However, in the following time, I was once again kidnapped by busy business. I was so busy with all kinds of things that needed to be handled personally throughout the day that I didn't take my marriage problem to my heart at all.
Until one day I met Su Wen.
That day, after get off work in the afternoon, I took my secretary and driver to stroll around the streets as before, and ended up meeting Su Wen in the city's business district.
However, when I saw her this time, her hand was wrapped in the arm of a man of similar age to her. When she saw me, her face suddenly turned red and she hurriedly took her hand away from the man beside her.
The arm was pulled out.
I don’t know why, but at this moment, I felt a sense of loss in my heart. Then I understood: I still missed such a good woman.
In fact, I also know that the reason why I didn't choose her in the first place was because of Secretary Chen. At that time, Secretary Chen had a good impression of her and put pressure on her more than once. But she refused, although not so much.
Thoroughly. Maybe in my heart, what I really care about is her incomplete rejection. I am a man, and I cannot accept the wavering of women in temptation. This may be due to traditional concepts, and more should
It's a lack of confidence.
Although my own life was so bohemian, as a man, I am completely chauvinistic on this issue, so I rarely think about issues from a female perspective. This is actually a kind of selfishness - men can do that
, but women cannot.
But I am still not confident. How can a person who is not confident in himself in this regard believe that a woman can keep her integrity? If I get married to a woman in the future, but she cheats on me, it will cost me my face.
Where to put it?
At this time, the feeling of regret in my heart came instantly, but it disappeared all of a sudden. Because I knew in my heart that this woman should never belong to me, and she had already reached the age where she should have a boyfriend.
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I smiled at Su Wen and the man next to her, "Hello, we are so affectionate. When can I have your wedding wine?"
It was obvious that the man next to her knew me, because he immediately greeted me, "Mayor Feng, do you also like shopping?"
Su Wen said hurriedly: "What question are you asking? Mayor Feng likes to come out to investigate public sentiment in his free time. Many people know about this. What are you talking about?"
The man next to her smiled awkwardly at me.
I knew he was nervous. I smiled and said, "It's not to check public opinion, I'm just out to hang out. By the way, Director Su, please introduce your boyfriend."
Su Wen's face turned red again, "His name is Li Sansi, and he is our teacher at Shangjiang City No. 1 Middle School."
I immediately stretched out my hand to this man and said, "Hello, Teacher Li. People's teacher, I used to be a teacher too. We are peers."
He smiled and nodded: "I know. But you used to be a university teacher, and I can't compare with you."
I smiled and said: "University teachers are also teachers, no different from middle school or primary school teachers. Okay, let's go for a walk in front and won't disturb the intimacy between the two of you. Haha!"
Su Wen's face turned red again, but she still said to me openly: "Mayor Feng, go and do your work. Are you free tomorrow? I want to report to you about my work."
I smiled at her and said, "Maybe not tomorrow. Well, Xiao Xu will let you know when the time comes. If the matter is not urgent, try to arrange it later."
She said quickly: "It's not urgent. Let's talk about it when you have time."
I nodded, and immediately turned to my secretary and said, "Remember this matter, and remember to inform Director Su when I am free."
Xiao Xu agreed repeatedly.
Then I took them and left. I didn't lie to Su Wen. I have been too busy recently. So many things in the city are pressing on me alone, and I feel that there is not enough time every day. Although I don't care about many specific things.
However, the following issues asked by the deputy mayors need to be solved by me one by one, and I have to make a decision or find a way to deal with many large-scale project issues.
Even now, I go out for a walk not only to rest, but also to understand the people's sentiments, and to take a look at the progress of some projects. At the same time, I can also discover some problems that have arisen in urban construction. Also,
In this way, it can also inspire some of my inspirations. In urban construction, many problems need to be seen from the scene, and it is easy to be biased when talking about pictures.
After leaving Su Wen and her boyfriend, I felt a little sad in my heart: Su Wen is now the director, but her boyfriend is just an ordinary teacher. This man's status in the family may be very low in the future. From now on.
The situation when Su Wen criticized him just now illustrates the problem.
But I think the two of them are a good match. The man has a good temperament and seems to have a gentler personality. As a couple, one strong and one weak is the best match.
Now, the feeling of loss just now is gone. On the contrary, I am really happy for Su Wen.
Each of us has our own destiny, and marriage is a part of each of us. My previous two destinations were failures and very miserable. No, it is not me who is miserable, but Zhao Menglei, Chen Yuan, and Shangguan
Qin.
For a long time recently, I tried my best to stop myself from thinking about such things, because it would only make me feel guilty and sad.
But now, when I saw Su Wen and her boyfriend together, the longing for a sense of belonging in my heart suddenly emerged. I said to myself: You should also find another woman to get married.
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The sense of belonging is the psychological need of each of us, because each of our souls needs to be comforted. There is no gender distinction in this issue. Each of us is actually lonely, starting from the time we came into this world.
We come into this world alone. Although we will have our own parents, and some of us will have brothers and sisters, as we grow older, our relatives will eventually move away from us. Even if we get married and have children,
They will still stay away from themselves one day, and then enter the darkness alone, or it is an unknown world in the darkness. No one will walk with us, and we will only face loneliness.
Because of this, each of us will often feel lonely and helpless. Even if it is the person closest to us, even if we live together, we will still have conflicts and mutual misunderstanding. Therefore, loneliness
Feelings will accompany us throughout our lives.
But we always long for comfort deep in our hearts. In fact, our marriage is not just a personal need, but more of a responsibility. (To be continued)