When I saw the phone number on my phone, I felt ecstatic. I was stunned for a moment. After a few seconds, I suddenly woke up and hurriedly answered the call.
At this moment, I felt my hand on the phone trembling.
The phone was connected, but I couldn't hear her voice... No, there was his breathing on the phone. I heard and felt it.
At this moment, my heart suddenly surged, and an indescribable excitement filled my whole body in an instant. I restrained my excitement and asked her softly on the other end of the phone, "Zhu Dan, are you?"
Are you ok?"
After a brief silence on the phone, her faint voice came, "No..."
My voice suddenly choked up at this moment, "Xiao Dan..."
Her sigh was immediately heard on the other end of the phone, "Smile, I'm fine. Although I like that we can continue, I know this is unlikely. Right?"
I didn't know how to answer her, so I immediately asked her: "I heard that you have lost a lot of weight, right? Xiao Dan, you have to take care of your body."
She said softly: "I know. You don't have to worry about me. I'm fine. Mayor Feng, I have something else to do and I'm working overtime. If you don't have anything else to do, then so be it."
I was stunned for a moment, and immediately felt the indifference and disappointment in her words. My heart suddenly became desolate, "Okay. Xiaodan, I'm sorry for you. If you want to hate me, then hate me."
She didn't answer me and immediately hung up the phone. I knew that this was actually her answer - she was completely and completely disappointed in me.
At this moment, I really wanted to slap myself in the face! I really hated myself and why I took everything now so seriously.
But then I had to ask myself this question: If you were really asked to give up everything you have, would you be willing? Are you willing?
I couldn't help but shake my head. Now, I truly understand what it means to suffer in the world of mortals, and I also understand better that my heart is actually full of desire for power. I have to admit that I am just an ordinary person, and I dream like other ordinary people.
To get ahead. The key to the problem is that I have experienced too many women, so I don’t cherish Zhu Dan like I do now.
This is often the case. I understand the truth, but it is impossible for me to actually do it. Because my inner desire has bound myself, and this desire is pulling on me like an invisible rope.
Going in a certain direction, although I turned around several times, I had no choice but to give up some of the things I once owned. I reluctantly gave up.
In fact, I also understand very well that in the final analysis, life is a process of constant choices. Although many choices will make people very painful, we have to face this pain again and again and make our own choices again and again.
Life is inherently so helpless.
Thinking about this, I slowly started to think about it, and I went to bed and fell asleep. In fact, I know myself. After experiencing so much pain, my nerves have become much tougher than ordinary people, and they are almost numb.
, Otherwise, how could I extricate myself from the pain so quickly?
I returned to the provincial capital on Friday night. Lin Yi was right to criticize me last time, and my mother criticized me in the same way. Now I really should take some time off from my busy schedule to go home and spend time with my children and mother.
The feeling of returning home does make people feel warm and peaceful. After the children and mother went to bed, I went to the study to find a book, and then went to bed and read it slowly. It is easy to calm down at home
, this is actually the power of family warmth.
After reading for a while, I felt tired, and then I was ready to lie down and sleep. But I don’t know why, I was already tired, but I couldn’t fall asleep. When I closed my eyes, I immediately felt inexplicable excitement.
So I opened my eyes and took the book I was reading from the side. But when I started reading, I suddenly found that my eyes were hazy, and sleepiness suddenly rolled over me.
However, when I threw the book aside again and closed my eyes to go to sleep, the excitement that had appeared before suddenly came back inexplicably.
Repeated like this several times.
Later, I just lay on the bed like this. I thought to myself, since I couldn't fall asleep, I just lay like this and let my thoughts wander freely.
I have had insomnia before, and the situation was almost the same as now: tired, but an inexplicable excitement immediately appeared after closing my eyes. In such a situation, a person is most likely to suffer.
, and irritability. The best way is to turn off the lights and let your thoughts fly freely, turning the pain of insomnia into a kind of enjoyment of free thinking.
I don't have anything important planned for tomorrow, so so be it.
However, if you want to deliberately think about it, it will only make people irritated. The only way is to let yourself think about sleep first. In this case, for a person who is already in a state of insomnia, his thoughts will follow.
The excitement spreads very naturally. (To be continued)