I hurriedly said: "Let's do this, I will take you to the hospital tomorrow."
"Do you have a female doctor in the breast department?" she asked, wiping her tears.
I shook my head, "The breast department is a department within the general surgery department, so it only has male doctors."
"I don't want to be treated by those male doctors," she said.
I was speechless for a moment. Under such circumstances, I really couldn't say anything to ask her to check that area again. After all, this was not a hospital, and I wasn't as drunk as last time.
She filled herself up with wine and drank it in one gulp. I was shocked, "Shangguan, the more this happens, the less likely you are to drink."
Her tears welled up again, "I'm already like this, what else can I do if I don't drink?"
I advised her: "Let's do it tomorrow. I will take you to the hospital tomorrow. Or let a female doctor in our department take a look at you."
She didn't speak. She poured herself another glass of wine and drank it before asking me: "Feng Xiao, can't you check me again?"
I said: "This is not good."
But she said: "You are a doctor, what's wrong with you?"
I found that her speech had become slurred, and it was obvious that she was drunk.
I don’t know why, but I always feel that something strange happened tonight. Shangguan Qin made me feel extremely abnormal today. It’s not that I don’t believe what she just said, or that I doubt the true nature of her condition.
It’s fake, but it just feels weird.
"Feng Xiao, where are you staying tonight?" I was thinking wildly in my mind when I suddenly heard her asking me.
I answered without thinking, maybe it was the effect of alcohol, or maybe it was because I was thinking wildly and didn't have time to react, "I live in a hotel."
She immediately said: "Then let's go to the hotel where you are staying. Can you check it for me? I'm so scared. Feng Xiao, really, I'm so scared."
I can't refuse.
I really couldn't refuse, because I found that her crying didn't look like she was pretending, and as an obstetrician and gynecologist, I always have a sympathetic attitude towards women's pain. The emergence of such a mentality is completely a kind of
It was a natural process without any deliberate effort. I think maybe this is an emotion that I formed in the course of my career and has slowly penetrated into my bones.
Because of this, I always think that my professional ethics and professional conscience are good. Even though my life is so chaotic, I still think that I am a reasonably qualified obstetrician and gynecologist. I have never thought about this.
Any doubt. In front of my patients or in the ward, I have never had any blasphemous thoughts about any of my patients, never.
But now, when Shangguanqin asked me to go to the hotel where I was staying to check her breasts, I immediately hesitated, because I knew very well: that was not a hospital, that was a hotel, and it was very likely that a person would get pregnant.
An environment full of charming thoughts and desires.
So, I was very worried. And I also thought that this was how I and Zhao Menglei became husband and wife. Although it was at her home, I think a place like a hotel is similar to a place at home, and there is less.
psychological taboos.
However, Shangguanqin is my friend. Especially now, I don't regard her as Lin Yi's assistant at all, because she is asking me for help as a friend, and it can even be said that she is asking me for help.
Ask for help.
Therefore, I couldn't refuse, and I couldn't bear to refuse. So, after a brief hesitation and inner struggle, I said to Shangguanqin: "Okay, let's leave now."
She stood up immediately but staggered back to her seat, "I'll go check out."
It could be seen that she was obviously very drunk, so I hurriedly said: "I'm going to pay the bill. Didn't I agree? I'm treating you today."
Her hands were waving in front of my eyes, "I am your patient today..."
I found that her movements were so beautiful even when she was drunk. Of course, she looked a little funny. I smiled and said to her, "We are friends. Don't argue."
Immediately, I went to ask the waiter to pay the bill. We spent a lot of money on this meal. Firstly, the price of wild fish is relatively expensive. Secondly, we ordered two bottles of Wuliangye. Although the second bottle was not finished, she
She drank a lot more than me later, and she drank very quickly just now, so she was drunk but I was able to stay at least sober.
After paying the bill, I returned to my seat and found that she was already crawling on the table, so I went to her side and called softly: "Shangguan, wake up!"
She raised her head, and I found that her face was covered with tears.
"Let's go. Don't worry, it shouldn't be a big problem." I said to her softly.
She smiled sadly at me, then wiped away her tears, "I drank too much, Feng Xiao, please help me up."
I went to help her up, with one hand on her waist and the other on her arm. She stood up slowly with the strength I gave her, and then we slowly walked out of the restaurant and walked slowly
Got to my car.
When I got to the driver's seat, I started the car and drove out slowly. I drove the car very gently because I was worried that she would get dizzy or vomit due to the speed of the car.
Soon we arrived at the hotel where I was staying, and I helped her out of the car. At this moment, I felt that her body had become as limp as mud.
I was really drunk. I smiled bitterly in my heart.
Just now, we didn't talk when I drove to the hotel. She curled up in the seat as soon as she got in the car. It looked like she was drunk, and her eyes were closed tightly from the moment she got in the car.
So I didn't talk to her anymore, I just drove the car forward smoothly.
But my mind was not calm. I kept thinking: Will I do anything inappropriate when I get to the hotel? You know, Shangguanqin is different from other girls. She is Lin
Yi's assistant!
As the saying goes, rabbits don't eat grass from their nests, so she is absolutely untouchable! Maybe Lin Yi can forgive me for having such a relationship with other girls, but he will never forgive me for violating Shangguan Qin. And in my
There was a vague feeling in his heart that the relationship between him and Shangguanqin was not just a simple relationship between a boss and an assistant.
What is an assistant? After all, isn’t it Xiaomi? This concept may not be just my idea, because it has become a common phenomenon in today’s Chinese society.
Wu Yaru is different, because Lin Yi has cut off all relations with her, and Lin Yi probably doesn't know what happened between me and her. He won't know.
So, I am very worried, very worried.
However, we arrived at the hotel very quickly, and I had already helped Shangguanqin out of the car. I helped her slowly enter the hotel.
However, I secretly warned myself: Feng Xiao, you must restrain yourself tonight!
Entering the hotel lobby, I looked around anxiously and found that there were about a dozen people inside. Some people were standing in the middle of the lobby, seemingly waiting for guests, some were walking back and forth on the phone, and there were several others.
A person was chatting about something on the sofa in the corner of the lobby. No one paid attention to us.
I couldn't help but smile bitterly in my heart: In today's society, the phenomenon of a man and a woman entering a hotel like us is no longer strange. People have long been accustomed to it. Moreover, it is impossible for those reporters to follow such a place. After all, they are looking for
There was no trace of me. In the final analysis, it was myself who had the ghost in my heart.
I helped her into the elevator, and her body was still soft on one side of my body. Just now, when we entered the hotel lobby until now, I felt her body trembling. It seemed that she really
Was frightened.
After getting out of the elevator, I continued to support her towards my room.
Finally arriving at the door of my room, I took out the key card from my trouser pocket. Her body trembled even more.
I can understand her, because everyone's fear of death is instinctive. A lump means a tumor, and a tumor is synonymous with cancer. Cancer is closely linked to death.
We only have one life. In this world, people can experience joys and sorrows, and the experience of life, but they cannot know what it will be like when they die. People who are not dead certainly don't know, but once they cross this threshold, they will become yin and yang.
We are separated forever and will never come back. Therefore, no one can answer this eternal question.
When a child comes into the world, he cries loudly. Crying is always unhappy, uncomfortable, and you don’t want to? He must be uncomfortable and in pain. When a person leaves this world, there is also a lot of crying. When a person is about to die, his face
Their expressions are sometimes ugly and miserable. Therefore, when people describe the degree of pain, they often say a smooth saying: It is worse than death! This means that death is the most painful thing. People are afraid of death.
In fact, no one has ever died, and no one knows what death feels like.
Death is a sword hanging over everyone's head. It will fall one day. This is the fate that people are destined from birth. However, the world is too busy, and there are too many temptations and entanglements to hold it back.
He keeps his body and mind occupied so that he has no time to think about this matter. So he has to adopt an attitude of avoidance and turning a blind eye, completely ignoring it, as if it does not happen at all. It seems that in this way, he becomes very active in the world and works hard.
There is a purpose. Otherwise, there is a risk of being negative and nihilistic, and you are likely to be criticized.
In fact, death is something that is irrefutable. People want to avoid it and not look at it. But it happens around us all the time. May I ask: Who has never had a death in their home? It doesn’t say hello when it comes, it comes as soon as it is said to come, so that
People are caught off guard and can only silently accept the cruel reality afterwards.
From a psychological point of view, death is actually people's fear of the unknown and the loss of themselves. The scary thing about death is not the death itself, but what happens after the death of other people we see.
A kind of psychological fear. Some people say: Death is not terrible, what is terrible is the process of waiting for death.
Because we all have no way of knowing what kind of world there will be after we die. (To be continued)