In fact, as far as this matter is concerned, I have another thought in my mind:
Even if I agree to Su Wen, establish that kind of relationship with her, and even get married and live together in the future, can I give her happiness? The endings of my previous two wives make me afraid to be sure about this matter.
Maybe, this will actually harm her. To be precise, this is the real and biggest concern in my heart.
Still the same sentence: Sometimes a person's destiny really cannot be changed.
I don't have that kind of emotion for her, so I don't want to take responsibility for her.
Governor Wang did not come back at noon, so a group of us had a casual meal in the office. However, Governor Wang was not here, so we had to pay for the meal.
After arriving in Beijing this time, I hesitated: Should I call Qu Jin? She told me last time that I must contact her when I go to Japan. But what Zhuang Qing said last time, and what I said recently
Falling caused a kind of fear in my heart, so after much hesitation, I decided not to contact her.
After dinner just after noon, when I returned to the room and was preparing to rest, I suddenly received a call from Leng Rushuang. Originally I didn't want to answer the call, but I knew that not answering the call might cause more trouble. Women are in trouble.
It always gives me a headache when I wake up.
"When are you leaving?" she asked me.
Fortunately, she didn't talk about what happened last night. I breathed a sigh of relief secretly. I replied: "Just this afternoon."
She continued to ask: "What time is it?"
I didn't understand what she meant, "We'll go to the airport at six o'clock in the afternoon. We need to have dinner in advance."
She said: "Great. I've booked a room in a five-star hotel not far from your office in Beijing. Can you come over right away? You left like that yesterday. It's so irresponsible."
I suddenly panicked, thinking that I was in trouble now. I hurriedly said: "It will definitely not work today. We were all drunk yesterday, and I didn't treat you...Mr. Leng, let's stop here, we are all drunken criminals."
I made a mistake, please forgive me."
But she was not angry, but smiled, "I don't want you to be responsible, what are you afraid of? You are really different, I took the initiative, but you refused. You are not giving me face, aren't you? I am
A woman, and she is confident that she is not ugly.”
I still refused: "Mr. Leng, this is not good. I'm sorry, I did drink too much yesterday."
She was still smiling, "I know you like Zhuang Qing and Qu Jin. I can't guarantee Zhuang Qing, but I can ask Qu Jin to come to my place to serve the guests. Of course, she can also serve you. How about it?
Do you want me to call Qu Jin here now?"
I felt even more uneasy, but I felt that the way she used this method could not make me agree to her right away. On the contrary, it made me even more disgusted with her. I smiled and said: "Mr. Leng, that is your business. I and I
They just know each other, that's all."
She said: "Then why did you do something like that to me yesterday? I am a woman. You have seen my body and touched it. You have also touched such places. If you don't want to do it, you won't do it."
Did you do it? I didn’t ask to marry you, so what are you worried about?"
I immediately felt that this woman was unreasonable and strange. But I knew I couldn’t contradict her anymore. After all, I was an official. Women are sometimes unreasonable and might make things worse. If it really happened,
If that happened, I would have died unjustly. I hurriedly said: "Mr. Leng, do you know why I did that yesterday? It's because I respect you. I don't want to taint you, because I respect you so much."
Many years of perseverance. Mr. Leng, you should find a suitable person to get married again. Once a person lets something like this go, it will never be taken back. Mr. Leng, I am doing this for your own good, don’t you understand?
?”
She was silent for a moment... After a few seconds, she hung up the phone.
Leng Rushuang didn't call me again. I understood that this was because my respect for her won her understanding. She opened the private club just to make money, or to have something to do, or for other reasons.
Purpose, such as career or something. But she has always been able to stick to it.
The problem this time was with me. I aroused the desire deep in her heart. It is normal for a person to have desires, and they should be respected. Now I also understand that she needs such respect in her heart.
In fact, each of us needs respect from others, and if we always pay attention to respecting others, it will be easy to win their friendship.
At six o'clock in the afternoon, Tanaka Kazuo came to our office in Beijing. He went to the airport with us. He was accompanied by several other Japanese people. Tanaka was very polite, so polite that it made people feel tired.
In fact, I know why this is, because Tanaka takes this event very seriously and pays attention to every detail according to their Japanese etiquette.
There is one thing that makes me very happy: they sent a transfer to serve Governor Wang. Of course he is a man. The Japanese pay great attention to details.
The plane took off at eight o'clock in the evening, and it was already close to midnight when it arrived in Tokyo. The Japanese side had already arranged a convoy of cars at the airport, all of which were Japanese cars.
They directly took us to a five-star hotel to stay. Governor Wang stayed in a suite, and I stayed in a single room. The others stayed in one room or two people in a room according to their levels.
I always get excited when I go to a new place, and it was the same when I went to Japan this time. I tossed and turned in bed for a long time and couldn't fall asleep, which made me feel extremely painful.
I don’t know when I fell asleep later, but I just kept dreaming in a daze.
I dreamed that I was with Su Wen, and she held my arm and walked in a city at night. Later, I don’t know why, but she turned into Chenchen next to me, and the scene in my dream came to Jiangnan.
On the street, during the day, there was a flow of people all around, and her body was tightly leaning on me.
We walked through the streets and alleys, and then entered a shopping mall together, then a vegetable market, and finally went to a beautifully decorated house. I was still secretly wondering: When did we get married?
When I woke up in the morning, these dreams were still vivid in my mind, but I already understood in my heart that what I really cared about deep down in my heart was Chenchen. Su Wen, she may have entered my heart, but she only