But, you know what? What I need is a
A husband who loves me, a husband who loves me from the bottom of his heart. All I need is that you love me in your heart. No matter how many women you have outside, it doesn’t matter. The only thing is that I don’t allow you to fall in love with them. I can’t meet this condition.
Shall we share it? So, even if I am sentenced to many years in prison, you will not be lonely while you wait for me, because I agree with you to find other women, and you can also spend the money I left you to find women. Feng
Laugh, you might think I'm weird, right? Yes, I admit, that person made me a little perverted. Now, I don't need much, I just need someone who really loves me. Feng Xiao, I know
Yes, in high school, you liked me at that time, and after meeting you this time, I can see that you still like me. Unfortunately, I am married. Hey! You see, I am going too far again.
If you read this letter after signing our divorce agreement, then I may no longer be in this world when you read this letter. Even so, I will not hate you, only blame me for my misfortune.
Feng Xiao, if this is really the case, it can be considered that I have left you something, which is to make you feel guilty and regretful forever. This can be considered the price you should pay.
We had about sixty classmates in a class in high school, right? I always think about them recently, but I find that they have become blurry in my mind. Only you are still so clear. Not that
The way you are now is not the way you are now, but at that time. It seems that it is destined by God that we can be together. Now, I want to use this letter to ask God to see if it wants me to live or die.
I don't know the result yet, but you will already know the result when you read this letter, the result given by God.
Feng Xiao, I am a very persistent person and will not change my mind midway. Therefore, the results you see are definitely God's will. Okay, that's it. This letter can be regarded as a game between you and me.
As for what the result will be, whether we all know the result or only you know it, it all depends on God.
Your Meng Lei
I thought that she would probably leave something for me, but I never thought that what she would leave behind would be a letter with such content. I had no tears, only endless pain and self-blame. She
Where are you asking God? She obviously wants to know if I care about her and pay attention to her. That night, if I had paid a little attention, I would have found this letter. In that case, none of this would have happened.
Even if I didn't notice the letter that night, if I had noticed it during the initial period after she surrendered, none of this would have happened. But, what was I doing during that time? What was I doing...
"Are you okay?" I didn't know how long I had been sitting in the study, but suddenly I heard Su Hua asking me, which brought me back to reality.
"Su Hua, you bought the food and drinks, right?" I asked.
"Yes. Are you hungry?" she asked.
"I want to drink." I said, then put the letter in my pocket and left the study.
Now she became worried, "Feng Xiao, are you okay?"
"It's okay. Didn't you say you wanted to drink with me? Come on, let's have some drinks." I said, and immediately sat down at the dining table. Then I grabbed a piece of pork belly and ate it, "It tastes good."
She looked at me with suspicion in her eyes, "Feng Xiao, you just stayed in there for so long, did you find anything?"
I did not answer her, but immediately asked her: "Su Hua, do you believe in fate? It is said that a person's fate will be controlled by God."
"I believe." She said, "For example, I always try to do everything well, but the result is a mess. My career is gone and my family is broken up. What about you? Although the family affairs are very unfortunate.
, but you became the deputy director of the department at a young age. The big factor here is that you are a man. There used to be Lao Hu in our department, but something happened to him. If nothing happened to him, the deputy director would
Will it be your turn to get the position? This is fate. Now I have figured it out and just let nature take its course. Alas! I originally wanted to resign, but I was pulled back halfway. I have accepted my fate now."
I am silent.
"Feng Xiao, are you okay? Don't you believe in fate? You said, you and I, you never thought that something like that would happen to us before, but it just happened! What's the saying?
By the way, it's called 'A hundred years of cultivation can lead us to cross the same boat, and a thousand years of cultivation can make us sleep together'. Don't you think that you and I are also a kind of providence?" She looked at me and said, with waves flowing in her eyes.
"Senior sister, please don't talk about that thing, okay? She left today, and all she left me is regret and guilt. Now, I really hate myself. From now on, I will never be like that again.
It used to be like that. Senior sister, what happened that night was something we shouldn't have done." I said, and immediately stood up, "I won't drink anymore. I have to go back right away. I don't want something like this to happen to my current wife again.
By the way, I’ll bring you the money you want tomorrow.” (To be continued)