Just now, when Chenchen asked to eat pickled pepper rabbit, I suddenly thought of Zhuang Qinglai. Now I suddenly realize that it seems that it will never be possible to truly avoid the past in my life.
We quickly arrived outside the community, and the restaurant was still open. We ordered a pickled pepper rabbit and a vegetarian dish. In fact, she didn't eat much, and I knew she just wanted to be alone with me.
I asked her: "Are you still suffering from stomach pain?"
She shook her head, "Much better."
I said: "I guess it's because you used to drink in music bars every day, so not many people's stomachs can bear it."
She said: "I actually drank very little at that time. When you came, I drank a few drinks with you. For everyone else, I drank No. 2 drinks, which looked like beer."
I asked in surprise: "What is drink No. 2?"
She smiled and answered me: "It's just Coke with vinegar. It tastes pretty good."
I laughed and said, "I've had it before. It turns out it's called drink No. 2. Chenchen, I know the reason for your stomachache. Maybe your stomach acid is a little high to begin with, but you are jealous every day, so of course it will get worse."
She glared at me and said, "You are jealous every day. Haha! I know, no wonder my stomach doesn't hurt much now."
I smiled and said, "Well, recently I went to prescribe you some medicine to suppress gastric acid secretion. Now it's better. I just need to find the cause of your stomach pain."
I deliberately diverted the topic because I was worried that the "jealous" topic just now would make her sensitive again.
After we went back in the evening and took a shower, we each went back to our rooms to rest. I had just fallen asleep when I heard someone knocking on the door. I thought to myself, could it be Chenchen?
But when I got up and opened the door, I found my mother standing outside. I asked in surprise: "Mom, what can I do for you? It's so late."
My mother pointed to Chenchen's room and asked me in a low voice: "You two have been sleeping together for so long, why are you still sleeping separately?"
I couldn't laugh or cry, "Mom, why do you care about these things?"
The mother said: "Chenchen is a very good child, please don't let her go."
I hurriedly said: "I know. Just because she is very good, I should cherish her more. Okay, Mom, I know what to do. You can rest early."
My mother sighed and left. After I returned to the room and lay on the bed, I suddenly thought: Do we really want to have that first thing with her?
No, it can't be like that. There have been so many women in my life, and I know very well that in modern society, some things are not the basis for maintaining a relationship, and some things must be done naturally before they can be done.
Especially for me, only in that way can I know how to cherish it. The last time I went to Beijing has fully demonstrated that my cherishing Chenchen is far from enough. Otherwise, why would I not restrain myself in that situation?
Live on your own?
I couldn't fall asleep while lying in bed, and I knew why - the image of Udonmei I saw today kept popping up in my mind.
But I also understand in my heart that this is not because I still have feelings for her, let alone a broken connection, but because I care about her from the bottom of my heart.
I was thinking to myself: There must be a reason why she is like that now.
But she didn't call me today, or even send a text message. So I thought to myself, this means she doesn't need my help. If that's the case, then why should I think about this matter?
Maybe she suddenly wants to lose weight. Isn’t there a saying that goes like this? Weight loss is an eternal topic for women.
When I thought about it this way, I immediately felt at ease. I no longer had any worries in my heart, and falling asleep became a very natural thing.
I woke up early the next morning and after washing up, I heard Chenchen calling me, "Let's go for a run."
I hurriedly said: "Have you not bought sportswear yet?"
She said: "Starting from today, I have to run even without sportswear! And Yuanyuan, I will take him running every morning from now on."
My heart suddenly felt warm and moved...
This morning, Chenchen and I started running in the community with our children. After half an hour, I couldn't bear it anymore and felt very tired. Later, when I got home, my whole body started to feel weak, and I was still sweating after taking a shower.
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Chenchen said to me: "Look at your weak body, you need to exercise more in the future."
After breakfast, Chenchen and the children played the piano for a while. I also took the opportunity to lie on the bed and rest for a while, and then I felt more comfortable.
After nine o'clock, Chenchen came and asked me to go shopping. Yesterday she told me that she was going to buy sportswear today. I asked her: "Where should we go after buying clothes?"
She said: "Didn't you say you were going to the suburbs?"
I smiled and said, "Okay, let's go to the suburbs. So, you can be the driver today."
At this time, the child came in and asked us: "Where are you going? I want to go too."
I said, "Just stay at home, we have something to do."
The child looked very disappointed, but he did not persist. Although the child was young, he was very sensible. But his appearance at this time made me feel guilty.
Chenchen said with a smile: "Take him there, don't you also want to buy him sportswear? Buy the clothes and send him back."
I nodded, "Okay."
The child immediately became happy and hugged Chenchen immediately, "Aunt Chenchen, you are so kind."
When I saw my child's happiness, I felt very guilty.
In fact, I originally wanted to take the child out, but I was worried that Chenchen would be unhappy. Now it seems that I was completely wrong. Chenchen likes this child, and the child also likes her very much, which makes me very happy.
In fact, I know very well that many stepmothers in divorced families are not good to their children. In the final analysis, it is because the father has a problem. Now I suddenly understand that in the final analysis, the father is too selfish.
At this time, I already felt selfish. Although I love my children very much, in my heart, I value Chenchen more.
Chenchen and I took our child out together. I sat in the passenger seat and my child sat in the back. The child said, "It would be great if there were three seats in front. I can sit in the front too."
Chenchen immediately glanced at me, with a kind of pity in her eyes. At this time, I suddenly felt the child's loneliness and his dependence on us. I thought to myself: I will take my child out more in the future.
But now this situation can only be like this.
I said to my child: "Son, even if there are three seats in front of you, you can't sit in the front. It's not safe. The police will fine you."