At this moment, my thoughts began to diverge, and a sad mood soon began to appear in my soul. I thought of the lives I had experienced. Yes, I was very sad at this moment, because I suddenly discovered
Although I have experienced so much, I seem to have been wandering in a strange circle——
I started to awaken to love when I was in middle school, and started to fall in love with Zhao Menglei like crazy. It was this complex that made me never fall in love during the whole period of college and graduate school, because at that time, I
There was a kind of expectation in my heart, and I didn’t want to lose the beautiful expectation in my heart at will. Later, after I started working, I was able to reunite with Zhao Menglei and get married. This was originally a thing to be thankful for, but the ruthless reality
But it cruelly tore apart the beauty in my heart.
Then there is Chen Yuan, my relationship with her has some elements of fantasy in it.
I will always remember the first time I saw her: in that Western restaurant, next to a white piano, a girl with long hair and picturesque eyes was playing there intoxicatedly.
As she played the piano, a string of beautiful notes floated in the air from her long and soft fingers and reached my ears.
At that moment, my soul entered heaven along with those notes. Later, she also became my wife, but she still disappeared from my world, but she left me a son.
There have been many women in my life, but none of them belong to me in the end. After experiencing countless desires and emotional entanglements, I am still single today.
Is this my destiny?
A sad emotion immediately emerged in my heart, but this sad emotion did not last long, because my thoughts went to the women I had. At this moment, I suddenly discovered that I had actually been
I have had so many women... However, I find that I am no longer deeply impressed by many of them.
At this time, I couldn't help but start to think about this question: Was the life I once had interesting?
In fact, in the final analysis, most of the women I have been with have little emotion. To be precise, it was interests that brought us together, and then my desires began to be vented without restraint.
In this endless divergence of thoughts, I fell into sleep unconsciously.
In fact, we are often like this. If we deliberately fight against reality, it will be counterproductive. If we let nature take its course, it will be easier for us to succeed. Just like the process of fighting against insomnia.
When I woke up the next day, I found that I had had a dreamless night, and it was rare that I woke up late. The feeling after getting enough sleep will also make people feel happy, and all the sadness in my thoughts last night is no longer there.
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The next day I took my children to the park to play. This was something I had already planned yesterday. I felt it was very necessary. As a father, I really don’t fulfill much of my responsibilities on weekdays.
When I was going out, my mother whispered to me: "Call Xiao Yu and ask her to take the child to play with you. You are also the father of that child."
Only then did I understand the reason why my mother didn't agree to go to the park with us today. In fact, I know that the reason why my mother, including my father, was able to accept this matter when they were alive was ultimately due to family ties.
I nodded and took the child out of the door. I was thinking in my heart that my mother was right. After all, the child is my flesh and blood. As the saying goes, "blood is thicker than water", no matter what, I should have more.
I should do less responsibility for that child. Although it was the result of a mistake, after all, the mistake had already happened, and the result was already in front of me.
When I drove the car outside the community, I stopped and called Yu Min.
She answered quickly, "Brother Feng..."
I immediately said to her: "I am free today and am going to take my child to the park to play. Can you take your child out? I would like to meet him."
She seemed to be hesitant on the other end of the phone, because she was silent for a long time after I finished speaking, "...Brother Feng, okay then."
I suddenly felt happy, and at the same time I felt a heartfelt gratitude to her, but I still thought of her difficulties, and then asked her: "Isn't he at home today?"
She answered me: "He went on a business trip recently. He is doing sales so he can make more money."
I said: "Oh. Then I'll pick you up."
But she said: "No, where are you going? I'll just come by car."
I didn't know why she refused me to pick her up, but I didn't want to force her too much, so I said, "Let's go to the children's playground. That's a place specifically for children to play."
She said: "Okay. I will bring the child over in a moment."
Then I drove the car slowly out. At this time, I was thinking that after meeting Yu Min later, I would ask her what kind of sales the man did. If possible, I should help them. Or, I would do it again.
Talk to Yu Min and give her and the child some money.
Now I still feel regret for that incident in the past, but Yu Min keeps refusing my compensation, which makes me feel even more regretful and uncomfortable.
I drove the car to the parking lot of the children's paradise and bought the tickets. Then I took my children outside the gate of the children's paradise and waited for Yu Min's arrival.
My son had been looking at the children in the children's playground. When he saw me standing outside the gate with him and not going in, he immediately asked me: "Dad, why don't we go in?"
I immediately explained to him: "Dad is waiting for an aunt, and she also has a child at home. It will be fun for you two children to be together later. Don't you think so?"
The child said: "Oh."
After a while, Yu Min still didn't come. The child had already looked inside several times, and he became very impatient at this time. "Dad, let's go in first. Okay?"
I said: "Wait a little longer, the aunt and the child will be here soon."
The child became a little impatient and immediately asked me: "How long do we have to wait?"
I smiled and said to him: "It's coming soon, it should be soon."
After a while, Yu Min hasn't arrived yet. I guess she encountered a traffic jam or something else. But I was not in a hurry, so I waited patiently for her. But at this time, the child became impatient and shouted loudly.
I shouted, "Dad! I want to go in!"
I hurriedly went to comfort him again, "Son, wait a little longer, we will be there soon. Be obedient. Be good."
But the child suddenly shouted at me, "Dad, you took me out to play, why do you have to wait for other people? We have been waiting for so long! I want to go in right away!"
I hurriedly went to hug him, but he broke away from me. I didn't expect this child to have such a bad temper, but I didn't blame the child. I heard a saying: Most children without mothers have bad tempers. (To be continued)