The old man shook his head and said: "Who knows? I think he may still not be relieved of his knot, because he knows that once the exhibition hall officially opens, he must come back.
Maybe he had an impulse at the beginning and really wanted to come back, but later he still couldn't convince himself. Of course, these are just speculations, but this is no longer important.
If a person can never get out of the shadow of the past, he will not be able to go far in the future. Although his position is very important now, his level is not high. I think this is basically the end of his life.
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Having said this, the old man came to look at me and said, "Xiao Feng, you have to remember what I said: the broader a person's mind is, the further he can see, and he may be able to go further in the future. It's the same sentence
, the most difficult thing for a person to defeat is actually ourselves."
His words shocked me, because I have never really come out of my past, so I keep making those old mistakes.
Therefore, I have a deeper understanding of what he said: It is really difficult for a person to truly defeat himself.
Now, I suddenly remembered the last time Director Hou and I met in Jiangbei Province. I suddenly felt that Mr. Liu’s analysis was correct. At that time, he had already arrived on the edge of our Jiangnan Province but still had not come back. This is indeed
It explains the problem very well.
Moreover, I think Director Hou’s life is very chaotic. Not only does he often hang out in that private club, he even has incidents with models there. And I have already felt that his problem is not just about life.
The problem of indiscretion and probably many financial problems. The fact that he asked me for that thing this time fully illustrates the problem.
Therefore, I think it is better to stay away from him. Because I know that for a person in his position, it will be a matter of time before something happens in the future, and I don’t want to be implicated in the future.
There is also the female owner of the private club. She and her private club may be a huge temptation for me.
Now, I feel very lucky because I successfully refused the temptation of Leng Rushuang.
However, I was able to refuse her temptation, but I easily had a relationship with the female soldier named Shen Bingbing. This was just because I had a clearer understanding of weighing the degree of harm to myself.
At this point, I once again became aware of my emotional and intellectual fragility.
And even now, I still feel a sense of loneliness in my heart.
I know that all the mistakes I have made in my personal life from the past to the present are caused by this feeling of loneliness.
At this time, I kept telling myself: From now on, you must endure loneliness and overcome your indulgence in desire.
But at this moment, my cell phone rang, and the call was from Su Wen, "Mayor Feng, are you back? I want to come and talk to you about something."
Now that she is the office director of our Jiangnan Provincial Office in Beijing, of course she knows that I have returned. You know, she sent the driver today.
Obviously, this was not a request, but a hope.
My heart that had finally calmed down finally started to falter because of this phone call. I knew that she already knew that I was in the room now, and there was nothing special going on.
It was impossible for me to refuse under such circumstances. After all, she was a lesbian, and I would need her help with many things in the future. So, I immediately agreed with a sigh in my heart, "You can do it."
She arrived quickly. After she came in, she smiled and asked me: "Mayor Feng, do you have anything else? I won't delay you for anything, right?"
I smiled and said, "It's okay, I'm reading a book."
She then asked me again: "Are you used to living here? If you need anything, just tell me."
I laughed without saying anything, "It seems that you are very adaptable here. Now you have completely entered a new role. Haha! Please take a seat. The conditions here are very good, better than staying in a hotel."
She immediately laughed, "How can this place compare with those five-star hotels?"
I also laughed, "Why can't we compare? At least this place is warmer and sanitary than a five-star hotel. Even the conditions are not much different. Otherwise, why would the leaders of our province like to live here?"
At this time, I suddenly thought in my heart: Didn't she come to me to talk about something now? Why is she always chatting with me? So, I immediately asked her: "Xiao Su, didn't you say there is something wrong?"
Do you want to tell me something? Just tell me, it just so happens that I don’t have anything special to do today."
But she shook her head and said: "I have nothing to do. I just thought that you live here alone and Director Wu has not come back yet, so I came to talk to you for a while."
I immediately understood that she was worried that I would be lonely here alone. She is a very careful woman, and now I can predict that her future will definitely not be too bad in the future.
But I was still very worried about her, because I would always think of Wu Shuang. But on the other hand, I thought, now that Wu Shuang is the county magistrate after all, her personal goal has been achieved anyway.
At this time, I suddenly realized something: I was worrying about all this for her in vain. It’s Wu Shuang. Maybe she thinks everything she has done is worth it, and maybe I am the only one who thinks it is not worth it.
.Because I am a man, I always use a man’s eyes to measure things like that.
Therefore, for some things, the key to the problem is not how others judge it, but whether a person thinks it is worth it.
Therefore, this is still a problem for Su Wen. If she feels that it is worthwhile for her to do such a thing, others do not need to worry about her at all, and they cannot control her. Unless she does not want to do it herself.
But then again, if she doesn't want to in the future, she can choose to leave like the others before her, it's not a big deal.
Now it seems that Lin Yu was right when he criticized me for being nosy.
Thinking of this, I felt relieved and my mood suddenly became relaxed. I smiled and said to her: "Thank you, Xiao Su. I know that your current work is not so leisurely. If you have other
work, then you should go and do your own thing.
I know you thought of coming to talk to me for a while because I used to be your leader. You are so polite, I am very grateful.
You go and do your work. It’s good for me to live here. I’ll rest after reading for a while. Tomorrow we have to meet Governor Wang and the others. By the way, have the room and car been arranged for tomorrow?” (To be completed.)