Of course I understand that she means that from now on she and I will be integrated from body to soul. But I don’t want this, because there are already enough troubles. "Hong Ya, we are friends,
This kind of relationship shouldn't have happened. So, it's best for us to be pure friends from now on. What do you think?"
Her beautiful eyes stared at me blankly, and she kept looking at me like this, which made me a little scared... Suddenly, she laughed softly, "Feng Xiao, don't worry, I won't ask to marry you.
, Even if I want to do that, Sister Lin won’t agree. Do you think so? Okay, let’s just be friends, friends with complete communication and integration between spirit and body. Is that okay?”
"Hong Ya, didn't you say you wanted to tell me about your past?" This was of course to change the subject, because the question she just asked was really difficult for me to answer.
My tea came, steaming hot, and a wisp of fragrance hit my nostrils. She began to slowly tell her story——
I have had a stubborn temper since I was a child, and my inferiority complex is very stubborn. After years of wear and tear, my dual personality still exists. My parents are the kind of people with standard patriarchal thoughts, so I made up my mind to
I wanted to make a career and show it to them. When I was twenty-two years old, I started trading, and I really made a lot of money. I remitted the money to my parents, and I felt relieved immediately.
, and also washed away a little sense of inferiority. My biggest feeling at the time was that money is sometimes the most effective prescription for generating self-confidence.
After returning to my hometown to rest for a while, I went to Shanghai with a very small amount of money. When I left the Shanghai train station, I only had a few hundred yuan with me. Not to mention looking for a job, this little money was not enough for a round trip immediately. I
I deliberately cut off my escape route in order to carve out a bloody path. That night, I stayed in a low-end and dilapidated guest house near the train station. When I went to bed at night, rats crawled over my face, treating my face like a piece of wood.
The potential is unlimited. When there is no way back, there are roads everywhere in front, and the mountains and seas also become roads.
A few days later, I went to work as a promoter in a bar at the train station, which was actually a solicitation girl. The boss was very smart. Of course he knew that I was unfamiliar with Shanghai, but he knew that I was a sight to behold once I stopped in front of the bar.
A money tree for him. The bar is a mixed place. If you want to survive in this kind of place, you have to become like a goblin, unable to change, and you have to pretend to be feminine on the outside. Of course, I will always be pure in my bones.
My personality is not content with playing around in such a small pond. I know that sooner or later I will become a surfer in the ocean.
Unfortunately, a car accident almost changed my life. One day, I went out to do errands. Near the Shangri-La Hotel, I was hit by a car and injured. For a woman, my injuries were very tragic. My ovaries
Rupture is something I would never dare to imagine in my nightmares. As an obstetrician and gynecologist, you should know that this kind of injury will affect a woman’s endocrine system. If not properly treated, it will cause a woman’s appearance to become dull. So
, this kind of pain is almost the same as death to me. When I had a car accident, a Hong Kong man happened to be passing by. He took me to the hospital. He paid several thousand yuan for me on the first day and continued to take care of me afterwards.
For a strange man, the reward he wants most for helping a beautiful woman is undoubtedly her body. And since I can’t pay back the money, although I am reluctant to repay in this way, there seems to be no other way.
There is a better way. Just like that, after I was discharged from the hospital, I had sex without love. Of course, sex without love cannot last long, and we broke up not long after. But this experience made me have a deeper understanding of human beings.
Having a new understanding of sex, I began to feel that men’s reality is manifested in sexual desire, and women’s reality is manifested in money.
After I left Hong Kong, I was quickly hired by the boss of a large company as the secretary to the chairman. At that time, I was still a bit naive and thought that if I did my job well, I would have a future. I later found out that he hired me as his secretary.
He also came here because of my beauty. Although he praised me many times for being smart and capable in front of others, I had no idea at the time that he turned out to be a drunkard who didn't care about drinking. He liked to play golf and asked me to accompany him every time.
He went to relax. Once, I had dinner with him, and he tried his best to toast me. In a private enterprise, who dares to offend the boss? It’s too late to curry favor, it’s impossible not to drink. Finally, he got me drunk. That night
, he forcibly had a relationship with me. After that, I became his secretary on the surface, but actually became his lover. And this kind of lover who was made through some kind of transaction, naturally there is not much love at all. So some people say
, Lovers are the most ruthless people in the world. As the saying goes, if you don’t want others to know you, you have to do nothing yourself. Since I have a relationship with him, I have to endure the strange looks from my colleagues in the company every day. This kind of life is not comfortable at all.
, let alone happiness. After a while, I took the initiative to ask the chairman to work in the marketing department. The income of the marketing department mainly depends on business commissions, which is much harder than being a secretary, but I am very happy. On the one hand, I want to rely on my own
I worked hard and relied on my own ability. On the one hand, I wanted to get rid of the strange eyes of my colleagues. After my repeated requests, the chairman knew that I was not very interested in him, and finally agreed to let me work in the marketing department. When I arrived in the marketing department,
I tried my best to avoid the chairman of the board, thinking that if I worked hard to do a good job in business, I would be able to sit back and relax, but unexpectedly, I was forced to lose my job again. Because after the chairman knew that I didn’t like him, he found an unfounded charge and fired me.
My performance was outstanding, but it could not save my fate in the company. I finally realized that once a woman, especially a beautiful woman, has that kind of relationship with her boss, she is walking on the edge of a cliff, and it looks very beautiful.
Beauty, in fact, is very dangerous. You may fall into the abyss at any time. I am looking forward to the appearance of the right man in my life...
I am physically and mentally exhausted, and I am no longer as ambitious as I was when I first came out. At this time, what I hope most is that I can live a plain life for the rest of my life, and I can finally understand the philosophical connotation of "plainness is the truth". I also hope that I can
I found an ordinary man who could marry me and grow old together. Later, I finally met a boy as old as me. The boy moved me just because he accidentally said, "I want to marry you."
. He was very simple and didn’t have much money, but he fit my criteria for a simple life, so I fell in love with him. I devoted myself wholeheartedly to him. At his request, I threw away all my business cards and business records.
I posted the contact information of those people. I closed the door, cooked for him, and washed his clothes. I thought I could be a good wife and mother by doing this, but a few months later, I discovered that I was wrong again.
Because I accidentally discovered that he was dating several girls at the same time.
So, I was completely disappointed with the so-called love. I found strangely that when a person no longer believes in feelings, it becomes much easier to do other things. I soon had my own career and I was making more and more money.
Of course, all this is because of Sister Lin's help. I met her accidentally when I was most disappointed. After she learned about my situation, she asked acquaintances to use her connections to help me do business. Later,
I finally understood that the world is actually balanced. When a person loses something, he will gain something else. Feng Xiao, look at Sister Lin's situation, isn't she exactly like this?
She stopped when she said this, then raised her head and looked at me, "You know what happened later. Feng Xiao, do you think I am stupid? Logically speaking, my family conditions are not bad, maybe back then
Just stay at home honestly, then find a job in a state unit, receive a monthly salary to eat, get married and have children, maybe this life will be better."
I sighed in my heart and shook my head at the same time: "Each of us has our own dream, which has nothing to do with a person's gender. You were also a person with dreams back then, so you were not willing to remain mediocre like that. No matter what, you have fought hard.
You have passed it, and at least you have succeeded in your career. Although you have been scarred emotionally, I think you should not give up. Maybe God wants you to solve your career problems first and then satisfy your emotional needs. Hong Ya, actually
True love still exists. Although it is difficult to find, it exists after all. I think that as long as you look for your love like your career, you will definitely succeed. The key is that you should be discouraged, let alone wrap yourself up.
.”
"I understand all these principles. The key thing is that I can't do it because I get scared when I think of the things I did in the past," she said.
I suddenly felt sad because I understood one thing: it is not that easy to untie a person's heart knot. Suddenly, I remembered something, something she mentioned just now when she was telling the story.
Something happened, so I hurriedly asked her: "Also, have you fully recovered from your injuries after the car accident? After the ovary ruptures, the ovaries usually need to be removed."
"One side was removed, and the other side is still there. But I always feel that my body is no longer complete, and I am also worried about whether I will be able to have children in the future," she said.
I immediately breathed a sigh of relief, "No problem. As long as one ovary is present, it is no problem to have a baby. Most people have two ovaries crossing over to produce eggs. If this month it is the right ovary that produces eggs, then the baby will be born."
It will be the left side in one month. After the ovary on one side is removed, the other side will fully take on this task. Our human body is the most perfectly evolved, just like removing one kidney will not have a big impact on the human body.
.In fact, this is also a kind of compensation.”
"Compensation? What do you mean?" she asked.
"The compensatory nature of the human body is simply the backup function of the human body. It refers to a self-regulating function of the human body. When the function or structure of an organ becomes diseased, it is replaced by a healthy part of the original organ or other organs to compensate.
Its function. For example, in chronic glomerulonephritis, some nephrons are damaged and destroyed, the glomeruli undergo fibrosis, and the renal tubules to which they belong atrophy and disappear. At this time, the function of the undamaged or slightly damaged nephrons increases.
, cell proliferation and hypertrophy. If one kidney is removed due to disease, the other kidney will become hypertrophic, and can even double in size to compensate for the function of the removed kidney. Blind people can use their particularly developed hearing and touch
The ability to recognize various objects, and even be aware of the mood of the speaker; people who have lost their arms can write with their mouths or toes. These are all examples. Just imagine, if the blind and disabled adopt an attitude of not caring about everything and passively retreat from the world,
It is absolutely impossible to have those abilities that are beyond ordinary people. As the saying goes, what you lose is what you gain, and this is what it means to make up for the loss within the dike. However, we can also understand a truth from the compensatory function of the human body, that is, we
Any unsatisfactory encounter has a dual nature: it can make the weak strengthen themselves, but it can also make them abandon themselves. Hong Ya, do you understand what I mean?" I said. (To be continued)