Hearing what she said, I suddenly felt even more guilty, "Auntie, are you feeling better now?"
"It's much better. I took medicine and slept for a few days and I'll be fine." She said, wiping her tears at the same time, "Comrade Feng, I'm so sorry."
"Today I went to see Sun Lulu. She asked me one thing, that is, she hopes that I can take good care of you in the future. On the way here, I made up my mind, either you will stay at my house, or I will go and invite you
A nanny. You see..." I said immediately.
She shook her head, "No, thank you. I'm not that precious. I'm fine being alone now, it's fine. Hey! If I hadn't thought it would be more convenient to live here to see Lulu, I would have moved back to my hometown long ago.
"
I said sincerely: "Auntie, you are old after all. Look, didn't you say you were sick just now? You live here alone and there is no one to take care of you. I am really worried. I have a child at home.
Nanny, why don't you come and live with me? Your daughter has entrusted you to me, and I must do this for her. If you really don't want to live in my house, I will go and find one for you right away.
Nanny, I’ll pay you every month’s salary, what do you think?”
But she still shook her head, "It's really not necessary. If I really reach the point where I can't move, I can hire a nanny myself. Lulu left me a sum of money, which is enough for me. I can also hire a nanny."
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I was silent for a moment, thought about it, and then wrote down my phone number and handed it to her, "Auntie, let's do this. If anything happens to you, just call me. I will come over to see you often.
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This time she didn't refuse, she took the note I gave her.
I looked at the time and said, "Auntie, I'll invite you out for a meal at noon. Is that okay?"
She shook her head, "I don't have a good appetite these days. I cook some porridge every day and eat whatever I want. Comrade Feng, don't worry, I'll be fine."
I looked at her and found that her expression was gloomy and miserable. I was sure that she would never be as old as she is now before Sun Lulu's incident, because I can roughly judge her age from Sun Lulu's age. Like
Someone of her age shouldn't be in such a state.
"Auntie, don't worry, I will find a way to get Sun Lulu out as soon as possible. I will definitely." I looked at the old man and said, feeling a little excited. I knew that giving this old man hope is the most important thing now.
But she shook her head, "She killed someone, so the government was very lenient if she didn't let her die. I didn't think about other things."
"She didn't kill someone intentionally, it was an accidental injury." I said, suddenly remembering the strangeness of that night, and hurriedly asked her: "Auntie, I was actually the one who sent her home that night, right here where you live.
Downstairs. But I don’t understand why she ran back there to sleep later?”
Although Tong Yao told me the reason, I still can't completely believe it in my heart. Is washing clothes so important? Do you have to rush back so late?
She replied: "Shortly after she came home that night, a strong wind suddenly blew. Some clothes from someone upstairs were blown down, and they just fell on the window of our house. Then she suddenly remembered the sun.
Tong Yangxi’s clothes were not washed, so she said to me: Mom, I am going to the countryside tomorrow, and I have to go back and wash the clothes, otherwise the clothes will become moldy. Tong Yangxi’s clothes are very expensive.
It would be a pity if they were broken. I said: Then I will help you wash those clothes tomorrow. But she disagreed and said that I could not wash them cleanly because she said that there were white shirts in those clothes and my eyes were bad.
She was worried that I wouldn't be able to see the dirty spots on her clothes. You know, her temper is like that of a person who always insists on telling the truth. I couldn't do anything about it, so I didn't try to persuade her anymore. But who knew? Then something like that happened.
Things. Hey! This is all fate, Comrade Feng, think about it, if there hadn't been a strong wind that night, if a piece of clothing hadn't happened to fall on our window, how could she have thought of doing the laundry?
This is fate, there is nothing we can do about it."
I suddenly felt sad and thought in my heart: Is all this really life?
After a while, I asked her: "Auntie, do you believe that Sun Lulu killed her... Oh, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't ask you this question. But I always felt that what happened that day was too strange."
She shook her head, "Fate is destined by God. If it's not surprising, it's not fate. Not long after the incident happened, I went to the temple, and a monk there told me my fortune. He told me that something happened to my daughter.
, that’s all fate. It’s said that Lulu was killed by her man in her previous life, so that’s why something like that happened to her in this life.”
I simply don't believe such a thing, "Auntie, that monk must have lied to you. Don't believe such nonsense."
But she said to me seriously: "That's true. I didn't say anything at the time, but the monk just told me that."
I couldn't help but feel horrified, "Which monk in the temple are you talking about?"
Sun Lulu's mother told me that she went to the Kuchan Temple in the east of the city. She also told me that the temple was very popular, but she met the monk by chance.
"I just entered the temple gate and ran into him. He said to me, Amitabha! Can this female donor take a step to speak? Then I followed him to a big tree next to the temple, and he told me
After hearing those words, I was stunned for a moment, and before I could recover, I found that he was gone," she said.
I thought this thing was a bit unbelievable and extremely strange, so I hurriedly asked her: "What does that monk look like?"
"He is very thin, skinny and skinny. The cassock on his body looks like it was dried on a bamboo pole. By the way, his eyebrows are white and very long. He looks like he is at least sixty years old," she said.
After I came out of her house, I thought: I must go to that temple tomorrow.
From the bottom of my heart, I really hope to go this afternoon. Unfortunately, I have an appointment with a patient in the afternoon.
Tong Yao called me that night. She told me: "It's okay. I talked to her. She just said that she felt very sad because she felt that she was useless in this life. Her thoughts were completely understandable.
After all, she is already twenty-five or six years old now, and she is already close to forty when she comes out of prison. How can a woman talk about career and happiness after reaching such an age? What’s more, she came out of prison. To be honest.
, I sympathize with her."
"Tong Yao, do you really not hate her at all? She killed your brother after all." I asked.
She sighed and said: "She didn't mean it. But until now, I feel that this matter is full of weirdness. Many things are difficult to explain. During the investigation, we also used a lie detector, but it proved that she
His confession is true. Maybe this is his fate."
I found that everyone around Sun Lulu regarded this matter as an arrangement of fate. Even Tong Yao. Now, I also believe in fate. Otherwise, how can all of this be explained?
From this, I thought about Zhao Menglei's incident, Su Hua's incident, my mentor's death, and even Chen Yuan's current coma, and I found that my worldview seemed to be being subverted little by little.
Chen Yuan's condition is getting worse and worse now. The muscles in her legs and arms have begun to atrophy, and the joints are exposed little by little. Her face is very thin, as if the skull is wrapped with a thin layer.
It was like her skin. I am a doctor, so I don’t think her current appearance is so terrifying, but the sadness in my heart is getting stronger and stronger: I can’t imagine that she who was once so beautiful will become like this one day. Suddenly
The perception of human beauty is just an illusion.
Recently, something I often say in front of her is: "Yuanyuan, keep at it, you will definitely wake up."
But the child is different. Now he doesn't dare to see his mother at all. When the child sees Chen Yuan, he will burst into tears and struggle for us to hold him and leave there.
So I told the nanny: "Don't let the child get close to her."
The nanny just agreed but didn't ask me why. I didn't want to explain it to her. Only I know the truth: As a mother, I don't want my children to see my ugly face in my heart. If I let my children see her ugly face again,
The words in front of her are likely to aggravate her subconscious unwillingness to wake up.
All along, especially recently, I seem to understand the reason why she doesn't want to wake up: maybe she is demonstrating to me.
She gave birth to a son for me, but inside she was angry at my half-heartedness. So she used this method to punish me.
Since the Sun Lulu incident happened, my inner guilt has become even stronger, so I can’t help but think about many things about myself. However, after feeling guilty and guilty, I can’t help but start to angrily: How could I
What kind of things should be blamed on me? Zhao Menglei's matter was obviously the one who committed the murder. Su Hua's matter was obviously the result of Jiang Zhenren's divorce from her. Not to mention Sun Lulu's matter, she
I accidentally injured Tong Yangxi, is this also my responsibility?
There was a time when I was always thinking about another thing: I found that the women I had a relationship with didn't seem to have a good ending, and for a period of time I even felt that I had the legendary fate of "killing my wife." However,
Later I thought, if that is really the case, then how come Zhuang Qing, Lin Yu and Hong Ya are all doing well? Moreover, Lin Yu is still getting promoted, and Zhuang Qing has also got out of the trough of her career. So, I
I denied the inexplicable idea in my heart. However, after what happened with Sun Lulu, especially after Tong Yao said that it was fate, I began to doubt it again.
And when Sun Lulu's mother suddenly talked about the fortune-telling monk, I suddenly had an impulse in my heart: Why don't I go find that monk to tell my fortune?
So, I went there the next afternoon and went to the place called Kuchan Temple. (To be continued)