There was silence in the room, and I felt that the end of the world was coming towards me: it was over, everything was over.
Then I went to see Liu Meng and found that she was slumped on the ground, naked, as if she had passed out, because I remembered that she had been in that state for a long time.
He hurriedly got down to the bed and squatted down next to her, "Liu Meng, Liu Meng!"
She was still silent. I reached out to her body and found that it was completely cold. I was shocked, so I quickly picked her up and put her on the bed. Then I saw that her eyes were closed tightly and her face was extremely pale.
Awesome. My heart suddenly "thumped", and I hurriedly felt her pulse... I breathed a long sigh of relief. Fortunately, although her pulse was a little weak, it was basically normal, so I checked it.
The sheet covered her naked body, and then pressed her philtrum hard.
She woke up slowly. I felt a little happy in my heart, but suddenly I remembered what happened just now, and my heart suddenly returned to the panic state just now.
"What should I do?" I heard Liu Meng ask softly.
I didn't answer, because the question she asked was exactly what I wanted to ask, and it was also what I was most afraid of at the moment.
"Feng Xiao, what should I do?" she continued to ask.
I could only answer, "Liu Meng, will he divorce you?"
She looked at me blankly, and then turned her gaze to the opposite wall. She said softly: "He loves me very much."
I felt extremely uncomfortable, guilty and scared at the same time. All kinds of complicated emotions came to my heart at this moment, "I'm sorry, it was me who hurt you, it was me..."
She didn't pay attention to me, but immediately and suddenly got up from the bed, then quickly dressed, muttering: "No, I have to go back right away, I have to find him right away!"
I shouted to her, "Liu Meng!"
She still ignored me and was still mumbling to herself, "He must be very sad and said that something big might not happen. I have to find him right away!"
"I'll take you back." I said hurriedly. This is the only thing I can say now, because I only have this sentence in my heart.
"Leave me alone, leave me alone..." she said, still not coming to see me. She quickly put on the same clothes and pants she had worn when she came. Then she got out of bed, put on her shoes, and immediately walked towards
He ran to the door and stopped suddenly, turning his back to me like the man just now, "Feng Xiao, I don't hate you, I only hate myself!"
Immediately, she ran out. Then, I heard her crying from outside, and her crying went away quickly...
I fell slumped on the bed again. At this moment, I couldn't help crying and burst into tears. I felt so lonely, so scared, so guilty, and also very sad.
I didn't leave this place until late in the afternoon. When I walked out of the room, I saw the off-road vehicle parked alone in the courtyard outside.
Feng Xiao, you should have known a long time ago that you would get retribution for doing this. Now, your retribution has come. I said to myself when I got in the car.
It took me nearly three hours to drive back to the provincial capital from the ancient town. No one knows what I was feeling at that time: there was panic, contempt for myself, and fear. I felt that there was something worse than what happened between me and Zhuang Qing.
A bigger dilemma is about to arise. If that is the case, I am fully aware that the result will be ruin, and my only way out is to resign and leave the hospital.
I thought of Su Hua.
Feng Xiao, this is retribution. I said this to myself again and again along the way.
Although I feel that it is strange that Liu Meng's husband found that ancient town, now I don't want to analyze this matter anymore, because the analysis has become meaningless - things are already like this, and I have found the reason.
So what?
Most of my thoughts along the way were on today's events. It was a miracle that I was able to drive the car home, because when I got to the downstairs of my house, I couldn't remember how I drove the car to this place.
At this moment, it is just right to use the word "walking dead" to describe myself.
I didn't see the nanny when I got home, and I didn't hear her response after I called out. I didn't want to get angry because I thought I had no right to be angry. Then I went to the room where Chen Yuan usually was, and found that
There was no sign of her, and she suddenly remembered what Lin Yi had said about taking her and the child over.
I was the only one in the house, everything was empty, and I could even hear my own breathing. At this moment, I suddenly felt the grief and anger in my heart begin to pour out, and then I heard myself wailing like a beast.
Voice.
Then I felt my eyes go dark, and then I didn't know anything anymore.
When I woke up, I found that I was lying on the sofa. I couldn't remember why I was here, because I couldn't remember exactly where I was when my vision went dark. From this, I can understand
Self: Even in this situation, I will still not abuse myself, and will still put my body in a comfortable and warm place.
This is the most fundamental thing in my subconscious: in the final analysis, the person I love is only myself.
The moment I woke up, I seemed to hear the lingering sound of my phone, but I didn't want to look at it because I wasn't in that mood at all.
It was dark inside the house, and it should be night now, but I didn't know how deep the night was. I didn't want to get up and turn on the light, because I didn't feel hungry, and I didn't have the strength to get up from the sofa.
I feel like my body hurts so much! My head, shoulders, abdomen, and legs all feel pain, especially my head and temples on both sides, where the pain is particularly severe.
I knew I was probably sick and probably had a fever.
Just lying on the sofa, I felt dizzy, but because of the darkness around me, I couldn't find the coordinates of the dizziness. I also felt flustered, my throat hurt, and... I suddenly felt that my life was...
Gone slowly.
It's okay like this, just die, so that you can no longer face your parents, friends, and those people in the hospital... It's okay like this, it's okay... Then, I again
Entered into endless darkness.
When I woke up, I found that I was no longer at home. I was lying on a bed. There was white everywhere in front of me, white walls, white sheets and quilts, and a man in white overalls who was smiling at me.
woman. She is a nurse. I am in the hospital, on the bed, with an infusion tube in my hand.
I didn't recognize the nurse, so I asked, "Where is this?"
In fact, what I asked was: What place is this? Which hospital? But when I asked, I felt that my throat was still hurting, but my voice was so hoarse.
The nurse smiled and said: "This is the Second People's Hospital of the Province. Doctor Feng, are you feeling better now?"
No wonder, the Second Provincial People's Hospital is very close to my home. I thought to myself. But I was very confused, "How do you know me? Who sent me here?"
She smiled and answered me: "A beautiful woman sent you here. She told us that you are a doctor at the Medical University Hospital and asked us to treat you with all our heart. Haha! Dr. Feng, we are colleagues."
"
I smiled, but I was wondering in my heart: Beautiful woman? Who could it be? But I didn't want to ask, because I was still bored and worried.
The nurse didn't know my current state of mind. She continued to say to me: "Dr. Feng, you have a cold, and it's very serious. But now you are better, you are finally awake. In this way, you can rest for a while, and I will call you."
The doctor is here to check you out."
I shook my head, "No, I feel much more comfortable. Let me have a good rest. By the way, give me some amino acids to supplement my energy. Thank you!"
"Okay, then I'll go talk to the doctor." She said, and was about to leave. I suddenly remembered something and immediately stopped her, "Have I paid my hospitalization fee in advance?"
She smiled and said: "Of course. That beautiful woman paid it for you. Haha! Although you are a doctor, we still have to collect money before treating. Do you know that?"
I smiled bitterly and ignored her. I didn't want to sleep anymore, but I didn't want to talk anymore. Now, I'm still panicking because I don't know what will happen next.
I did have a cold. I wanted to think about what happened today, but I felt that my mind was in a state of confusion and I couldn't think clearly about the problem. In my heart, I didn't want to just succumb to it.
With my current destiny, I now understand that waiting and escaping are actually the most dangerous things, so I must find a way to solve something that has happened that may bring endless disaster to myself.
However, I couldn't think, and I couldn't call Liu Meng.
Now, I hate myself very much, because I should have kept Liu Meng, at least we should discuss a solution. However, the fear and cowardice in my heart made me give up such an opportunity, and put myself in the current situation.
Such a desperate situation turned him into a lamb waiting to be slaughtered.
I was discharged from the hospital in the afternoon. Through my doctor friend at the Second Provincial People's Hospital, I found out at the entrance and exit who the person who paid for me was Shangguan Qin. In fact, I should have thought it was her. (To be continued)