I took medicine specifically for headaches, as well as antibiotics. This immediately relieved my headache, but my throat was still sore, but it was enough for me to fall asleep again.
But what I didn't expect was that after entering sleep, the previous dream would still continue -
I was lying on the bed with my head wrapped in thick gauze. When I opened my eyes, I found Tong Yao in front of me. She looked at me with soft eyes, "Feng Xiao, it's okay."
I still remember what happened when I jumped from the building. At this moment, I knew that I survived the catastrophe, and that it was Tong Yao who brought me to such a secret place. I said nothing and struggled to get up from the bed.
She asked me: "Where do you want to go?"
I said, "I can't hurt you. I'll find a place to hide myself."
She said quietly: "Now that you are dead, where do you want to go? You are staying in a hotel and you don't have your ID card. If you are recognized by an acquaintance, you will be caught. I will send you to my relative's house in another place.
No one will know you there, so just spend your whole life there."
I shook my head, "I can't hurt you. I'm going to Inner Mongolia, to Tibet, to a place where no one knows me."
She immediately laughed, "You will also be caught in a place like that. Many criminals used to hide in places like that, but now such places have long been noticed by the public security department."
I was stunned for a moment and said, "Then I will sneak across the border and go abroad."
She said: "Do you think it is so easy to cross the border? There are patrols all over the border. Where there are no patrols, there are packs of wild wolves. If you go to such a place, you will die."
My heart suddenly felt sad: I didn't expect that I was now at a point of desperation, and that my career and children had all become things that were far away from me.
I woke up in such desolation. It was already bright outside the window, and I found myself sobbing. Maybe it was because of my dream, and the extreme sadness and disappointment in the dream that made me wake up. At this time, my
The emotions are still clouded by the scene in the dream.
My head no longer hurts, and the swelling and pain in my throat are not as severe as they were in the middle of the night. But my mood is extremely bad, so I don't want to get up.
I was thinking about the dream I had last night, and I was analyzing why something like that appeared in my subconscious -
Obviously, in my subconscious mind, Baby Liu was definitely not the candidate for my future wife. In the dream, I actually killed her because Baby Liu turned into a snake in my dream. Snakes represent desire.
I hate her subconsciously because she brings out my inner desires.
I have experienced a lot of women. In my dream, when I was falling downstairs, I saw the women who had appeared and owned me in my life, and their deaths were more or less inevitable.
It has something to do with my desires. Therefore, I am afraid in my heart that my desires will harm others and myself again.
Analyzing myself from my own dreams, I found that I was extremely selfish. I clearly knew that my behavior of jumping off the building would be a huge harm to Tong Yao, because if I did that, she would definitely lose her job and career.
However, for the sake of relief, I chose that without hesitation.
However, my second dream made me correct my selfishness. But Tong Yao is always so good to me in my heart. Now I completely understand that in my heart, Tong Yao is the best to me.
woman.
It's a pity that she can't be mine.
In addition, my dream also expressed a fear deep in my heart. I felt that desire might make me perish, lose everything I have, and die without a burial place.
I really couldn't sleep, and my mood was still affected by last night's dream. After I got up, I took a shower. My mother had already prepared breakfast. During the meal, my mother asked me if I still had a headache. I shook my head and said, "It's okay."
The mother sighed and said: "You are still young now and have good resistance. What will you do when you get older in the future? Find a wife as soon as possible. Children also need maternal love."
I didn't say anything and just ate my food.
My mother should stop nagging me. She should understand the helplessness I feel.
After dinner, I took my child out to play. I asked my child, "Where do you want to play?"
The child said: "It's okay, as long as dad you don't be with other adults. You do this every time. You take me to dinner, and then you adults talk there, and I feel so depressed when I'm there."
I couldn't help but laugh: this child really talks like a little adult. I said: "Okay, it's just the two of us today. How about I drive you to the riverside to play, and then we go to KFC for lunch.
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The child suddenly became happy and cheered. I found that the child looked more and more like Chen Yuan, and his skin was very fair, but his hair was a little fluffy. Seeing the child's happy face, I felt a little sad in my heart.
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I told my mother that we would not go home for lunch, and then drove out with my children. First in the center of the city, I introduced the distinctive buildings to my children one by one, and more importantly, I told my children about the origins of those ancient buildings. My children
He was born here and now he has grown up. I think we should let our children understand the city they live in. This should be of great help to their education.
Then I drove to the river and drove slowly along the river. There was a ship passing by on the river, and the child said to me: "Dad, I haven't been on a ship yet. Can you take me there sometime?"
I smiled and asked him: "You have already flown on a plane, do you remember?"
He nodded, "Remember. I've been on airplanes several times. It's not fun to fly. You can't walk around. You can only sleep there. It's very annoying."
I couldn't help but laugh. At this moment, I suddenly remembered that time Shi Yanni almost took him out of the country again, and I couldn't help but feel a little scared.
After driving forward for a while, I suddenly saw the ferry on the edge of the pier. I immediately said to my child, "Shall we take the ferry now?"
The child was immediately overjoyed. I felt very guilty: As a father, I have failed to do many things well. This child is like a bird in a cage. If this continues, it will definitely be detrimental to his future education.
After the car stopped, we walked for more than ten minutes to the pier. I haven't been to this place for a long time. I remember coming here with my classmates when I was in college. The other side of the river is part of the old city, with mountains behind it.
That place is the city’s Forest Park. I once took a ferry with my classmates to visit the other side.
Those things in the past seem to have happened not long ago, and they are so kind to me now. However, after all, nearly ten years have passed, and my children have grown so old, and in these ten years, I have
I have experienced too much, too much.
Sometimes I often think that maybe the lives of my classmates over the years have not been as complicated as mine, but they are definitely happier than me. Of course, I am definitely the highest-ranking person among my college classmates, but I am by no means
The happiest person, on the contrary, my heart was probably hurt more than any of them.
Today, I came here with my children, maybe for memories. There are many people taking the ferry. Maybe some of them like me are here for memories, or maybe just for travel, but this old ferry is still the youth of many Jiangnan people.
An integral part of memory.
In the ever-flowing river, and in the passage of time, the old ferry connects the two sides of the river, traveling through the time and space of the past and present. (To be continued)