In fact, not all marriages are the inevitable result of love, just like marriages are not all the tomb of love. Marriage is actually a kind of responsibility in many cases. For example, at that time, although I felt that Zhao Menglei and I
His marriage was not equal, but I still accepted him without hesitation. In addition to the true love I had for her, there was also a responsibility - it was time for me to get married.
It's time to get married. In the final analysis, this is a responsibility. As human beings, as sons of men, we have the responsibility to pass on our children and grandchildren and allow mankind to multiply. As sons of men, we have the responsibility not to worry our parents.
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Marriage is still an instinctive need. The fundamental attribute of human beings is that of animals. Males need females. This is an instinct.
Therefore, no matter before or now, I no longer regard marriage as so sacred. But it does not mean that I can do whatever I want, because I have another more important responsibility - I can no longer hurt anyone.
Women who like themselves.
Therefore, after I listened to Zhu Dan's words, although I felt very uncomfortable and moved at the same time, I still did not dare to waver in the slightest.
I shook my head and said: "Zhu Dan, I have already told you everything that needs to be said. Although I also like you very much, it is really impossible for us. I told you that my first wife committed suicide.
The two of them became vegetative after giving birth, and eventually left this world. In fact, you don’t know, but later I had a real love again, and it reached the point of talking about marriage, but she still died unexpectedly. Zhu Dan,
You wouldn’t even think that I have dated many women, but as long as they don’t talk about marriage with me, most of them will be fine. Maybe you think this is superstitious, but in fact I felt the same way at the beginning, because I am a student
Medical people should not believe in such things. But later facts told me that some things can only be explained by superstition. Zhu Dan, I have always disagreed with you because I like you. I can't take your life.
Make a bet. Maybe you think we can give it a try, or even think that it doesn't matter if something goes wrong, but have you thought about your parents? Have you thought about my feelings? "
I spoke softly and slowly. When I reached the end, my voice became choked with sobs, because the words I just said had touched my heart. But she opposite me had already...
Already starting to cry.
I continued: "Zhu Dan, I really can't imagine if something unexpected happens to you after we get married. If that's the case, maybe I will never be at peace again in this life. You are still young and should have your own
Life. So I wish you the best and wish you find the man you like."
Tears fell from her eyes, and she whispered to me: "But, he is not the man I like..."
I shook my head, "Zhu Dan, I don't think this is the most important thing. He likes you, right?"
She nodded, tears still falling.
I said to her softly: "There are not so many perfect things in this world, including the so-called love. There are not many such marriages between two people who love each other and then get married. In this case, why can't we retreat?
Secondly? That's what people often say: If you can't find the person you love, why not find someone who loves you? Zhu Dan, that man likes you, and he is very rich and can provide you with a wealthy life.
Life. Isn’t this enough? Think about it, how many girls in this world can have such a marriage and a future?"
She didn't speak. I knew that in fact, that was what she was thinking in her heart, but she was still a little unwilling to do so.
I said: "Zhu Dan, but I still have to give you a suggestion: No matter how prosperous your life will be in the future, you must have your own career. Only women who can support themselves can withstand any setbacks and are more likely to win over men."
respect."
She whispered, choked with sobs, "Yeah."
I looked at her and said to her sincerely: "Zhu Dan, I wish you happiness."
She blushed, "Then, will you come to our wedding?"
I shook my head, "Probably not. Isn't it the same now that I wish you the same?"
She looked at me with sorrow in her eyes, "I understand, and I believe what you just said. You really like me. Thank you, Brother Feng."
I didn’t want to talk to her about this kind of thing anymore, because such a topic would only make people sad and painful. I said, “What do you want to eat? Let’s order.”
She nodded slightly, "Whatever. I want to drink some wine."
I glanced at her and found that her mood was very abnormal. I said, "Then let's each have a steak. Then some vegetarian dishes and a bottle of red wine. How about that?"
She said calmly: "Yeah."
However, when the wine and food were served, she remained motionless, and she had no reaction when I offered her a toast. Now I felt a little overwhelmed, "Zhu Dan, what's wrong with you?"
She shook her head slightly, "I don't want to eat it."
I asked her tentatively: "How about we go eat something else?"
She said: "I want to eat hot pot. I want it to be very spicy."
I hurriedly said: "Okay. Let's go now."
Immediately, I called the waiter to come over and pay the bill. At this time, I suddenly heard Zhu Dan saying to me quietly: "Why are you so nice to me?"
I was stunned for a moment, then sighed and said, "Let's go."
In fact, some of what Zhu Dan said to me before really touched my heart. I have always felt that our first time came too suddenly. In other words, it was too easy for me to get her. This is not a matter of getting too much.
It’s not a matter of not cherishing it easily, but in my heart I feel that this is not normal. Just think about it, she is such a beautiful woman, and she is also an announcer on a TV station, why does she come to sleep with me so easily? Yes
, she did have something to ask me for at that time, but what did it mean that she used that method? It showed that she was very casual in such matters.
Of course, that kind of thought can only exist in my heart. Because of this, I bought a lot of things for her at the beginning. My idea at that time was very simple, that is, to put the relationship between me and her
Treat the relationship as a transaction, hoping that this way will not cause trouble for yourself.
Later, I slowly felt that she seemed to have some true feelings for me, because her desire to marry me should be real. What does it mean for a woman to marry a man? That means she will spend her whole life
Deliver it to me!
But I couldn't accept her. At first it was because of Secretary Chen, but later I felt that I shouldn't give up everything for her, because she didn't reach that level of importance in my mind. Even today, I still
I was explaining to her using reasons that were not entirely true.
In fact, I don’t completely believe in the so-called fate. Zhao Menglei, Chen Yuan, and later Shangguanqin encountered misfortune. This was a huge shock to me, but it also made me seem to believe in myself for a period of time.
There was something wrong with my horoscope, but then I couldn’t help but think, there are so many women who have relationships with me, aren’t most of them good? Yu Min also gave birth to a child for me. Also, Liu Meng didn’t
Are you talking about marriage with me? Isn’t she dead too? It can be seen that the problem is not with me, but the result determined by their own fate.
Also, since Zhu Dan and I got together, I always felt that she was not passionate enough and gentle enough towards me. I always thought that I was overthinking it. Later I understood: she knew that she and I were
There is no possibility of marriage between us, so I dare not invest too much in her feelings for me.
And now I completely understand that she has indeed been trying her best to hide her emotions. At the same time, I also understand now that this time, like her last time, she hopes to have one last time.
Chance.
But, can I continue our relationship with her?
It's definitely not possible. It's still the same problem. I can give up Ruan Jie and all other women, but what about Lin Yu?
Moreover, now that Zhu Dan has found her destination, why should I get involved again? You know, her current boyfriend should be someone with a certain background, and maybe there will be some problems between him and me because of this.
Friction. Now is the most critical period for me. At this time, I don't want to cause any scandal.
In a period like this, any situation that is detrimental to me is very likely to be fatal. I know this very well. (To be continued)