"You mean, we will never have that kind of relationship from now on?" Her voice was a little silent.
I felt a little uncomfortable in my heart, because I was really sorry for her in this matter. But I still forced myself to harden my heart and said to her: "Yes. Ruan Jie, I'm sorry."
But she immediately said to me again: "You know, I will not affect your future family." Then, her voice became softer, "I, I can't live without you."
I can completely understand her feelings for me, and the discomfort in my heart suddenly increased a lot. I know that all this is my fault. Once a woman feels dependent on a man, if she wants to
She left immediately. This was not an easy thing to do, and it was even more cruel.
But when I think about Chenchen, the trust and hope she has re-established in me, and my future life, I have to make a decision, not to mention that I have to face Lin Yu next, so Ruan Jie’s
I must put an end to the matter from now on.
I said to her softly: "Ruan Jie, I'm sorry, I can't do that. I was single before, and so were you, so it's okay for us to maintain that kind of relationship. But from now on, I can't do that anymore. You are a woman, so you should
I understand that if we continue like this, it will cause great harm to my girlfriend, and it will not be good for me or you. Ruan Jie, you should find someone who can really live with you, and take advantage of your current conditions.
It was a very good time.”
She was silent again, and after a while I heard her say: "Okay."
There was a sadness in her voice, and I heard her choking. I hung up the phone immediately and found myself crying.
At this moment, I no longer have the confidence to call Lin Yu. Now I deeply understand how difficult it is for a person to truly say goodbye to the past.
I lay on the bed and started thinking about how to talk to Lin Yu. Now, I don't dare to think about Ruan Jie's mood at the moment. In fact, I should know it even if I don't think about it.
However, I have thought about it for a long time, but I still can't think of a better way. I once thought that if I could really meet someone worthy of giving up, I would go out of my way to like him, no matter what. But now
Only then did I realize that this matter was not that simple and innocent, because it was still full of emotions. I could give up everything for Chenchen, but I couldn't bear to hurt them.
But I know that I must go through that level. I must! But now I need some time, I have to give myself more courage.
In the next few days, I have been busy in Shangjiang City preparing for some work before leaving. I don’t know who will succeed me at the moment, so I have to continue to do the things at hand one by one.
The arrangements are being implemented. I will try my best to avoid the banquets that I can, and I will have a phone call with Chenchen every night.
Chenchen's matter has been settled, and the director of the Provincial Education Commission has personally handled her matter, so the matter is no longer a big deal.
I asked Chenchen and she was very satisfied with her current job. She said to me: "Those children are so cute. And I found that they especially like my music class. Now I feel so satisfied."
Although the content of each of our phone calls is very dull, it always fills my heart with warmth and happiness. Only now do I realize how much I have longed for such a thing. Now, Chenchen has given me
Such a beautiful feeling, my heart is filled with endless gratitude to her.
The power of the spirit is endless. Recently, I have always felt that my body is full of endless energy.
Now, I feel that the courage deep inside me is growing, and I have decided to have a good talk with Lin Yu this weekend.
One night, I called Zhuang Qing and told her that I was in love. In fact, I made this call after thinking about it for a long time. I didn’t want to take away what happened between me and Chenchen.
I talk about it everywhere, but the current situation forces me to do it again.
The purpose of my doing this is very simple. First, I want to tell them that my new life has begun and the past is over. Second, I also need to use this method to break myself from the past.
Among all the women in my past, Zhuang Qing and I have a very special relationship. We have real feelings for each other, and we have the longest relationship. But she has never put any pressure on me. To be honest,
When I thought about completely severing that relationship with her from now on, I really felt a sense of reluctance in my heart. This was also the root cause of the hesitation in my heart.
But now I know very clearly in my heart that the relationship between me and her has reached the point where it must be completely ended. I must give up the reluctance in my heart. I must!
So, I called Zhuang Qing after I figured this out.
After the call got through, I didn't tell her directly about my current situation, but asked her how it was now. She smiled and asked me, "What's wrong with you? You seemed to rarely ask me such things before.
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I smiled and said, "Really? I'm sorry, it seems I didn't care enough about you before."
She also laughed, "I'm already that old, and you're not familiar with our industry. You can't care."
I immediately felt that she is completely different now than before. It seems that this should be what people often call "queen style". In the final analysis, this is a manifestation of her extreme confidence in herself. If it is not enough, she should have such confidence.
, after all, she is now considered a first-line star in the entertainment industry. I smiled and said: "Okay, I won't ask you about your work from now on. Zhuang Qing, I would like to ask you: Are you prepared to always be like this?
Are you going to stay single?"
She immediately asked me: "Feng Xiao, what happened to you today? Why are you asking me this question again? Just tell me directly, what exactly did you want to say to me when you called me today? What should I do?
Do you think you are acting a little weird today?"
She is sensitive, just like other women. I thought to myself. Then I told her, "Zhuang Qing, I have a girlfriend. I think it's okay for me to be single all the time. That's okay."
It’s not good for my children, my own life and work. I’m calling you today just to tell you about this. At the same time, I also hope that you can find someone who suits you as soon as possible. After all, your age is not good.
Not too small."
She immediately asked me: "Really? Are you really in love? Who is it? Can you tell me?"
Before, she told me that if I really fell in love, she would no longer maintain that kind of relationship with me. Judging from the tone of her words at this time, she didn't seem to have any jealousy. From this, I couldn't help but think:
Doesn’t she have any feelings for me? You know, when I learned that she had that kind of relationship with a certain man, I still had an uncomfortable feeling in my heart. (To be continued)